[Miserable] ©

Responsible, once I was

Kept to curfews and heed your word

Excited about church, I was in love with the Lord

Never mind your hindrance, my faith was to grow.

I came home from Sunday Celebration, head over heels in love,

Your silent reproach had to burst.

I began to swear and curse.

I knew I had become another Fred Durst.

The world crumbled

The sky toppled

Diminished hopes, I’ve already fumbled.

Exhausted from this race

I would never see your face

My rule was to be in my coming days

For the exams I simply lazed

My life, a rocking craze

Far from what you thought to be a woman of grace.

Laughter and joy from the little ones

Brotherly concern amongst

Family gatherings, a festival of fun

Damn, Do I even care?

New life of excitement

It didn’t need no commitment

You became intolerant

I appeared nonchalant

Asked me to your room, to talk, outta concern.

I was stumped for a moment

Struck by your statement.

“You’re living in your own world”

I realized I wasn’t being real

Just like a coward I curled

Oblivious to all happenings here

Miserable I’ve been these 16 years.

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