In Memory of....

Here i sit in a lonely desolate hall, a small group has gathered around a locker that stands as a silent memorial to one who has taken his life.

He has left his friends and family to cope with the pain of losing a friend and family member...

I sit here and see the tears in their eyes, the pain they feel. my heart feels mixed emotions.

I feel that this boy is selfish and a coward for leaving his family and friends, yet I feel that he was lost and only needed to find one that could help him. He was lost in his misery. He was lost amidst the love around him.

I did not know this boy but i had seen his face and it stands out in my mind. I therefore do not know why I feel the way I do. I feel pain and a loss and I do not know why..

This misery hangs over this school like a big dark cloud about to spill rain upon the world below.

Perhaps his death has awakened the dark memories within my myself and my past.

The endless days of loneliness amidst all the love from my family. The constant evil laughter of my classmates.

The searching eyes of one boy in my class that kept the hope within me burning. He did not say a word to me but his eyes told me all. That seemed so long ago that I wished death upon myself.

I regret having wished that upon myself but am glad that that boy was there to save me.

I did not know at the time what I would have missed if I had taken my life as this boy has.

I found my one true love and I found my way to the light. The eyes that saved me before have lef tmy life, but a new set of eyes watches over me and protects me.

Then it hits me, at last I have realized what this death has done. It has reminded me of how my life was and what it has become. I had the will to live and that pair of watchful eyes. I still do have watchful eyes and I love this new protector.

My only regret now is that there was noone to save this boy who died. I wish to God that there was someway I could have helped this boy, but I know that it is too late for him and all I can wish now is that his soul is at rest......

Dedicated to family and friends of dearly departed. 

Anonymous Pickering High school student