(w: J. Porter m: M. Boone)
Held on to another restless sleep last night
Kept trying to understand the basic wrong and right
Here comes the pressure pushing me to sleep
Looking for answers and it makes me feel like a creep
Never stopped to wonder just what was wrong with me
Too busy questioning the things I couldn't see
Somewhere a backshelf cries for your arrival
I've tried so many times and it's essential to my survival
But I won't give up, no I won't give up
No not until I've had enough
So fuck what you see, this life is not for me
I can't stand it when we wallow in self-pitty
So fuck what you see, this ain't no elegy
I don't really care if this was never meant be
A child's cry becomes soothing
A cold scream bleeds dry
If nothing makes sense anymore
Then why the hell do I try?
No tears can rust away this steel inside my heart
The shame of understanding this confusion from the start
So try to wash away fire's hate inside my brain
Seduced to a steaming wreck, 1,000 dancing in the flame
But I won't give up, no I won't give up
No not until I've had enough