The lies you tell me, the secrets you hold from me.
How the trust I gave, went tumbling all down the drain.
DAMN you for being so sincere.
TO HELL WITH YOU if you actually think I can put my full faith back on the line without having doubt.
To have you use me time and time again.
Puts a deep dark wretched hole in my heart, that will take time to heal, but a scar of love will always linger.
How dare you think that I would never know.
To never find out that you were with another.
But you said I could trust you and that you would never cheat on me, hurt me, and you even had the gull to say you loved me.
I do feel you had a level of love for me.
You said you never felt this way before.
Maybe that is why you don't know a good thing when you have it.
There is one thing for sure, one thing you will never take from me.
One thing I will trust with a man, a man that is everything you are only better.
Since you have hurt me this way you will be in my heart but as a blackened scar.
But DAMN you for not trusting me enough to tell me the truth.
I have met someone like you
Yet one like me.
He tries to to get me to talk share the thoughts that rest in my mind. Opening up and letting someone new in is awkward because it is new.
I try to form what to say in my mind but the glue that binds the thoughts is weak and nothing is said.
My shell is strong and comfortable, the one in which I shelter my thoughts.
Yet there is a crack that you have started.
The more I meet people the more the crack moves and widens. Meeting this guy opens it more
I am happy that there is someone near that I can say what I type to you, but scared and nervous for the comfort
of being behind a screen is missing.
This man will not hurt me, I trust him I want to talk and speak my mind, yet I feel that if I do then all my thoughts will be known and taken. No one can take my thoughts or memories. They can alter them yes but not take them, for my thoughts and memories are hidden
But how do I let someone know me without that person taking or knowing my thoughts?
Memories I have no problem sharing.
Thoughts I have get me to wondering about how people will react. With telling you my thoughts you learn more not
just about me but about perhaps female nature.
