OUR STORY
Life is such an unexpected whirlwind of events. My name is Crystal. I have spent a good deal of my youthful years fulfilling goals I have set for myself. There is a very special goal, I often dream of, that I have not quite been able to complete. There is nothing I would love more than to be a mommy.
In December of 2003, I suspected my prayers had been answered after two years of activley trying to become pregnant under careful guidance of ob/gyn's who specialize in infertility.Morning sickness all day on most days and ohh! the fatigue was rough. But who cares my husband and I had finally made our very on angel in my belly. For a few reasons, I was considered a high risk mother. I took off from my job, relocated my beloved cats, and concentrated only on staying as healthy as I could and taking care of my child. Jan. 3, 04 was actually the day we confirmed my intuition. My husband and I were estatic. We went to the dr. a week later and saw our angel for the first time. We also got to hear and see her heart beating. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever layed eyes on. We were told that the baby was six weeks and a day old. Her heart rate was 118, which is low for her gestational age. Dr. said no worries and sent us home pretty much. I was horribly sick the next couple of weeks. i called Dr. and they said just go to emergency room and get some phengran and fluids, blah. This happened two times in between my next visit. In Feb. We went back to the Dr. for next appointment, they tried to find the babies heartrate with the doppler with no luck. I requested an ultrasound because I was worried. WOW! How much my angel had grown in four weeks! I was so amazed it did not register that, I could not see any heart movement this time. :( I was told by the Dr. that my baby had died. "Fetal dimise is a terrible, but not uncommon thing" was the Dr.'s monotonic response. Of coarse, that was after his initial "well, I did not expect this!" How horrible!! My heart lay shattered on the floor and this was the comfort I was given. I was told that the baby stopped developing at nine weeks, and that I needed to have a d/c because it would be easier on me and safer not to have to experience a complete miscarriage or risk infection. My angel was took from me on Feb. 13, 04. She is so very loved and missed. This web page is to honor her memory and brief time we shared together. We named her Trinity Hope because it was the love that my husband and I shared that created the bond and life of our child, which to me makes a Trinity. Hope is because that is what our little angel has given us. Hope that we will be blessed with healthy earthly children and Hope that one day we will be reunited with our first baby.
An Angel watches over me. Her name is TRINITY. |
