"Join the Stars"
My body is bruised
My heart left broken
Falling over in pain
Making up excuses
Closing my eyes
Feeling so weak
Feeling so numb
Looking and acting like everything's ok
Holding together my insides
Crying in the rain
Left dead on the inside
Staring at the sky
Hoping it will fall down
And crush me under it enormous strengh and weight
Hold me in its darkness
And take me back up and join the stars
Take me up to join the stars
"Deep Wounds"
Sometimes I tremble in fear
Walk in a straight line
Maybe if I keep still and don't move
He won't be able to see me
Won't be able to hurt me
Just wanna disappear
Sometimes
Feel frozen with fear
I get so tense
Even now
When I look at him
I see his fists'
Makes me flinch
Wanna slit my wrists'
Willing to do anything to make the pain go away
To make the pain disappear
Why should I live my life in fear?
"Untitled"
I'm sure it's just a phase that I'm in.
I keep hitting myself again and again.
My flashlight has become a new friend.
It's what I've been doing the beating with.
I'm sure it's just a phase that I'm in.
Last month it was starving myself.
Not to get thin
Just to hurt myself.
Maybe try to see how much pain I could take.
"Denial"
I've never been to good with dealing with bad news.
Denial use to be my best friend, it was like a good buddy of mine.
We use to hang out all of the time, denial and I.
I'd ignore all the bad news.
Only hear what I wanted to.
Disregarding what I didn't
Figured if I didn't let anything get in,
that it couldn't hurt me.
Crying's such a bitch sometimes.
I was sick of crying all the time.
But denial turned out to be a trator
Caused me more pain in the end.
But if I still call denial a friend...
I'll call it a bad friend. Because denial lies
All the time.
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Last updated on February 21st 2001
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