balanced-o815o1

we'll equal each other out
my heart of stone
your heart of gold
when all alone
it's nice to hold (someone)
almost made me believe
in "make believe" magic
and isn't it tragic
that you didn't succeed?

we'll equal each other out
my negative perspective
your positive views
your romance (ineffective)
lead me to your clues
that you were falling
into nothing
and i wasn't ready to catch you
because now that you've fallen
i might get attached too
...and im sorry

if we both stood
on the same level
then we definitely would
equal each other out
but since you fell
and im still standing
i look down on you
while misunderstanding
your whole concept of
"R O M A N C E"
and it's my chance
to be a bitch
and it's my turn
to hurt you
but when you're hurt
i get hurt too
and so...
i'll just leave you
(coz we'll never equal each other out)

but I tripped-o727o1

my headache's so
strong that even
my pillows feel hard
(I've been thinking too much)
and I squirm
around in bed
uncomfortably
wrapped in a blanket
(though it's nice to touch)
and though I'm not blank yet
I have to dig into my
brain for information
I still have a hard time
making sense to me
so I say you don't make sense,
instead and steadily
I play it safe and blame it on you
shame on you!
I like that.
I was careful when I talked
but I'd tell for you
I was careful when I walked
but I fell for you
and I fell for you
and I fell for you
and I hate myself
because I'd wait for you
and slept late for you
(if I even slept at all)
because it's hard to sleep
when all you do is dream--
(then fall) and how is this
turning out to be a nightmare
when I like you?
I like you but I hate me.
(I used to be conceited. I used to like me)
Â….i was careful when I talked
but I'd tell for you
I was careful when I walked
but I fell for you.

untitled-o627o1

There you are feeling sorry for yourself
And for a second, I pity you too
But then you ask for answers
(to questions that mean nothing)
and you push to believe it's something
and that there's significance in whatever you say
coz what I say doesn't go through your head anymore.
I remember when
Everything I said, no matter how senseless
Would make sense to you.
But nowÂ… here you are, pretending you don't get me
Just to talk for a minute longer
And wasn't the "break" supposed to make love stronger?
Wouldn't missing you, pull us back together?
I assumed everything would be alright-
(because with you, it always was)
and you're not in my dreams at night
or in my mind at all- because
it hurts to know that the best boyfriend i ever had
turned out to be the worst ex
and then all the emotions we ever shared
just disappeared- and all the talk revolved around sex
or hugs and kisses- the physical properties of a relationship
that we hardly ever shared-
because I gave you everything else
though I wasn't prepared, nor old enough
to "love"- but I did.
And they forbid it
But I did.
And the "break" wasn't supposed to last long
But it will
Because you failed to see that
I still gave you everything inside me
Except the title, the overused 3-word phrase,
And the hugs and kisses
I was your best friend
And I'm not anymore
And there you are feeling sorry for yourself
And I'd pity you too
But I'm feeling down too
And I'll be selfish today
I don't care about you today
Or tomorrow- (coz even if I did, you'd take it for granted)
And you think that this is all I've wanted-
When everything I desired was what I had with you
I needed space and air to breathe
I needed to breathe to live
But I needed you tooÂ…couldn't seem to balance it
Without hurting you.
And you hurt me too
So the blame's on you
Because I'll be selfish today.

it's not you, it's me-o526o1

I cant live up
to your expectations
because perfection's
hard to obtain
I look at you
with insecurity
because my
fa硤e's hard
to maintain
I'm evil inside
and you failed
to sense it
I guess I hid
it well
you'd stare at
me and see me
floating a
second after I fell
I dragged you
into my fantasy
world and then
I left you behind
stepped back
into the real world
where love is no longer
blind
don't look back
at our memories
because I created
them in disguise
if you saw the scenes
behind them,
you'd be despised
to believe
I'm not like you
you cried
tears of joy
I cried
out of frustration
I never deserved
your admiration
but I indulged it
right away
and though you
think I forgot
you instantly,
keep in mind
you're perfect
our separation's
not caused by you
it's not you
it's me

vanished-o526o1

your smile
your eyes
your style
cant believe
I almost
fell for you
your walk
the words
you talk
it's hard
not to dwell
on you
your skin
your voice
your lips
the lips
I touched
while
kissing you
magical
stranger
although
I'm trying
not to-
I'm still
missing
you.

irony-o5o8o1

ironic, isn't it?
right when you mentioned "eternity",
"eternally" seemed long
and 'they' all wonder
what could have
possibly gone wrong
because maybe they
can avoid it
but I couldn't
and I spoiled it
we began to fall apart
ironic, isn't it?
that from the start
we thought that
this was "love"
confusion hits us
all sometimes
though we even
seemed so sure
illusions cause the
fall at times
and I failed to
assure you
that I was coming
back.
ironic, isn't it?
it was a long
fairy-tale, lacking
the happy end
and I lost you
even as just a friend
because you began to change
or is it me?
am I now derranged?
falling for someone else
ironic, isn't it?
I'd go somewhere else
just to avoid your tears
though I'm the one who
caused them to
fall the way they do
ironic, isn't it?
I'm starting to
despise you
even though you
granted me a
star to hold on to
ironic, isnt it?
I hate you.

you need-o43oo1

you need someone
to smile at
when your day
when rough
someone to actually
hug you
when talking's
not enough
someone to
cheer you up
and kiss your
tears away
someone to hold
on to
for more than
just a day
someone who can
visit you
and surprise you
when she does
someone to make
your days special
just like how
ours was
someone to give
you everything
you deserve and more
someone who can
give you more than
just "her world"
someone who wont
hurt you
or cause you any pain
someone to give you shelter
when it snows
or when there's rain
someone who'll assure
you where her heart is atÂ…
someone who wont say
"sorry I cant give you that"
someone like you
someone unlike me
someone who can be
more than what we'll ever be.

 

 

 

one day-o43oo1

a fairy tale too good to be true
but they believed in it like tradition
a prophet couldn't even say that me and you
would fade away from our addiction
(for each other)
no one can picture us apart
it's like that couple together by fate
but we know destiny's not on our side
and I took the chance I'd never take
it was so right
so romantic
so exciting
and fantastic
so perfect
so unbelievably
perfectÂ…
maybe we'll have it again
one day.

best friends forever-o43oo1

it's easy to confide in you
because you'd listen
and talk to make me smile
for you
and I can listen to you
talk about absolutely
nothing and still find
a moment to laugh
at you
or with you
"with you"
it always sounded beautifully
poeticÂ…idealisticÂ…
imaginary
it was a reality
though it seemed to good
to be true
but hey, it was you
no, it was me WITH you
and together we
could conguer the world
exaggeration of an incident
where we'd conquer our goals together
and on accident
we fell in loveÂ…
but we'll be best friends
forever.

did you know?-1227oo

did you know you're special?
well atleast that's what I've come to perceive
and I hope you're aware of your perfection
knowing that reflections often tend to decieve you
and I see the tears stroking your face
and I feel them running down my own
a thought of you run on its own pace
when I find myself alone
and I remember how it felt like
to wake up next to you
please pardon my staringÂ…
but my eyes were fixed on you
and you'd wake up and stare back at me
smiling, half awake
and then you'd stop your dreaming
just for me, just for my sake
and did you know that I saw
you watch me behind the door
and I knew you wanted to hold meÂ…
well I wanted to hold you more
I didn't watch you walk away
because I didn't have the strength to let go
and me heart was getting tangled up inside
because you left me
and I was wondering if you know
that I feened for you at that exact moment
to feel you, see you, taste you for one last time
but fear overlapped desires
because I was afraid to face you
(knowing you were no longer mine)
so how do you picture a good bye kiss
when tears make the world blurry and I can't see you?
I regret not calling out to you
because it all comes down to this.
I'll always need you.

not in love-1218oo

I try to convince myself
that I deserve the affection I receive
attempts to decieve myself
of the perfection you righteously perceive
and it hurts to know I've tricked you
I've drawn you into my spell
I didn't intend to pick you
It all just happenedÂ…before I fell
I wasn't looking for love, but I found it
through the words you sent to me
something so effortless and yet so real
disguises it as something that was "meant to be"
and I know I make you smile
I know I make you heart skip a beat
I'm aware you'd walk down that asile
with me and feel your life's complete
and although I need you
it's unfair to call you mine
because behind the tears, my distance caused
there's eyes that are supposed to shine
it's a once in a life time chance
to feel the love you offer
the one short but sweet dance
made a soft heart softer
I'm sorry for not being there
to give you confidence when you're feeling down
and sorry for not being there
to turn around your frown
you'll need someone to touch you
to kiss you tears away
someone to hold your hand
to be with you today
someone to wake you up
when you're running late
someone to walk a mile with
while untwisting our uneasy fate
and I wish I could let you know
that I'm lying when I say
that it's easy to let you go
since I don't love you anyway
I wont look back
because I'll just break down and tell you
but you deserve the best
although we're the onces that fell throughÂ…
these drops are tears of jot
because I don't love you anymore
please go away and leave me alone
lonelyÂ…like how I was before
I don't need you
farewell, I now bid
I don't want you anymore
the truth is, I never did.

eclipse-o72699

cant seem to forget that sweet melody
repeating, unwillingly, in my head
annoying
addicting
familiarly new
twisting and turning in my bed

the settingÂ…
common, predictable yet special
a couple dancing
staring into each other's eyes
so close to a kiss
yet hesitatesÂ… something missing
with a snap of your fingers
everything was complete
starsÂ… a quarter of a moon
shining down painting a silver path to follow
harmonic tones mixed in with melodies

everythingÂ…
everything's just perfect
crickets singing their lullaby
the background, just solitaryÂ…solitude
and as you lean forward
to steal a kissÂ…
the world seems so calm
relaxed , and all your problems
disappear into the smile
now on your faceÂ…
just the way you dreamed of
just the way you wished it could be
cant stop myself from wondering
"what If she was me?"

as you slowdance, embraced tightly
her hair smoothly touching your face
each time she turns against the wind
you hands strongly, gently placed on her waist
perfectly attaches, like a lock and its key
do memories come in a wave though your mind?
maybeÂ… just maybe, a thought of me?
do I ever haunt your dreams
the way you do in mine?
or have I faded completely?
coz Â…you will always shine
I'm hidden, arent I?
my name should never pass through your lips
or if a wish could come true
it would be in a silent whisper
still hideen like the sun
in a metaphor eclipse

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