Tuesday June 5, 2001 10:30am-11:48am (I'm easily distracted) I broke my rule this morning. I have this...thing...with people seeing me in my night clothes. It makes me self-consious(sp?) and uncomfortable. But, this morning I was the first up (despite the fact that I laid in bed for an hour). I got up and my mother had left two messages on the answering macine. "Take the garbage out." So, I did. Blog. I really hate going outside in my night clothes. Oh well. It's a really beautiful day, though. Everything is vivid and green. It reminds me of being eight for some reason. I want so much to go outside and do something, but I'm drawing a blank. I don't even have yardwork to busy myself with. Well, not anything that could be done with one person. As much as I want to go to college, I'm so nervous/afraid. I'm afraid that I'm not going to be where I need to be if I want to get a good education. *sigh* I know I know...a little late to worry about that. But, I do worry. Everyone says that one semester won't hurt me, but... well, maybe it will. Presently I'm playing with echo radio. Go there and join my station [tainteddreams]. I like to see my points climb. Anyhow...boredom and such. I'm going to look for food.