11:59am EST SO...I didn't get to bed until after 2am last night even though I was home before 11. OKay- so I was online talking/meandering around for a lot of that time. Anyhow, I read some more of Catch22. I'm not sure if I'm understanding it. I keep feeling that there's something deeper to it that I'm missing. And some scenes go over my head completely. I love the way it's written, though. How it flows. I just wish it didn't make me feel so stupid. I spent a lot of time by myself yesterday to mellow out. I'm not exactly sure what was causing it, but I was on the brink of one of my moods. I swear, sometimes I think I must be bipolar. Also, I have several ideas for some content...but they depend on pictures to pull them off. And... I just can't find the pictures. I hate that. How I can't find something when I want it. grr. Opening night was Friday. Everything went fairly well. 5:10pm EST Enter wave of insecurity. Enter frustration and angst. I need to make a drastic change in my life and I need to make it now. Even if it's superficial. I can feel the restlessness coming. It's been storing up for days and days. Making me short-tempered and ill with everyone. I am going to do something rash and drastic and I shall regret it later. That's how it always works. I'm dreading it.