6:18pm EST I leave tomorrow for Columbus. Orientation and other such misspellings. I am so terrified. I want so much for this to be a good thing. Please, God, let this be a good thing. *sigh* There's just so much that I can't let happen here. I'm so terrified of so many things. So many things that I cannot express clearly to anyone. So many things that no one seems to be grasping. I've tried over and over to explain... Everyone keeps saying, "Well, it's only for a year." Or, "This isn't the rest of your life, Becca." It is my life, though. This is very much my life. I'm so afraid. I completed my application to Mellow Mushroom. I need to turn it in tomorrow. TOOMA wants to hang out tonight, but with all the stress of getting ready I don't think there is time. I, quite frankly, don't know what's going to happen when I leave. Neither of us have exactly had...positive...experiences with long distance relationships. Or, at least, not with positive outcomes. nervousnervousnervous.