I push aside a tear
As it creeps down my face
In this relationship
I'm the one who's a disgrace

I drown you in my sorrows
Interrupting our happy nights
I make your friends wait longer
Because I want to finish our fights

Do not worry about me
No longer will I shed my tears
I won't even tell you
I won't discuss my fears

I don't want to upset you
I will try to understand
I will smile when it hurts
Going on with what is planned

On one hand I have the truth
The other is the sour lies
I won't disturb your happiness
With my petty cries

I will talk only to God
When I fear I can't go on
I don't want to aggravate you
Until the break of dawn

I can take a hint
From what you said
I can even improvise
When it pains me to turn my head

I will accept that I'm not as important
As your friends are to you
I will love you still
Even when you say we're through
� November 15, 2001

A poem I wrote to Chalz when I was upset with him.