They (for Matthew) By: Michael Dykhoff 3/19/02 Dear Matt, It�s hard to believe your not here today. Are you ok? How hard is it to be you, When it�s all you want to do. People wont let you keep a smile on your face. They make you hurt, they make you feel disgrace. They kick us around and throw us down. As long as there are people like that today. I will never feel ok. The pills don�t work some days, So you try to find other ways to feel better about you. But some days that�s something you just cant do. I never really knew if you felt different. You were to me; you were heaven sent. Now if only the others would open up there eyes. We wouldn�t have all this hate and lies. At least they got a glimpse of what could be. Maybe for a minute they saw what you see. They say you deserve it. They make you feel bad. They say your asking for it. They make you feel sad. It�s not fair and it�s not right. To stay up late crying at night. They wont let you be you. And that�s all you ever wanted to be. They just do what they want to. And keep your eyes closed so you cant see. Dear Matt, What�s wrong, why is this still going on? Why do they hate you even when you�re gone? I really don�t know what they�re problem is. It doesn�t make any sense to me. I really don�t know what they want to prove. I wish that we could just be. They can beat us up and knock us down till we cant get up again. You can follow the leader; you can make this a sin. But trying to act like someone your not, Is like saying your cold, when it�s blistering hot. Why did they do it? Was it religion or problems at home? Did it make them feel better to leave you out there alone? Bleeding and broken, but your still holding on. Bleeding and broken, but you will never be gone. No matter how hard they try. We will never let you die. They say you deserve it. They make you feel bad. They say your asking for it. They make you feel sad. It�s not fair and it�s not right. To stay up late crying at night. They wont let you be you. And that�s all you ever wanted to be. They just do what they want to. And keep your eyes closed so you cant see. Dear Matt, Are you the only one? Its sad to think you might not be. I don�t know why people can�t see. They said you were asking for it. As if you wanted to end up this way. All you wanted was them to accept it. Even if they didn�t, it was ok. I wonder how much hatred they have inside them. But then again I don�t. They broke you like bottle. But your spirit won�t. How can someone so amazing and true. Scare people like me and you? I�ll never understand the human mind. What makes a person so blind? Don�t think your gone for nothing. You taught most of them something. Something beyond wonderful. Difference can be beautiful. Don�t worry, someday they�ll see. Someday people can be who they want to be. They say you deserve it. They make you feel bad. They say your asking for it. They make you feel sad. It�s not fair and it�s not right. To stay up late crying at night. They wont let you be you. And that�s all you ever wanted to be. They just do what they want to. And keep your eyes closed so you cant see. Dear Matt, Are you up there in the sky? Looking down cause you�re so high. Don�t worry about the others, we�ll get through. But I really wish we could get through with you. They can cut us down till we�re the talk of the town. It won�t stop today, but it might someday. We wont forget your name, Even if you�re gone. Your here just the same, In the dark at night, and the light at dawn. They say you deserve it. They make you feel bad. They say your asking for it. They make you feel sad. It�s not fair and it�s not right. To stay up late crying at night. They wont let you be you. And that�s all you ever wanted to be. They just do what they want to. And keep your eyes closed so you cant see. This is it, My heart has hit the floor. Time has moved on, And I can�t take it anymore. These feelings are getting old, I�m tired of my heart feeling so cold. I�ve got to move on, Before my heart is gone.
