Well...well...well.  I woke up today a happy man, and damn it, I will end today a happy man, despite all the garbage trying to hold me down.  I'll start with the easiest topic I suppose...e-wrestling.

    Today is one of those days where I just do not see the point in continuing on with it.  I have never known of another hobby so mentally taxing as e-wrestling.  And overall I think that is the problem.  It stops being a hobby when it stops being fun.  And for the longest time, it has not been fun.  I have been perceiving my roleplays more as chores than writing exhibitions.  Maybe it is because I set the bar too high for even myself back in the day?  Maybe it is because I am maturing and my love for the business is now so deep, nothing less than being involved with it for real will satisfy me.  Maybe it is because I am ready to start writing things with substance, things that will make me money, things that will make me famous.  I think more than anything else, it is that I am satisfied with where I have taken Creature in e-wrestling.

    Over the course of what, four fucking years, I have taken him from the lowliest position an e-wrestler could ever have to probably the best damn e-wrestler of all time.  I have adapted my game and developed my character and roleplays to heights unmatched by anyone I've ever seen, and I have worked damn hard for every one of the twenty-four championships I have won- even the two that were handed to me.

    I always felt that there were certain things I'd need to do to be really successful in e-wrestling.  Win a World Singles Title, win a World Tag Team Title, win a Battle Royal, win a Tournament, and be inducted into a Hall of Fame.  I have three Hall of Fame Inductions, seven World Singles Titles, four World Tag Team Titles, a Battle Royal win, and a Tournament win.  What the hell is left?

    I'll tell you- the win streak record, the longest HCW Title reign record, the HCW Grand Slam, and the HCW Cruiserweight Title.  That's what's left.  That's why I am finding it so hard just to go right to that Out of Character Board and say, "Guys...it's time to call it a night.  I'm out."  A part of me wants me to just go ahead and quit.  But a part of me also wants me to continue with this amazing run that began back in November when HCW was re-opened, and attain the goals I set for myself, all of which I am SO close to achieving.  I mean, in 13 days and 2 title defenses, I have the HCW Title reign record.  In six more victories, I have the win streak record.  With one more title, I have the Grand Slam.  And once I have dropped the World Title and finished with the Grand Slam, all I'll have to say is, "Gimme a shot at the Cruiser strap," and it is as good as mine.  I am SO FUCKING CLOSE.  That's why I can't just quit now.  If I do, then I know I'll always wonder if I could have done what I set out to do, accomplish those goals, and have a great retirement match.

    No matter which part of me wins, and no matter what I do with Creature from here on out, I have more or less made up my mind- my retirement from in-ring competition will not be the end for me in e-wrestling.  I would love to become a member of the HCW Staff, and write matches and assist with angles when I can.  Just something to do.  And I could always start RPing as TK or Raziel Joe Black, two jobbers that Jack and I have created.  If I did, my roleplays would be completely pathetic and simply to entertain myself, but who gives a fuck?  I have made a lot of fucking sacrifices to get where I am with Creature, and I am damn proud of that fact.

    I guess we'll just have to see what happens.  I could wake up tomorrow and feel like RPing, bang out three great RPs and sitch up the Tag Title defense, or I could hop on the board and announce my resignation.  At this point, I really don't care which one it is.

    What else is going on you ask?  Just shit in general.  The same bullshit that has been going on since last Easter, the same bullshit that lowered my life to such a low I came out of retirement, turned to e-wrestling, and started my career in HCW.  I don't like to go into details because there are so many fucking ones to deal with.  Either way, I'm lovin' life and overall, am pretty happy.  I mean, no matter how fucked up shit gets, I'm just happy to be alive in general.  Besides, if things get really bad, I can always turn to Trish Stratus' ass for comfort.

    I am sick and fucking tired of the shit that my modem is giving me.  I obviously need help getting this computer working, but I can't find help anywhere I turn because the entire universe is, once again, against me.  I just hope and pray that when tomorrow comes, no matter what e-wrestling hands me, no matter what life hands me, no matter how much Trish wants me inside her, I get the chance to PUNK THE FUCK OUT Jack Duncan's bitch ass uncle.  That fat bastard is avoiding me on Urban Ops, damn it.  Long story short guys- I know how it feels to have an evil heel ducking your challenge, and it ain't fun.

    Overall, my shit isn't really all that bad I guess.  I'm just not having the Spring Break I'd hoped for.  Maybe things will pick up tomorrow.  I don't know.  I just have to figure out what the problem is with this damned modem!

    What's next to talk about?  Nothing I guess.  School is becoming absurdly easy, but I'll refrain from boasting or celebrating as next year I will no doubt be jobbed out and buried by Mr. Ritchie and Mr. Magarvin or whatever the fuck his name is.  My Senior schedule looks like this I think:

French IV (perhaps, might not have enough people)
AP Physics
AP Chemistry (2nd semester)
AP Pre-Cal
TCC Classes (English will be one of them, Sociology might be the other, who knows, who cares right now)

    I think that is it.  I might grow a sac and attempt AP Biology, but after the way Mrs. Ludington butchered me in APP Biology, I think I'll pass.

    I do believe this will be the summer of employment for me.  Hopefully I can get a job at Game Stop so I can just sit around and play games all day, and act rude to customers.  That is the fucking life right there.

    Speaking of video games, I'm pretty done with them as far as new purchases go.  All I need is Tenchu 3 and Fire Pro and I'll be set for a while I do believe.  I used to be obsessed with video games, but years of bullshit have taught me there is more to life than just buying the new releases.  Plus, video games these days are just going down the toilet like e-wrestling.  No substance.  Nothing there to sink your teeth into.  Wrestling games blow and will continue to blow with the only hope being Fire Pro, which I'm sure will be smashed by THQ, thanks to all the mindless morons out there who enjoy the shit they have been churning out lately.

    I began the second season of the BWA.  It's been okay, nothing spectacular.  Creature won his 13th BWA Championship and his 13th BWA Tag Team Championship.  Other than that, the only highlights have been DDT's undefeated run as BWA and BWA Tag Team Champion, and TK's upset over TK for his 3rd BWA Title.  The Glass Ceiling still seems to be there, despite early theories about it being shatters when D-Von Dudley defeated Jack Duncan for the BWA Title.

    I have slowly become an Undertaker mark once again.  So sue me.  Mark Calloway just knows how to get to play with my emotions I guess.  Either way, I hope he returns to the Darkside soon, even if it means the end of his streak.  You know what would also be nice?  An Undertaker reign as Intercontinental Champion.  Job him to Flair at WM X-8, have him leave for a couple of months and return as the Lord of Darkness, and eventually give him the IC belt so he can have his Triple Crown.  I of course am hoping for 5 months of RVD Intercontinental-dom until SummerSlam when they can book a double title match and give him the World belt, so I guess at Unforgiven in September they could always put Taker over in the finals of a tournament for the vacated title.  Just a thought.  That way whoever he beats *cough* Lance Storm *cough*  can chase him until Survivor Series and beat him in a Loser Leaves Town Match for the belt, retiring Mark at 12 years and thus putting over the new IC Champ huge.  Sounds like a plan to me.

    Ah, I guess that is it for tonight.  I don't have much on my mind right now except for my triumverate of title defenses and the fact I want out, plus the ongoing war between me and my computer.  Oh, and Trish's beautiful ass.  I just hope I can get everything in order by tomorrow night so I can have a nice peaceful evening of MD (Jack's uncle) SMASHING.  We'll see.  Until then...

I'm Out
 
 
 
 
 

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