~Fallen Angel~ Like a fallen angel, I fall from the sky Looking for someone to help This is my duty To help fill another with love To fill my self with love and wan. To help save another from pain While I fill my self with their pain Like a sponge I evaporate all the pain that is near me And carry it as my own Utill I lose all my will into it and give into it Then, I fall again down to another level of loneness crying, heaving, for someone or something I cannot explain No one can help me when this happens. As I fall to my death by all the pain of the people I have helped, Comes into my mind as visions in one big flash, somewhat like a Movie but its all around me rather than in front of me Slows down and starts to blur and go black. Then my life as a fallen angel, Sent by no one is done and gone.
~My heart, My love~ My lonely heart bleeds with out you I feel so alone, depressed, distorted I don't want to live with out you Your my world My everything, My air, My food, My Dreams I'll die if I can't be with you! I love you with all my soul and body But, since you love another I'm all alone, bitter, resentful, depressed I look into a mirror and see ugliness But yet, you say you saw beauty Is my love so blind that I love you? Yet you love someone else. Am I nothing? Why do I mope over someone I know I Can't have? Am I insane? Love struck, yes and a little insane My heart is a straightjacket, Holding back my mind from reality. But my mind is keen. And my heart is clouding my mind from seeing how you love another. And yet I still love you. Even though, I doubt you love me as I Love you. When I am with you, Time stops and my problems fade Like night turns to day. And hid when you leave my side and then it hits me again. This time with a vengeance. My dreams feel so real. I dream of us alone, in an emptiness of nowhere forever, together in each othere's arms and it seems like death won't sepearate us from one another. But this other love, it will stop me from loving you the ways I do? No. I shall always think about you. When I am upset at you I say to myself This is dumb talk to him! But then I wait to see what happens before I speak. Time will tell if I love you or if this is just a fluke. And time will tell if you really love me as I love you. And the saying goes if you truly love something set it free, for if it returns, its truly yours, if it does not it never was to begin with, Time will answer all we know.
~Why?~ Why must you see me as a monster? How could anyone see me like that? All I did to you is show you how I feel for you Why must you see me as a toy? How couls anyone see me like that? Now like a toy, I lay on the floor broken.
~Changes~ My heart aches for you my love You my love, are the many things that are good in my life and you want my caterpiler to turn in to a butterfly too soon. Not the time of the year for such a major change in this little creatures life. There are no resons for this caterpiler to change so fast. But you my love want it to happen and the changes are coming through. But you can't see them with your eyes and you can't feel them with your hear because you don't want to fell them. But when your caterpiler changes in to a butterfly, then my caterpiler will change too.
~Who are you?~ Who the hell are you to judge what someone elce has if they have evidence to prove their point? Others talk and back them up but still denile bursts through... But still in your heart... YOU LOSE!
~Love~ I love you yet every second that goes by I feel like I'm losing a part of me. I don't know why I feel like this! Do you? You seem to hold all the answers like a crytsle ball. My love does nothing for you but it still grow!
~Loss~ My life is nothing but a lie. Others can love and I don't know why I cannot. Is that my mind saying just to say it? I want to know and I want to know now! I never want to feel like there is no one Out there for me because I see that there Are other people for the people. Well, why can't I be like that? I want an answer but I never get one! Will I ever get one? I doubt it. Now its my loss and no ones gain.
~*Alone*~ No matter how or where I go, No matter how many people I am around, at any point in time, I feel totally alone and scared. This must sound totaly weird to who every reads this, but its true. Its like I'm not of this world and all who are near are like some distant and diffrent race. And that will never change.
~*Forsaken*~ Why must I sit back ever single day of my life and look out as an outsider as if this world is new to me? I've lived a long enough life that it should seem normal to me. But every day is like I was reborn and it all shinny and new. Whats wrong with me? Am I really here or is this a forsaken gift and a bad dream?
~ Free falling ~ Free falling. Plummeting to my end. Seeing the ground rushing up at me. Faster and faster it comes and goes. Can�t turn back now. No way to stop. Too fast to stop, even if it was thought of now. Too bad, too late good-bye.
~Me & You~ I sit alone pondering what you are doing right now. Are you thinking of me? Do you even care that I'm thinking of you? You�re more fickle than a woman on PMS. I care about you no matter how mad we are at each other. No matter how much I hurt every time we argue. I feel like nothing when you are not around. I feel as I'm just there to please you and nothing more. But I only feel like this when I am hurt. Please come back to me!
~Not Named~ Tired. Depressed. Alone. What you are doing. Why do people like me love people like you? Why I am such a bad person? Why did I make you leave? What do you think of me now? I am cringing in pain cause your gone. Please come back to me my love Who I drove away for gives me for my faults and loves me for being a person who doesn�t want to fit in. Love me for me for me not what you want me to be. I love you for you I don�t want you to change you. You are perfect the way you are so why can�t you see me like that? Will you ever come back to me cause you tell me you still love me but we are still apart. Every day I die a little inside from missing you. Missing all the good times we had. Please forgive me my love!
~Hope~ Looking out a window... Looking for you... Hoping you will come back... I wait for minutes, hours, days, nights, months... No site of you... Rain pours down.. I still wait... I will always wait for you.. Because I love you!
~Feeling~ I feel nothing Pain and sorrow are my foes Happiness and love, my enemies I shall not let them harm me in any way Those feelings are not meant for me I am to live life full of all things that are not meant to be And now, I shall
~I'm Here For You~ It kills me to see you in this silent pain. I wish I could take all your pain away & make you happy again. I'd rather suffer excoriating torture, then see you suffer this pain that is not necessary! I want to get rid of anything that makes you cry inside, I want to wash it all away from you. I like to see you smile & laugh but, I know inside you weep like a new born child, crying for its mother. Please invite me into your would & I will do all in my power to help you get out from under this dark rain cloud, If I can not do that, I will stand by your side under that cloud with you. You should not have to suffer alone. I am here for you always and forever when ever you need me. You are never alone. I'm here.
