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Growing mold I look down at where my body ust to be, a nice white pice of flesh so lovely and healthy. Today I picked away at another pice of meat. I grilled it up to know I can still tast and eat. *This part of me is broken. This part of me is dead. This part of me is worthless skin and and growing mold again.* Today I looked around and there was something interesting I found. That where my childhood ust to be is now covered in dirt and blistered in me. I seen a scar I didnt know I had. I cut it open and peeled it back to find a hell locked in a fluid sack.*R* You cant take me. You cant rape me. You cant have or make or break me. Demons live under my skin. I poor out blood. I poor out sin. I inhail and breath your soul in. I am the entity that you will dround in. I just cant seem to keep myself bound down here and I dont think I can anylonger stand the hatered air. I am growing mold again.

Glory Holes I never thought it would come to this. +I always wanted more but what can I do? I wanted more but it's to late for me and you. I wanted more, I wanted more. You said you loved me but I know I wated to long. You said you loved me but I wasnt that strong. You said you loved me and now your gone.+ *So bring on down the next lieing bitch. I know your daddys girlas you suck my dick. I fucked your cunt in three glory holes. Took your whore doggy style, she swallowed my stip in a while.* I always wanted the turth of it. +repeat+ *repeat x2*

what sickens me You got panted went out left me here to wonder about, My life, My love, may latest drug. Now your gone, became some thing I would never even want to see again in my world. All I want to do is see your head fall past your knes. *tell me i'm nothing, then why are you speaking to air? Thought you riped my heart out but to past pain you dont even compair* Three days, stomach pains swelling out and botteled up. Get out, you fuck nothin you do can make me give in. All I want to do it watch your eyes roll back into your empty head. *R* Get them on your side, fuck it I dont care about it I just fucking jerk off on it. your nothin, just a whore, just a bore and never gona be anything more. Think your the shit, and enlightened bitch. Your just to carried away. Loathing me is something you see just makeing it ouvious that you wish you could be like me. *R*

Rambel I am doing something, I am trying to get shit out of my head. I dont really bealive that I can say anything that hasnt been said. I try my hardest to make another way, but that is just not helping today. *Now I fuckin wonder something. If the pen is so mighty why is it I can hav more fun choping off your head with a nice shiny blade?*

1rottenbody4u I cant turn my head look back anymore everything I see is a fucking reminder. I dont care dont give a fuck no more everything I do just makes me one rotten body send with love to you. Stick your finger in my face one more time bitch. *Just come on and try it a garen-fucking-t you will die for it. I'll rip out your god damn throught and shove it right back down your fucking neck.* One more faceless little memory that never really happened. Give me a seckond to relax this is something I never had. Just step up to me and I will be more then glad to tear your ass apart. *R* I got another rotten body sent with love to you. Tonight another one get's it, another courps bleeds for you. +you want another victome how about this bitch, you are the fucking victom. Keep screaming that's what I like. Try to run, that just makes it more fucking fun.+ You got a problam with me motherfucker? I got a new knife to play with. +R+ *R*

2M (locked inside) Filled my head sence I was a little kid. With lies and sterotypes, white supremest christan ways. I saw a crack in the sidewalk steped on it a thousand times, hopeing the bitch fucking would die. *What was it? A demon growing deep within me. Sence I was young, the only friend to feed me. You took a rock and decided to finaly let it out. Now nothing can stop me.* Broke my head when I was a little kid. With fake love in a black box under my bed. Drove on the sidewalk breakin in heads, hopeing to see your face. ** Locked inside was something I was taught to hide. Now what's broken free, burst from my chest like in a fucking movie. It's ready to kill it's ready to mame, cast the finger and fuck all the blame. I was locked away now I am out to stay. You set me free, the satan to drag you the god to cry to. I am the nothing to listen to but you better lend a fucking ear befor I set you on fire make you burn and peal.

Jail Not to fair how the little box got broke, stuk you face right in mine and cast me to the wolves. You dont take the blame, never feel the same. Dont know who I am and dont give a damn. *You Painted me with a brush of pain, I am weraing red, locked away. A man in the watter franticly treding with no arms or legs. Welcome to the world with half a window that cast a fever, shadows of blame.* I mush admit your a pretty good lier. After all the little blue pigs set me on fire. I cast no shadow with collect phones hanging up wire round my throught. ** BANG!! BANG!! Hatered rise. BANG!! BANG!! Burning fire. BANG!! BANG!!. Traped, incarserated, locked away but dont seem to mind. A singel tear keeps on falling, that singel tear has fialy died. ** BANG!! BANG!! searing pork, a little lesser the white meat. BANG!! BANG!! one thousand crying motheres can be wrong. BANG!! BANG!!

Forgotten shell I dont even care about me. I wonder if I could care about you. Dead inside, love has died. All alone. So. +I hope you enjoyed your time. Dancing with a live corps. Sitting next to hallow flesh.+ And when you looked into my eyes, just what was it you expected to get? +repeat+. I dont know if I quallify, I may or may not be alive. *I!! The forgotten shell, that the crab of sanity left behind. I!! The forgotten shell. The slip cover of skin, you didnt notice had died.* I dont give a fuck about anything in genaral and I know it sounds cold, but. +R+. I dont know about humanity, I think i have sliped far from it. So. +R+. And when you finally looked in my eyes I am sorry all you saw was a man that already died. *R*. Fadeing.... Like leather.... Left out in the sun. *R*

Whore Worthless, a little bitch sucking on a strangers dick. Nothing to worry about, she just gave you syphulis. Worthless, the little boy in the back row who thinks he is the shit. You are nobody, never were. All you are is the latest cheep inhaled dulled out sterotype thrill. *Ich bin nicht. Ich bin nichts. Ich bin alles. Alle, die Sie �berhaupt wu�ten, war eine L�ge. Lassen Sie mich Ihnen eine neue Art Schmerz, von hinten blinde Augen zeigen.* Open you your mind, see there is a little more then you in the fucking world. You think is it all about you, I dont even give a fuck to know about you. Bitch! whore! Lier! Cheat! Nobody! Nowhere! thinking your something to me. *Ich bin nicht. Ich bin nichts. Ich bin alles. Alle, die Sie �berhaupt wu�ten, war eine L�ge. Lassen Sie mich Ihnen eine neue Art Schmerz, von hinten blinde Augen zeigen.*

inside. I have untill now remembered only pain, saw a break through the clouds and at first I went insain but after pulling off more dead skin I somehow found me again.*I will walk with you, let me talk with you, rase the dead for you, whatever you will let me do. Now lay down and let me feel inside you.* When I was down and you picked me up found a way to wind me up, started to make sence to me that maybie this was my infinity. I need, I want, must have, this. something gripping me deep inside just burst out and said. *repeat*. (this is for Anna and black dawn for keeping me alive, I dont know whether to thank you or hate you for it.)

Red tear I'm feeling needels in my skin again, i'm seeing death in in the light spectrum. I fell from grace when I was young. Today I have taken another step to become noone. *Under black skys and beneth dead trees I sit and wait, I sit and bleed. I sit and bleed over a thousand years. I sit and blees as I shead red tears. Under falling sky and beneth decayed trees. I sit and wait, I sit and bleed.* To find ones self is to lose the mind, to bite the hand that feeds you. To deny the lust is the first , last step. To kill what is in me and watch it fucking bleed.**

Cold and forgotten I am the emptyness, the blank canvis to burn your eyes. What you see in me is always a lie. I do not exist, I have already died. I have felt the warm and cold I have lived to long to grow old. When you look at me I dont care what you see, so just turn your head away from thes realties. Hearing this you wouldnt understand that I am simply not there, there is nothing I am. Once I felt but long forgot the tast of that feel or the smell of the life of the ones whom think they are real. As the oblivion closes in tighter around me I find only one last thing to be. I am the great void, the master of empty. I am the apitimy of nothing. You can find me nowhere, in every street crack, in between all that holds you up. There was never a me.

D1E407 Faceless and long forgotten. I am the christ you left behind. Meaning and words of failure. I am not long to die. Disenchanted with no holder to heal me. I am the empty void. *4 times over, cold steel and flesh combine. Seeing nothing, sitting and wating to die. 7 fucking colors flash before me, each one bleaker then the last. I have been long from this world fore a while now but I still long for the flesh.* Nobody to heal me as I sleep. I can almost tast the stabing. Nothing to look to the sky for. I know of no god up there worth praying to. Snering is the face that has bees seen. I can feel no upheavel in this black hole. ** +Is it worth takeing up arms again to battle back the pain. Why the fuck should I not give in. All I have been given in my life, new meanings to the word slave. To power, to love or money. In life I see nothing worth being saved.+ DIE407 I feel it comeing on slowly. There is no way out of this now. Just lean back and take it all in. I feel something sharp but no blood spills when I fall in. ++ DIE407 I cant sleep even when I am dreaming. What is in this for me? I feel so dead and empty. Why do I still have this body? ++ ** BOX I lay down on a bed of nails, cant relax. My walls are breathing again, soon they will fall in to me. COLD FINGERS!! big black nails in my chest still diging, crushed in the foam, NOT BREATHING!!. *Well youve got your world, your life, your love and all I got is my little demon box* I gasp for air but nothing comes to me. My eyes are eating again, soon they will consume me. MISSHAPEN!! dead watter swarls above me filling up my head, scared from this, NOT BREATHING!!. ** Stop the flashing lights, turn around, go away. I never liked this anyway. Thanks for nothin. Why did you have to do this to me bitch? Now I have no choice but to fucking live. Still NOT BREATHING!!. ** I need to cut it out. I have to kill it. Once traped in a cup, I thought I had it beat. Now it's back in me, please give me new pills and help me breath.

rotten meat(to feast on the vile inside)

Take! is all you know how to do. Give! Back all you took from me. Hate! what else is there now? Break! To late for me. Just go and save you. The vile inside, it weeps. The half cooked life, it still bleeds. Carving another bone into a pointed lie to stab through the flesh of all surrounding me, what's been raped and plundered away. *Keep choking, gasping for air, plastic bag on your face, barbd wire adds more pain. Keep dieing, as I feed you the meat. Let me slide another maggot down into your little absesed mind.* Feel! Forgot just what that means. Fake! you will aways be to me. Lies! How many more can they feed to us. Dead! you already are. As I digest, I see above, an angel with a black wingspand 3 miles long and clouds of crimson red, that seem a little less bleak to me now. *repeat* Pull my chest wide open, all youl find is dirt and bugs. Let the watter pull you down, a refreshing thing to count on. And when it all comes don to it, you never knew what you really are. When you tought you could hold it, it's to bad you squesed a little to hard. +Like the bleeding creature in your hand, you found as a small child. Like the everyday atrousity, you see in your breef case. Like the tie around your neck slowly becomes a neus. I will be there waiting for you to drop down to the ground, hot lead in your skull.+ *repeat* +repeat+ Dont wast your time, life is to short for that. Dont try and change my mind, you christion conservitave. And dont heasatate to die, cause I will be waiting for you to run out of breath.

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noise in my mind, zero's and one's. My last loop of sanity, slips trough numbers from zero to inifanty. Thinking harder, draw a blank. *Can you still feel me? I know your there, I feel a cold breth aganst my skin. sinking, spinning, naching of little teeth aganst my flesh again.* +Re-manufacture the devil. No human ever saw it comeing. I think of my final breth and say, "what the hell, just FUCK IT!!"+ Dreams are not allowed here anymore. thos who stray will be food for the other ingrates. Digest the mind of heaven and hell. re-amp the life line and give hope back to me.++. I need a molment to realize just what's happening. All the old human feeling sudenly comeing back to me. Cant wait untill the light stops hurting. My own skin has betrayed me. ++. sitback relax and let the mechean start rapeing you again. why noy give up and ley back, spread your legs for it.+*+*.

F.U.C.K.E.D. F!!! full of mother fucking hate. U!!! under construction constantly. C!!! censored by your fachisem. K!!! Killed, marterd for the sins of god. E!!! everybody's stupid fucking play-thing. D!!! dead for all eturnity.
*give me another nail one more painfull molment please, so I know I am still alive. Give me one more dream one where I get to fuck a cleberity then slit there fucking neck*
K!!! king that never let me sleep. I!!! i am everything you ever knew. L!!! lucid dreams of bliss should not foool you. L!!! Leave it all to me, I promess not to let you down, untill you are shortly under ground.
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D!!! dead, already rotten. E!!! everything you ever wanted. A!!! all the things you dreamed for, never ment a fucking thing when. D!!! death comes for you in the night that you think is so safe.
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+I'll kill you in your dreams tonight, I promess it will hurt to much, you shouldent even feel the pain when your body goes into shock. I'll fuck you befor you fall as sleep tonight, makeing shure at least your hurt a while. And when your are dead and gone I will jerk off on your grave.+
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the blessed

Back in childhood there was a god to bealive in, a simple idea so long as you dont think of all the little loop holes in christianity. I took the body of christ in me, I felt absloutly nothing. My sores were still un healed and no bread fill my empty. Once back a long time ago in my adolence, I looked in the meior, I saw the one true and only god starring back in my reflection. Christ in every man, Jesus never did it for me, I'm sorry to disopoint you mother but I simpely dont bealive. +FATH! never did god come and heal me, take my pain away. HATE! something I learned as a yound boy and you god is the one who helped me. Nothing ever ment a thing as far as I can see, who was ever there for me, no saveur to hold my hand and guid me. For all the ones who carry god and say that I'm a demon, life outside goes on, i'm in controll of the kill switch. Life outside goes on, I dont need to be a blind one.+ Older now and god, still a worthless pipe dream, no chance to die and go to heaven, no need to worry about the 7. Hell is nothing to me, I have lived it 21 years. dont have plans for eturnenity and theres nothing left to worry me. ++ I dont want to be a part of it and there is no need to pray for me. I want to walk through the vally of deat, I want to feel the blastphme. **

I am sorry about all the bad spelling in this but I think you can get the idea anyway.

3X & DIE

BROKEN!!!! All fucked up and left for dead, shot 3 times in the motherfucking head. Do you care, bullshit I eat the rotting meat from what is left of the spinles shit that you are. +Bend over and take it Bitch, dont worry it only hurts a little bit when compared to the everyday bullshit and needels of never you left in my head+
*Bang! first shot. oh I still see you squrming, Bang!! head shot. Brains on the wall , now one for good luck.. Bang Bang Bang 3 times and stupid motherfucker you die..*
BROKEN!!! Why dont you see,++. It's all your fault you did this to me, now I'm fucked up, cant controll my self reap my tohoughts. Think of you I see the blood, with red hands, whip my head, sleek the skin. Give up and lie down, this will be over soon just 3 days of torment is what I need to do to you.
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3.14

taking time to reflect some more, a infinate spiral refracting the truth, to fold back the pain and set me lose. M is inside makeing the new rules and I am out there breaking through, let me teach you truely nothing and drag you, get you muddy.
Spiral Man / keeps falling
Destroy Revy and let the sand spill in the watter and through the new woods, join the spiral and break the new world fuck the mind kill and let me in you.
Spiral Man / keeps falling

helping hand

Keep me down, push my head in the watter, droped it a third time and let the real slid from mind.

bless yoreself / bullshit
confess the sin / save me

Please father, can I fuck? Mortal sin is dripping off me, thrust a third time and let your mind slowly slip away.

bless yourself / bullshit
confess the sin / save me
give in to me / go to hell
I have what you need / I have reeped your seed
you cant go without / you cant hold me down

It's time for you to go.  My turn, motherfucker.

Just lay back, I promess to let you up again. after everything I hate is gone. let's  start with the skin, I peel it back, a surgery to labotmoize is iniment. Now get up and walk around, dont fuck with me anymore.

God damn, recoil - only thing to hold me back.

Deadly revy Revy was little once and in high school. While the children laughed and played, he sat in the conner of gym class, haveing been told everything was ok. Next day he was front line in dodge ball, every hit just caused more pain.
+Now who gives a fuck, there's nothing left to say, when you creep in the horrered mind of deadly revy, theres nothing left but hate. DEADLY REVY! the world never loked so gray, DEADLY REVY! now you can feel his pain, DEADLY REVY! now's your final day.+
Revy walked in with a gun once, and he blew all the names away. You thought he was made of glass, but he suprized you in every way. He went boom in the day with a shotgun, at night with a bretta he played. He blasted till the crach of dawn, had a little left for the cop's that came.
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Revy is all grown up now, and locked in a world decayed, being tought liveing in it should have been easy, when he saw it didnt work out that way., he went boom boom in the night with a big gun, slached throght's till the break of day.
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Welcome

Welcome to my world, with the pain of a thousand fucking - overbaring mothers. I roll the glass between my bleeding hand's. One finger left better not let it get cut, Daddy did you know What you did when you tryed to kill me, Mommy did you really think he would'nt go with the pussy?
+Please, let me dream a little longer, I cant keep bleeding for your cause, Please dont bash my head in one more time, just a reminder that I never learned a god damn thing.+
I always thought I would, get out! fuck up! die young! but not be a slave to you fucking, meeningless, pathitck, broken and brused, left for the crow's. Family (x3)!.. Now I'm older and still, nuchered badly till it sickens me! wounded from the pain you forced on me! and bleeding in my, family (x3)!
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Welcome to the bull shit, family (x3)
"This song is for my parent's, Mom I hope you die of cancer and dad I hope you choke, bitch."

spiralman Who's there watching, waiting for judgement, trying to show your true colors? Who's there laughing as you give in, waiting, watching for your bloodshead. Who's there chuckeling as your bleeding, trying, dyeing, twisted, seathing.
"Spiral Man"
When you needed a helping hand and you reached out with no-one ther, while your left blinded, chocking on your blood and wanting something. I was waiting so fucking patantly for you to die at my feet.
"Spiral Man"
I though I could make you realize, all your mistakes, wile your hanging, truning backwards and fucking praying. Think that your everything, your nothing, on a meet hook in my bacement.
"Spiral Man"
he's the one to make your tears.

daddy

Do you even know just what you have dont to me? When you lit this fire, gave me no way to put it out. I took a spider just the other day, did to it just how you made me feel. Got a daddy long legs, pulled off all it's lege but two, left them on the same side so it could walk round in circels, for about an hour, untill it died. I left it hopeless, just like you did to me, fucked it's life up in an incureable way, just left it feeling broken and alone, the same way you have me feel each day.
God damn hipocrit why you treat me this way, what you get from it, never I could see. Try and mind fuck me, if I let you in I'd die. Do you remember how you gave me life one day?
When I finaly steped up, why did you fuckin back away. Afrade of closher, I guess you were just rased that way. Why force it on me, why must you make me pay. What have I done to you? I guess your feeling broken and alone, the same way you have me feel each day
God damn hipocrit why you treat me this way, what you get from it, never I could see. Try and mind fuck me, if I let you in I'd die. Do you remember how you gave me life one day?
My god, please Daddy, just leave me alone today. Stop acting like the parent you never were anyway. And when your chocking on that fateful day, on your blood and bile and prayin for me to help you stay. I will just spit on you and let you die that way.

THE WICKED

Hey motherfucker come see what makes me tick, who the hell are you? Nasty little bitch, bend the fuck down and intake my dick. AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN!!! *I am the vile between your teeth coroding your gums untill I'm all you can speek. I am the fog in your bastard eyes makeing you scream hate as you die. I am the eary chill on your skin, make youe hair stand up, make you give in.* Thinking of you knif in hand, lay me down gun to head. Why the hell are you at me, Who the fuck told you I would be? EVERYTHING NOTHING EVERYTHING NOTHING** Some body has got to get fucked up somebody has got to pay for this.

TWO MYSELF

I remember I just staired at the ground, you called me names, I just looked down. when I first saw you I was a little stone, I got in your head-made you mind blown. +We dont know just when it happened all we know is were a freak. I don't care that I can here you laughin cause now I'm not so slient and meak+. {Now lockin back, lockin back, I can see, that you and me, togather freed foe all infinity. one and one, me and you, that makes two and we can be the only one to fuck with me}. Why dont you leave me alone, I think I've taken to much. I can not cope with all this stress inside of me. All I see is red and green, cheery colors from a violent seen. All I feel is dead inside, buckel up tonight we ride. ++.{}.
timelessness
Over thinking boundries, feeling so much more. Stuck inside this mind fuck, riding out the storm. Over stepping madness, chest is opened, sore. Light the fire now, here the calling of hell. Skys grey, clouds seem stiorming, seeds in my hand now lay dorment. Over sleeping in dreams, now a closed door. Standing on the hill side, slip into the shore.

Forever
Days went by I was falling apart, saw a little star and it fell away. Break today, never thought it would happen to me but I found something most eyes never see, the beuity of infinity. I drifted through the empty, I slid into the bleak, I fell from a grace above the sky and became the ultra weak. Never thought it would happen to me but my life has changed dramitcly. I have fallen from a thousand fucking skys, I have been caught in a thousand fucking lies. Always was there death in the back of my mind. I never thought it could happen to me but I found a true love to spend life with, I found a happyness out of the cold and dark, as long as she will have I know I have a heart. (this was deadicated to someone I love but they are now gone and only the song remanes.)

parts of the family

She kicked her out every fucking other day, a girl of 17 and scared for life. She slayed her husband, made his mind go away. Then she raped me in every singel fucking way. What the fuck, mommy, look at what you have left behind. Do something useful and take your fucking life.

I really hate you, wish I could piss on your grave, like to see you cold and dead 3 times a motherfucking day. I'd take a bone saw and pain you how you mind fucked me, to see you rotting, would be such a blissful seen

You took your daughter, made her lose her way. You took your own son, riped his fucking heart away. And then the same way, you take your husband and, make him hipacritcal, but he was never fucking something any way.

Mother why you do this to me, you fuck our lives up, all parts of the family. I think I'm roting, felling less every day, you fuck our lives up, all parts of the family. I can't bealive this, why the hell did you make me, you fuck our lives up, all parts of the family.

Dround with me

Give it to me cause the tast is getting louder, I dround in the sky, can't swim cause the sound fells much harder. Dont let it go by. I still hear the voices in my hear, like some kinda of sweet drug induced sanity. I got the rythem falling down, like the wildest of pigys pulling sand. Dround with me, feel the breez drop down to space and let your body fall away. Take it from me cause the sleep's getting sounder, I live in the 6 side cause if tast so much stronger. Just let if fly by. I got none left to reach up and scratch, something like a bullet in my back. I got the feeling I'm comeing down, Like the red ballon burst in my head.Dround with me, feel the breez drop down to space and let your body fall away. colder and deeper and bleeker, with pulling and reaching through needels and stigma. Dot the I's again, bring me home again, dont let me end this way. Lift it up again, fuck with heart felt sorrow. Be there when your not needed, for some unknown reason. Drag it, push it, fuck it, suck it. Pull it back and let it bleed, please come on and-Dround with me.

What keep's you vain?

You seem so shiny, so clean. What's keeping you so vain? I'm seein ugly, roting, and smeling haterid cream. You keep happy botteled, tied tight, adorns your neck. I'm feelin weeker in you, broke down to the meak, now recked.

This bottel's broken now, the glass is hurting bare feet. Your frown'in, drownd'in, sink'in, into a brand new sleep. The lace's pulled tighter now, stopes the blood from flowing in. Your eat'in, drink'in, speek'in, of your latest dream. I'm seeing through you, broken, meior, spiral webing ground down teeth. What keep's you vain? What keeps you vain?

My blood is boil'in now, I cant stop it seering me. I'm angry, sadened, swelling, a god damn super freak. The hate is rising in me, forces the needle ta seem. I'm naughty, weeker, bleaker inside the water falling. Your stand'in there just asking, wondering what' wrong with me. What keep's you vain? What keep's you vain?

Cant keep up, to bad, swallow it. Fuck you, dont look at me. What's wrong, like I give a fuck. Who told you, you wer'nt pety.

What keep's you vain?

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