I rebelled, I kept as far from Him as I could get without "sinning" for a long time. As about 50% of America's young people, I live in a broken home. My parents are christians. I took a lot from my parents break up. I got right with God when my dad left his family about six years ago. My heart, dreams, hopes, all of my everything was crushed while I watched him leave down the street knowing that he may never come back. Their is something sacred in a marriage, and that was taken away that night, by a man I never knew was my father. I had pushed God away and tried to keep my parents together, as so many of us do when our parents "seperate." As a young person I thought that the responsability was mine for my parents marriage, my three brothers, and a whole lot more than myself. I tried to kill myself. I was already killing my spirit by running from God, and the only thing left was my "real" person...a person that I didn't even know at the time. Needless to say, I ended up at a youth service some time after that, and my best friend to this day, Pastor Dale, gave a message on God being the "Father of the fatherless."(Psalm 68:5) It still amazes me today that God planned out a simple Youth Pastor like Pastor Dale, and God spoke everything that I needed and more to me that night. God was with me the whole time! As He is with you! He persues us, and trust me, from personal experience, when you let Him get to you, you'll never go back! At the end of the night, due to my loss, and the gain of a truth that has followed me forever, I wept at the front of the church for half an hour.
For all of you who will never meet me, or look at the rest of this site, please know that God wants a personal relationship with YOU! No joke, No games, just real love from a God who refuses to make you love Him back. From about the age of 12, I decided that if my earthly dad didn't want me, and if God really wanted me, then I would give Him all of me, for life! I am 19 now, and attempting to reach out of my own comfort zone of ministry, and getting to know you, the ones reading this right now. To minister to anyone who wants to know. I am not perfect, that is evident every day, but I pray to be used by God to minister to anyone who is wodering, or unsure of their final destination. I aspire to become a youth pastor, and keep on ministering until I die, regardless of what happens.
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