~*~is it too much to ask~*~
is it too much to ask of you to love me the way you are supposed to...what is wrong with me that made you leave...what did i do to deserve this rejection i recieve...is it too much to ask of you to at least try to call...so i could hear your voice...a voice I have yet to hear at all...is it too much to ask of you to maybe write to me sometime...or am i just a lost cause from another time...is it too much to ask of you to care about me...why do i still want to care about you...when you've hurt me so endlessly...is it too much to ask for you to have been a dad...do you realize how you've affected my life, you've caused me to be so sad...
is it too much to ask of myself to move on with my life...to let you be just some guy I wouldn't know from another...is it too much to ask of myself to give u pever recieving your love and accept that I am not important to you...is it too much to ask of myself to conceal the pain you've caused me, to just forget about you completly...yes it is too much to ask of myself...
so instead I ask the only Father I have ever known to help me forget you..i turn to Him...and He guides me through this...and through Him I learn, yes it would've been nice to have you around...but it is necessary for in Him is where love is found...the only love i need...I just hope that I am the only one you have left behind...forget about me and it will be ok...I'll get through it with my God guiding the way...but if I have any sisters out there...take the love you could've sent my way and give it to them, love them more and more with each coming day...