"Fragile Doll”
You sit me down softly
Eyes filled with sad regret
I am nothing but a still life painted with tears
Tainted by human emotions
My own eyes fill with watery crystals
Grief hidden beneath layers of consciousness
Threatening to overwhelm my physical body
At each passing moment
Memories play in useless circles in my mind
Trying to assure me, comfort me, and trick me
Into believing what I see, isn’t really happening
My own mind is against me
My body trills in ecstasy
As it remembers the many passionate nights
We spent having sex
Everywhere in the cramped apartment
Stained by body, and mind
Last night, life was perfect
This morning, it’s become a living hell
When you came and told me
You were leaving
I don’t even remember hitting the floor
Blood flowed as I accidentally bit into my lip
My pained soul refused to hear what he said
Only the first two words
It’s over, said softly
I accepted it without any explanation
Not wanting to picture any such bitch
Who could turn our love into such...shit
Lowering my head, I cry silently
Refusing to give in to the grief present everywhere in my body
What seems like hours is really a few select minutes
I beckon you forward, eyes clear with determination
Leave, I whisper, voice cold and dispassionate
Don’t come back, I say then turn away
I have a lot of cleaning up to do
Pick up broken pieces of you
From inside of my head
Footsteps depart quietly
Sound echoes from corners and closed windows
The noise you make is unimportant
I have a life to get back to
While you soon will have a wife
God, I say softly as soon as the door closes
Final and complete, just as is the end of my life
Why do I have to break so easily?
I never asked to be such a fragile doll
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