| ramblings... |
| 10.24.02 Yes. It has been quite some time, hasn't it? I was thinking: You ever wonder what the world would be liek if everyone just stopped talking. I was reflecting on this idea while sitting, quite isolated in a classroom, of blabbing people. They talk of such trivial and stupid things! IF EVERYONE JUST STOPPED TALKING, WOULD THEY REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY? This is my general philosophy: I pretty much refrain from talking unless i truly have something to say. It's a waste of air and brain power to speak of anything about the artificial world, as i call it. I.E, people you know who did stuff, what ever will you wear to prom, jenny!?, Oh, my god, so- and-so is a total, weirdo-freak. Could everyone just shut up!? I can't ask for this however, as I must constantly be reminded that people are horribly stupid in thier various different ways. Oh well. I don't pretend to be on a high throne of authority or intelligence, but I do believe that I am currently in a state of consciousness, that allows me to see things stripped down to the most basic, primal instincts and scientific phenomena. What's important so-to speak. But who's to say what's important, really? I guess it's just about digging a bit below the surface, which i find, most people, not able to do. 06.19.02: So I was thinking, why are people so messed up? I mean common stupidity is a disease, but people are either just plain stupid or in a whole lot of pain and denial. My mom said to me the other day, "Pain is the body telling us something is wrong". A seemingly simple notion, I took it deeply to heart thinking about the fact that as it is true physically, it is true mentally. Mentally hurting people have something wring with them (yeah, umm..duh), whether they be a homicidal maniac or have a mean case of superiority complex. These people are either stupid, or in denial. (Does denial block out intelligence?) No one wants to see who they really are because it scares them. I am getting on the soapbox aren't I? Stating the obvious? Yes, o well, deal with it. Anyway, I was just thinking that people are so quick to pick up the first thing they see, or run out and buy the thing that everyone else has. Trends? Why, yes of course... But what establishes trends? People of the fashion and entertainment industry, that's who! lol. I do not hate these people, I just like to sit back and marvel at the way the "common folk" lap it up like milk in the saucer. Oh, and if you are trying to be different, it's not working. At some level or another you are just like everyone else in a certain group...the best you can do is modify your mind, which I believe is your best sense of individuality. Blah blah blah I know. Just a thought or two. 05.21.02: Woo! One week of school left! I really dislike censorship, don't you? Why is it that even on a public domain, owned and operated by people who make their own rules, that you are asked by people like parents (I know you are reading this...Hi MOM, HI DAD!) to take acceptable things off of your own website? If monitoring cursing was a part of Geocities regime, I would not have been able to make this site, now would I? *sigh*..can't wait 'til I'm 18... 04.07.02: Well, I just got back from 4 days in San Diego...(Jezus tap-dancing Christ, NOOOO!!) heh, heh. NO, actually I had always wanted to go down there and now that I have, I know for a fact that it is indeed a place where I would never fit in...(not that I feel that I fit in anywhere, but y'know what I mean) Yes, despite the beautiful location (and it IS lovely) San Diego is nothing more than an extremely high concentration of horny,sun-tanned, pre-mature-aging college kids and retired rich folks. I did get to see lots of animals though :) I got to see the nearly extinct, suffering, animals of our planet at the zoo and wild animal park. Again my true appreciation for the facilities was put on hold by the horrific site of strollers. Yes, you read correctly..strollers...frikin strollers, and drooling, stinking, rude, stupid people..too many stupid people!!!!Aaaahhhhh!! You couldn't navigate though the place without getting run over by a stoller. And parents who don't know, or care about controlling their kids, screaming like they're dying all over the park and all throughout the tour on the buses....OMG. Yes, as you can probably tell from this little rant and my bio, I thouroughly dislike small children, especially when misbehaved and not told to shut the hell up...Yes, THIS is the reason why I refuse to babysit at any cost..heh.. 03.28.02: Hmmm..funny story... I was locked out of my house by my mother today, so I took a walk around my neighboorhood for about 4 hours. On my walk I not only achieved a lovely sun tan but I encountered several friendly people who said "hi" or "hello" to me regardless of the probable grimace that was on my face at the time....then I flipped off some guys who yelled at me from their car...(a common occurrance indeed)will guys EVER get it that chicks usually hate that kind of stuff?? jezus! offer to buy us something at least :) ANYway, I am at my dad's house after calling him from my hair dresser's and discovering the outdoor key he has...I am eating a pizza....verry tasty...o.k. that wasn't really a rant but it was kind of funny right? no. o.k. i get it....i'll just get mad at something and then get back to you.... Technically I SHOULD be really mad at my mom for what she did to me, but I haven't been mad at anything since tuesday when I had the worst P.M.S. of my life and was the biggest bitch ever...lol |