From: chikinito
To: GirlFriend
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My Very First Letter to My Ex, I don't know where you are right now. I have never seen you since that.. "thing" happened between the two of us nor have I ever heard something about you. So, i am safely assuming that you have gone to the depths unknown. Where no one can see you, where you belong. And I am sorry to say that, I have not missed you that much, since you let that other part of you take over your whole body. I guess, it has always been that way and I was only blinded by my own self for loving you. I wish that you don't miss me back. I wish that the part about you dies along with the love story of "us." Coz I could not think of any single reason why that "us" came to an end. You have cried every time we have missed each other. I know you loved me so much. I did too.. But you let go of your self and let that demon take over you. And you blamed me for letting you go too. I'm not sorry for doing so. It was your fault in the first place. I only wish it came to an end sooner. It could've been easier.. Sometimes I do think of you. I hated it whenever you cried for missing me. I hated it whenever you thought I didn't deserve someone like you.. And that I deserved that girl i always had a crush on. You knew she liked me too. Have you not wonder that I chose you instead of her? O, and don't you ever worry about the letters you gave me. I have not put them into disposal. I kept them on a paper bag.. My favourite paper bag. I have not seen them for months though for I have been staying here in Manila for about 7 months. Mama told me cockroaches infested the paper bag but she managed to kill eradicate them. The only casualties were the newspapers I kept. All in all there were 4 papers of the same volume and edition. I got one for myself, you, my locker and my mom. You didn't buy a copy when I told you so. It was a surprise but you didn't even bother. I had my article published by Inquirer for writing a love letter to you. It had our picture with mom there.. and you didn't even bother buying one. Its nice that cockroaches even bothered calling those newspapers HOME. I'm so sorry for them. If only I saw them before mothered sprayed insecticide to their sorry faces.. I could've donated those newspapers to them.. poor creatures huh? I was always wondering' about your peculiar taste on animals. You thought black house rats were cute and that white rabbits are scary.. You thought pit bulls were ideal indoors and that Shih Tzu s looked brutal because they were hiding their eyes from their fur. You even thought our big fat lousy teacher in math was cute.. I guess that explains why I always felt odd whenever you told me I was the cutest guy in the world.. I thought you were the cutest girl in the world too.. I still do. But I guess that doesn't matter now huh? Yeah.. I agree. And now that I think of it.. Would this letter matter anymore? Uhh.. Take Care.. |