PAIRING : Angel POV, but B/S, B/A undertones

RATING : PG

SPOILERS : season six of Buffy

IMPROV: #47 Ryan Adans Song Title Challenge

DISCLAIMER : I do not own these characters.

What did he want when he came creeping, peeping, seeping inside your room last night? What was he seeking when he sang a song of love and devotion and tried to make you love him?

Did you believe him when he said he loved you? Did you want to? Did you sit alone and wish his arms were around you? Were you ever sitting in your room, laying in your bed, and wish he was there?

Did you trick yourself into believing what he said he wanted was true? I wonder what you thought to yourself as you let him in time and time again, as you let him violate you and tear you down. Was it his eyes you saw as you screamed in glorious pleasure? Was it his hands you felt on your body? Did you see his eyes and know it was him? Or was he just there?

I sit and wonder. Wonder. Wonder *what* could have *made* you… do that. Do him so callously. What happened to you? What happened to the girl I knew? The pure, wonderful, innocent young girl that I loved? What the hell were you thinking when you let him in? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?

I can't even see straight! I can't think. Can't speak. Can't even *move*. Do you hate yourself as much as I hate you? Do you still want him? Did you want to hurt me? You did.

YOU DID! And I can't do anything. Nothing. Can't protect you from the devil. Can't stop him. Can only think.

Think. Think. Think. I wonder if you ever did? Did you? THINK about what you doing? About *who* you were doing?

And why the hell did you ever give a damn about what the devil wanted?

~El Fin~