| Darkness, when all color can't be seen. Happiness, can you tell me what it means? I'm always smiling, making jokes, Don't judge a book by its cover, not even by the first page. What you might see may trick you. If you read, understand, you'll see it's filled with rage. Depression, desertion, Lonliness, you feel you're all alone, even when I know the closest of friends will be there. I tell myself no one cares. Self esteem, what's it mean to think positive? I look in the mirror, as my head turns, in shame of the sight. No one can help me see the light. It's something I know, I have to do myself. If only you all could see through the disguise. If only, you could see through all the lies. When I think finally, that someone can help me, even if they can't see through, they make me smile in a way that is meant. They get up and leave, as I lie, my heart suffocating. Pain, it hurts, attacks when most vulnerable. I try to shield myself from the pain. That's when I get hurt the most. I try, and I try, I try to make people laugh. Hoping maybe that the smile I've made is true. Yet in sorrow, jealousy, wishing I could. I tell you this now, When you think you see me smile, and when you hold me, you can feel my heart beating. When you look into my eyes, When I say I love you, don't let go, and I'm not telling you how. You'll have to find the way. I'm waiting for that day. I'm dieing to be alive. Please, save me before I take the real dive. |
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