Mixed_emotions

I can't tell you how I feel,
I'm being torn apart.
I want to try,
not feel like I'm watching the time go by,
with no answers to my questions.
My heart hurts yet yearns,
watching him before my eyes,
as everything inside turns.
I want to hold him,
but he seems so far away.
I want to hold his hand,
but I can't even reach out.
I want to know how he feels,
but I'm speechless, gutless.
I'm having mixed emotions,
don't know where to turn.
There's a small part of me,
that won't let go.
There's a part of me,
that won't let me say no.
After all the rain and clouds,
I know that rainbow will break through.
I'll follow it to the end,
find where the love once grew,
and revive the love we both knew.