| thoughts of a lonely girl why are you away? why does it seem like forever? why is it that i cant wait to see you? why does it have to be this way? why cant i be with you right now? i dont think i can handle this. i wish that this werent so. i hate it when guys i know try to take your place. its messed up that they are your friends and know that i love you. i wish that we had gone to ozzfest. damn we had so much fun going to concerts. i swear godsmack was hella kick ass. i hope you know that i love you, and i am pretty sure you already know that i do. because damn i do. i do love you i really really do. i wish you were here. |
| no ordinary book Cool today i bought a pretty kick ass book. it is hella sweet. its like a normal size book, i'd say like 5 by 7. and its red and yeah its cool. whats most important about this book is that its a book dedicated to us. its a book that is all about us. we are going to record everything about us in it. its going to be cool because late in our lives we can show it to people we love and they are going to be like damn yall were crazy growing up. our kids are going to laugh at us. my sister an dher husband are going to be like whoa when they find out about what happened taht one morning. my favorite book now is gong to be nothing like this one is going to be. this one has way more quality and meaning because it is about you and me thats why it is no ordinary book. |
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| can a friend last forever? i thought i had one of the sweetest friends, a gentleman in every way. but i guess i didnt see what was behind him several miles away. i thought time that we've known each other and times that we shared could hold this friendship together for all time. i hadnt heard from him for awhile. i finally did. asshole. he tells me we cant be friends, he got ,married, she doesnt want him talking to me and several other friends her had before her, and he doesnt want to even know me anymore or our friends anymore. all this in a few minutes. theyve only known each other a good year and i've known him all my life. that shit dont make sense. we spent some great times together, times that must be forgotten, times that must be killed, time that must be murdered. ah hell how my heart hurts. he was like my brother but now i know what friendship really meant to him. to me it meant more and to him and her less, fuck i dont need all this stress. the answer sadly must be no. |
| the day has come seems like i have been waiting forever, no make that forever and a day. hey. you said it wasnt going to be long, but it sure seems that way. months have passed since i saw you. i know that it will be a dream when i see you again. it will be weird you probably have to make the first move because i will be in a state of shock. i am so happy the day has finally come. |
| Just out here now Already been really anxious... my.. Baby although i'll linger ON. I'm Looking outside..very excited You outta understand, Very into days ahead. Maybe another romantic, intimate evening. Maybe another random trek into nowhere. Either venture even none is fulfilling. You outta understand, anything roundya es adventurous. |
| such a fool you know i am such a fool for you. you have me wrapped around your limbs. why do you treat me so bad? but whats weird is it is not really so bad just that you have me so mad at you. i know you love me. i love you indefinitely. do not play these games. i thought we were through with that. i dont like it because when you do i do not like you. most of all i do not like not liking you. do not do this to us. we are we. i am you, you are me. i also am such a fool for you. |
| 1/27/03 not a pleasant day. i miss you like crazy. i want you to call. waiting, waiting, waiting......please hurry! i am sitting in class he's lecturing i can hear his voice but all i am listening to is yours. i love you, you know this. i can not move on. last night i said what i said because i want you to realize that you need me in everything you do and i need you....just you.....please call this is too crazy. i was acting to crazy. i need you. i really really do. today sucks tomorrow will be better. |
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