| I am the emptiness inside you all I wonder why you never feel the need to see me I hear every tear you cry I see the pain you live through I want to help you all I can but I am the emptiness inside you all I pretend to hide behind this mask I feel your fear I touch upon the thing you want to forget I worry that you will shatter I cry out for the pain you live I am the emptiness inside you all I understand that you won't last forever I say this over and over to you I dream of a better day I try not to hurt you too much I hope that you understand why I can't help you I am the emptiness inside you all |
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| Disgraceful manners Beauty that surpasses all And yet somehow The emptiness strikes within her heart Loneliness strikes At the most inconvenient times The world can be cruel Even to the most glamorous Peace never existed Everyone always dislikes someone Life is an unhappy state Limbo between creation and hell We are God's marionettes Entertainment for the flawless Headaches for each other Such a waste of eternity |
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| Rubbing salt into my wounds It's getting a little harder to breath Don't you see I'm fading I'm drowning all over again The drop of a word A bad subject, a fight You forget I'm not open My pages are glued shut I'm lost again in the fight This empty battle Against myself and the world I'm not strong enough No one is strong enough To relieve my pain Nor shoulders big and strong enough To cradle my head and carry my tears Super glue Never comes unstuck And purgatory Is forever My own personal hell Locked in the very pits of my insanity and depression Rays of sunshine peak teasingly through the bars of my prison I am envious So easy it is for them To shine like prized gold While wood lies strongly beneath their feet Giving their shoes advice to move but never getting credit Sister, they call Heal our wounds and give us your council And I smile wanly Things will never change Always the underdog In this simple story of life Except the underdog Never becomes the top dog Such loneliness It breads obsession, depression Who am I to complain I am simply the wood that guides your feet |
| Another one lost Down I go again Lost another guy To another friend Always testing They all break down Like overheated horses Ready to be put up for stud When will they value me The brains and personality locked inside Look past the layers of ugliness Cross my veil of pride Repeat answers and performances All laid upon my plate Yet I keep testing, searching Push the limits just one more time Memories of depression Etched so clearly in my mind In body I am full But my happiness is left behind No more illusions I can predict every move Sugar coat it in candy lies It all adds up the same |
| When will my happiness begin I am holding to my illusions Hoping with every breath Nothing ever comes out of dreaming I am a mime When will my sound begin to clear When will the people around me Truly begin to hear When will they understand The pain I pour silently It suffocates me You can see it in my eyes A death of the soul The very essence of laughter and joy Can that really be true Then I have lost my very being When will this slow death Begin to fade When will this dark world bring me joy My body on the tombstone laid |
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