date 103102
time 10:39pm
status ok
music jerrica's singing and banging of drumsticks on tina's car

date 102702
time 1:15pm
status eh
music tokyo rose - i love you too

hmm, well yesterday was the cadet picnic for RO. it was alright i guess. i was captain for tug of war this year and we got 3rd, man i swear it was the freakin grass. well overall we got second, we just lost one point, ehh oh well.after that i went to that L&L hawaiian place in sweetwater with cris, joe, josh, angel, myka, tina, faye, gladys, and jerrica. stayed there for a while then left to go to cris' house to chill and play video games and what not...went home, brushed my teeth, woke up brushed my teeth, ate breakfast, brushed my teeth, took a shower, got ready for church, went to church, and now im here in front of the computer, and yeah..im out.

date 102002
time 11:42pm
status procrastination's a bitch.
music the prize fight - playing the part

words of wisdom from mr. matt ibarra:

"relationships are like the italian pasta at the base in the bowling alley;  you like it in the beginning but after a while it starts to taste like crap, but you keep it cuz you know youre gonna want some later.."

..2 minutes later..

"..see, i told you i'd want some later."

date 101902
time 8:28pm
status ok
music happy hour - where you left home

just got back from johnny's pizad. it was cool. played video games, did stuff on the computer, ate pizza, and yeah just chillaxing. most of the g's were there; jesse, nick, francis, vince, jay, jon, johnny, matt. had to leave cuz my sister called and said i had to go home. but its ok. before that we were all at the base, minus the vince. we just bowled 2 games and played at the arcade. some good stuff. and before, before that i was at school taking the psat's. it was ok, its like the freakin 3rd or 4th time i took it already but hey, i need the practice anyway. well thats about it for today. it was pretty cool. thanks pals.

date 101802
time 7:20pm
status ok
music something corporate - bad days

happy birthday jay!

date 101502
time 6:47pm
status my finger hurts
music unsung zeros - postcards home

damn, i just burned my finger trying to fix my headphones. the connection was bad to i had to redo the wiring and re solder it and when i was using the soldering iron my finger got too close and i burned my knuckle. it looked weird like a piece of burnt meat or something, except it was light colored, almost white. my sister said to put ice on it and i did and after a while the hardness of the burned area went away but there was like a big bubble so i popped it and peeled the skin off and now i can freakin see the layer of flesh under my skin! its starting to hurt a little but ill live.

well today was like any other day of school. at lunch i stayed with my cousin jj to see if michael encarnacion would do something but the only thing he did was come up next to him and just stand there looking at jj like a little bitch. i dunno it was confusing, he just stood there for like 8 seconds and left. all i could do was laugh at his gayness.. damn i hope nothing goes down, at least until im there so i could get in on the action. heh, i just hope my cousin doesnt do anything stupid..after lunch was spanish and we found out that tomorrow that we're going to the assembly to watch this pro violinist. yup. well after school there was practice were cris practically tried to rape me. hahah. abby and josh came to visit and that was cool, havent seen them two in a long time.. and yeah........

date 101502
time 8:43pm
status ok
music dashboard confessional - so impossible

"i'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild
or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
so yes, i'll see you there."

date 101402
time 9:33pm
status ok
music the prize fight - goodnight kiss

today was alright. just another day.. and here's how it went:
first period we had to suit up for pt, but i got out of doing pt cuz i "had to do some work" heh, thank goodness for my batallion-staff-ness. second period is always boring with ms alhgren, i found out that henry cant give me his old deck cuz his sister's boyfriend took it, but i dont know if he took the trucks too cuz henry took em off the deck. third period we have to make our own freakin constitution but its cool cuz she assigned us partners and i got someone i knew. fourth period was orchestra, (yeah man. im in orchestra!) and thats always a pretty cool period, especially since i got my buddies jon and jesse there this year. lunch eh, first i chilled with the g's at the amp for a bit they went to RO and i found out that i missed freakin michael encarnacion freakin stepping up to my cousin again. damn. i also found out that chris mcallister finally apologized to chris abelon for running him over, FINALLY shit.. he could have at least apologized right after. that was like freakin 4 months since he hit chris with his car. whatever.. fifth period we watched a video, and sixth period we just got quized on the scarlet letter chapter 7, 8, and 9. ehh i gotta finish a book report for that class. its due on wednesday..ehh..well after school just watched cg practice and stuff we gotta talk to the 2nd years about some stuff going on tomorrow but yeah. damn josh you gotta not do that kinda of stuff man. dont want anything bad happening to you man.. that basically brings me to now, and right now im thinking about finishing my homework................well i better finish my homework. im out.

hey dont clown the music peoples..you know its tizight

date 101102
time 7:54pm
status ok
music the junior varsity - park your car

just got back from jesse's piz-ad. its always cool chillin with the guys. well after a few minutes of chillaxin we went over to katrina's house cuz it was her bday. i didnt even know they were going, but i came along anyway. so..

happy birthday katrina!

thanks for having us there. it was cool.

well tomorrow im going to long beach around lunch time. dont really know what im gonna do there, probably just skate or something, walk around the streets of the LBC and mobb deep with the cousins ya know pick up some girls hahah.

date 101002
time 8:16pm
status ok
music the prize fight - goodnight kiss

lately ive noticed that a lot of people are having relationship problems. i dunno it might just be me. but it makes you think, if youre not already in one, if its worth risking all that pain to get into one. then you see really strong relationships. and see how the couples are so happy with each other and seem like they were meant to be, just makes you wanna either smile or be jealous of them. but it really is nice seeing people, especially friends in nice, strong relationships. as for me, i guess im just scared to get into one. ive always been too freakin shy to even establish anything serious with a girl. eh..i gotta get over this shyness thing. well, enough of how much of a loser i am..
im out

date 100902
time 10:53pm
status ok
music taking back sunday - great romances

..HAPPY HOUR AT JUST JAVA CANCELLED..CHECK THEM OUT AT THE EPICENTRE (8450 MIRA MESA BLVD) ON THE SAME NIGHT, OCT 12. SHOW STARTS AT 8. $7. DONT FORGET, TELL ALL YOURE FRIENDS!

date 100902
time 5:30pm
status ok
music biz markie - just a friends

yo, go check out www.mp3.com/happyhour. new songs up so....start downloading them songs.. fo sho.
RIGHT NOW MAN, GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

date 100802
time 4:36pm
status ok
music taking back sunday - youre so last summer

well today was alright. nothing really special, just another day. the only thing i didnt really like about it was that it was uniform day, but that was no big deal. after school was the first practice for the 1st years. cant really say anything about them, its too early to judge. um, yeah, just another day......i dont know what to write about anymore so ill stop it here..

date 100702
time 10:30pm
status ehh
music green day - longview

man, why do i feel so freakin distant from my friends all of a sudden.. i dunno, but i hate this feeling.. i mean i never was very close, but these guys are my buddies, they freakin welcomed me into their circle of friends no questions asked and now im never freakin there..i hate being the guy that just stops by to say whats up and then leaves. man wtf is that. i guess ive just been too caught up in myself for the past week or so... eh, im just feeling kinda down, there's too much stuff on my mind right now..

!!!

date 100702
time 12:58am
status thinking
music immature - constantly

its just about 1 in the morning. cant really sleep. just up thinking about stuff. ehh.. damn, life is so confusing. i dont know what to do..

just waiting for the sun to come up..

date 100602
time 1:30pm
status ok
music dashboard confessional - hands down

man..

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
so wont you kill me, so i die happy
my heart is yours to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry
which ever you prefer..

date 100602
time 1:16pm
status ok
music incubus - pardon me (acoustic)

10/12 8:00pm Just Java Cafe FarFetched, Happy Hour, (ALL AGES!!!) $5 Hh up first

October 12 Epicentre
Runey, One Track Mind, No Vanity, Hh
all ages 7:30 PM $7
Hh up 4th around 10ish

Patheic, happy hour, bonzai bill, no way out.
7pm 5$ JUST JAVA 26th happy hour up second

date 100502
time 9:16pm
status e
music the hives - hate to say i told you so

just got back from mission. i went to go watch "red dragon" with my cousin chris, chris abelon and my sister. i think the movie was pretty good. not really that scary or exciting or anything, i dunno, i guess it was too predictable for me. well that was fun.. thanks chris.

well tomorrow the only thing i got planned is to go to church in the morning. i think i might go out driving with my dad or go to the gym or something. if youre reading this allen, ill try to call you allen if i go to the gym but sometimes my dad just brings me in the middle of driving or something so if i dont call im sorry, but ill try to, so yeah.

MAN! i just found out that i wont be able to go to the happy hour show at just java. im so sorry matt. i found out that im going to long beach that weekend. man i am so sorry that i wont be able to go. i really want to go...

date 100502
time 12:30pm
status eh..
music the used - on my own

yesterday was alright, i just wanted to stay longer.. damn a lot of people got messed up easily. eh. well meliza stopped by with dennis, bryan, alex and kim. there was something bothering meliza, but she didnt wanna talk about. i hope everythings ok. well i just chilled for a while then i left like around 11 with joe and tina and josh decided to come along too. ehh, i dont wanna get into too much detail about that night, cuz my sister might be reading this and say stuff to get me in trouble. its nothing bad though, but its some stuff she can maybe use against me if shes mad.

well i just came back from volunteering at the hospital. it was pretty boring, it was a slow day again, as usual. well i dunno what im gonna do for the rest of the day so someone call me up or something..

date 100302
time 6:43pm
status eh..
music ll cool j - i need love

romance, sheer delight, how sweet
i've got to find me a girl to make my life complete
you can scratch my back, we'll get cozy and huddle
i'll lay down my jacket so you can walk over a puddle
give you a rose, pull out your chair before we eat
kiss you on the cheek and say "Ooh girl, you're so sweet"
it's deja vu, whenever im with you
i can go on forever tellin you what i'll do
but where you at? you're neither here nor there
i swear, i cant find you anywhere
damn sure you aint in my closet, or under my rug
this love search, is really makin me bugged
and if you know who you are, why dont you make yourself seen?
take a chance with my love and you'll find out what i mean
fantasies can run, but they cant hide
and when i find you Im'a pour all my love inside
i need love

date 100302
time 4:19pm
status thinking
music tupac - changes

got back from starbucks a few minutes ago. there were kind of a lot of people there. well we chilled there while and right when we were about to leave ren comes with rox and mai. damn, i wanted to stay but i dunno if i would have a ride home after. MAN!.. well i dunno anymore, it just isnt the same some how, i dunno. maybe its just cuz i dont get to see or talk to her that much anymore. eh.. well tomorrow i dunno if i could go out anymore, i hope my dad lets me go out, i really wanna go and just chill with some friends for a few hours.

date 100202
time 10:25pm
status ok
music glassjaw - radio cambodia

oh yeah, thanks ren and faye for the nice messages you wrote on my stuff.

and oh yeah go to the just java cafe in chula vista on oct 12 and catch a $5 show. 8pm, all ages. be there, or else

and oh yeah again, good luck matt on this coming tuesday's drum off!!

date 100102
time 10:38pm
status ehhhh
music ll cool j - i need love

i need love baby

date 100102
time 8:38pm
status ehhhh
music get well soon - my falling star wish

damn, i hate school..

date 100102
time 7:46pm
status ehhhh
music tupac - i aint mad at cha

another month put into the archive.. sign my guestbook people, please..well today was alright. ehh i dunno, i guess i dont see her often enough. i barely have any time to talk to her. anyway, i dunno, just thinking..