Hi! I�m . And if you know the song �Have You Ever� by S Club 7. Then you may have and idea about my love-life, When it was already too late when I realized that I�ve lost the love of my life.

It goes like this

Me and have been best friends since we were 5. We argue a lot, but we seldom have serious fights. He�s always been there for me. He was my shelter from the storm. We�ve been through a lot, and we always live through. He saw me though my bad and good moods. He understood me in every-way. We help each other out. Its like I can�t live without him.

Then it was our high school years when I started to feel jealous when girls surrounds him. Then I came to the conclusion, And I realized I Love Him. I LOVE . I wanted us to be more than just friends. But I never told him about my feelings, Because I was afraid to loose him, I was afraid to ruin our friendship.

I hid my feelings from for about 8 years. When it was our last college year, he started to act weird, like sometimes he�ll start a conversation about things in love, like for example he asked me �Do you really think some loves can be the worst thing?� stuff like that. But when its my time to ask him he never says a word and then makes an excuse.

One day

�Hey � greeted me.
�Hey� I replied.
�Here.� then he handed me an envelope.
�What�s this?� I asked trying to peek what was inside
�Inside is a letter. But don�t read it until dismissal time.�
�Ok!� I replied
�Promise me nothing will change� said then a tear rolled down his cheek
�What are you talking about?!� I asked.
�Nothing. Just promise me you�ll read that dismissal time�
�Promise� I replied.
�I�ll go now or else I�ll be late for English, Bye�
�Bye� I replied then he walked away. Then I really became curious bout what the letter is about, but still I kept my promise.

Dismissal came and I was ready to read the letter gave me, When our principal called me I can still remember the conversation, One of the worst things that happened to my life.
�Ms. , Can I talk to you for a minute� said our principal
She was already standing in front of me so I didn�t have time to hide the letter anywhere else so I kept it inside my palm.
�Sure, bout what?� I asked
�Well�I just want to congratulate you on the high remarks your getting. Keep it up�
�Thanks, So can I go now?� Well I was really anxious to read the letter, so I really wanted to end conversation. She nodded then we bid goodbye.

Then I noticed that my letter was already gone and I was already out of the campus. So I came rushin back, retracing my steps hoping to find the letter gave me. Unfortunately I didn�t so I just came to the conclusion that I already lost it. So I just went straight to home.

The next day didn�t show up for school. Time went so fast and it was already our dismissal.
�Ms. � my principal called my attention again. I looked at her
�I believe this is yours. You dropped it.� Then she handed me YES! It was the letter.
�Thank you� I said
�Ok, you go home safely now� She said walking back to her office.

I sat on a seat right beside me then I started to read the letter. it reads as:

�Dear

You know we�ve been best-friends for a long time now. I was with you when you were still a young girl until the beautiful lady you became today. And well� my feelings for you became stronger. Meaning I Love You. I didn�t say anything cause I didn�t want to ruin our friendship or lose you.

But now I�ve found the courage to tell you my true feelings.

I didn�t tell you in person what I wrote hear, cause It would feel awkward.

I LOVE YOU

I also hope you feel the same.

If you do feel the same meet me at the park right after school. But if you don�t show up it just means that you only want us to be friends and nothing more.

I�ll be waiting.

Lots of Love,
xxx�

I cried the whole time I read the letter. I got up and ran as fast as I could to the park hoping he�d be still there, waiting for me. But unfortunately he wasn�t. After that, I still didn�t have the courage to bring my self to and also tell him that I feel the same. That I Love him.

The following days we acted like nothing happened. We remained friends. But it was really awkward for me.

Graduation passed and still I didn�t say. I Love you too .

After 2 years I received an invitation to and his fianc�e�s wedding. I attended cause I didn�t want to ask me why I didn�t go.

While they were doing their vows I saw and noticed that kept looking at me.

After the wedding, we went to the reception. I met �s bride now his newlywed wife. She was actually nice and told me that told a lot of stories about me. I�m sure he didn�t tell about the letter.

asked me to have a slow dance with him and I did. At the end of the song, he whispered to me and said
�I still Love you, I�ve always loved you.� I cried and walked out of the venue. I felt his eyes followed me. I jumped to my car and went straight home.

We didn�t keep in touch.

I just wish that now he�ll forget about me and that he�ll be happy with his wife.

�Have you loved and lost somebody
Wishing there�s a chance to say I�m sorry
Can�t you see
That�s the way I feel about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road
You should be taking
I should know
Cause I loved and lost the day I let you go�