"!! I know you're at home!! Open the fucking phone!!! OPEN IT!!!!!" yelled but I was just busy with crying. I can't believe he did this to me! What the hell I've done to deserve a love like this?? Just I loved him much and that's it!! He cheated on me. Why me???? Then the phone rang again and again and again�
" OPEN THE FUCKIN PHONE!!! darling please open it, I'll explain everything to ya!" he said crying and I couldn't handle it and got the phone
"What you want??" I asked coldly
"??? Listen it wasn't like what you thinking!" he said
"What am I supposed to think?? I saw you ! I saw you!!" I yelled at him
", I was really drunk, please, I love you!!" he said crying
"Really?? Why you cheated on me? Huh?" I asked
"It was a mistake! I was drunk!!" he said
"No , you weren't drunk and I saw everything!" I said
"What?? I was really drunk and that bitch throw herself on me!!!" he said
"So?? Why you were really happy while fuckin her???" I asked
" please! I'm really sorry, I love you!!" he said but I didn't say anything back, I wasn't in the mood to fight
"Will you forgive me??" he asked after a while
"Why am I always forgiving and why am I always worried one ? Why don't we change the roles??" I said
"But �" he said but I hung up the phone. Breaking down on the couch with tears coming down my cheeks.

This was 4 months earlier. But I remind every single tear I cried for . If you wanna ask me do I love him still, yeah I love him much. I tried my best to get him outta my mind but with no luck. I'm not pregnant like in all the stories. Every one's problem is same. After a big fight, they breaks up and then months later girl finds out that she's pregnant with his babe, months later babe borns and then the guy and girl sees each other again and then girl says its his child and then HAPPY ENDING!! Boy kisses the girl and then they hug their child�very silly. I don't want my story to end like this, cos it won't! I'm in my hometown again after 4 months, I got a big break after cheated on me. I'm in my home now with . He is my boy friend. I really love him but not much as I love . is really fit. And he is like 2nd . He has blue eyes and he's blonde. He is fit, tall and joker. He is really sweet and now he is getting shower. Now Blue is on their 3th album and they released Breathe Easy. Its really good song, cos wrote it! But he is now going out with a girl. She was a good friend of mine, but she knows it like that. The first day we met, I hated her so now?? She is a bitch and going out with cos of his fame and money. Her name is . I TOTALLY HATE HER!!� You know what? I hate her cos I'm jealous!!

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"What you want more ?? I did everything for you!!" said getting closer to me
"! Our relationship is a lie. You know it and you keep on wanting things from me! I can't love you" I said
"Why ?? I know our relationship is a lie and it's a game to make jealous to her to comes back to you" she said
"But I'm in love with you and I want one thing from you, I want you to love me more" she added and I looked at her deeply
", you're one of my best friends and I want you to understand me, I gave all my heart to , I love her" I said
"So what you doing with me ??" she asked
"We made an agreement , I said I'll pay for it and you accept it, but if you want to end this game, its up to you" I said
", I cant go on like this, I cant be with you like this, I will always want more from you and you'll keep on saying you love " she said worried
"But, I'll help you till the day you and will get back together, cos I love you" she added and I hugged her
"Lets go out tonight, I'll take you out for a dinner ok???" I said
"For to get jealous or for our friendship??" she asked
"Hmm- both" I said and she looked upset
"Am I boring you with my love problems??" I asked
"No" she said softly
"So go and get dressed for tonight" I said and she stood up and went upstairs to get dressed�

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Good news from �
After a long-term relationship with Blue's , she got a big break and she is coming back today! And she is coming back with her new lover.
"Today I'll arrive to London in early hours with my boyfriend and then I'm starting to new designs, I'll continue my job but everything can happen, I dunno" said and we're wondering what did she mean by 'everything can happen'?? Is she gonna give up her job for her new lover or something?? We'll find it out soon�

I read the magazines while was getting ready for dinner. So now she is in London, here again! But she is with someone. I'm very down! What can I do to get her back??? Then all of things came back to my mind�

FLASHBACK-

"?? I'm going out tonight to a new club in town! Will you come with me??" I asked her on the phone
"No, I would come darling but I have works to do and I'm not feeling really well" she said
"Hey? Are you ok?? What happened?" I asked her cos her voice wasn't like the other times we talked
"No, not that important babe, just feeling down, and I have to design some new clothes to new catalogue shoots" she said
"Want me to come with you and help??" I asked her
"No, go and have some fun, we can go there another time" she said
"You sure darling?" I asked her
"Yep!! Don't lengthen!!! I'm sure and byee!!!" she said
"? What happened? I can't believe you!! You changed lot!" I said upset
", sorry babe, I said you I'm not in the mood, sorry, I have to work babe!" she said
"Ok, Make good work babe! Good luck and I love you lots!!" I said
"I love you lots too darling, bye" she said
"Bye darling!!" I said and I hung up the phone then started to get ready. I wasn't going to go out with the guys but it was just a little drinks, alone

I went to the bar and then ordered my drink. I drank more than 2 bottle of vodka. I didn't know why but I was just drinking and drinking. Then all of a sudden a woman came near me, she was wearing a very short dress that shows her ass! And she tried to have a chat with me
"Hey! Babe! Aren't you in that boy band Blue??" she asked in her bitchy voice and I was totally drunk
"Why would you care?" I asked her
"Just wondering babe, I'm " she said and I didn't say anything
"So??" she said after some min
"What so??" I asked
"Your name sweetie!' she said
"Huh! " I said
"Wow! , you know you're really fit??" she asked with her bitchy voice again
"Huh- huh! What you want??" I asked her
"Just wanna taste your lips and maybe�" she said and stared at me, head to toe
"Ahuhauahaua" I laughed but then she moved closer and closer and then our lips met. I didn't know why the taste of her lips was good, but I wanted more from her
"Hey!! Want me to come your place??" she asked
"Ok, come on babe" I said and we went to my home�

AT HOME

"Want something to drink first??" I asked her
"No. I'm not thirsty, but if you're, I can do something" she said and laid on top of me on the living room's couch then, we got naked in somehow and when I was doing something with her, I heard a shout behind me�
"?? WHAT YOU DOING HERE?? MY GOD!! HOW COULD YOU HUH??" came and shouted at me crying
"?? My God!!!" I said and got my jeans from the floor and tried to put it on
"YOU KNOW WHAT?? I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN!!!" She yelled and ran out of the house with crying. I ran after her but she was very fast, I couldn't���

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I felt tears coming down my cheeks. It felt terrible. 4 months ago, I made my life's mistake. I still love her but she told me she doesn't wants to see me again. I tried my best but then she went away from country. She went near her family for 4 months and now she's here again. I missed her much but what can I do?? She has a boy friend now and I hurt her much! What's more?? She already forgot me, but I don't want!!

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"???" yelled from upstairs
"What babe???" I yelled back
"I'm getting dressed and please you get dressed too, we're going to have a dinner out tonight!" he yelled
"Really???" I yelled
"Yep darling! Get ready please!" he yelled back and went to get dressed. I went my room and opened my cupboard and searched for something nice to wear tonight! After some mins, I found a nice dress, one shoulder, short black dress, then I went t have a quick shower and I had. Then I dressed and made my hair and make up and then went downstairs. was waiting me there, watching TV. I went behind the couch and gave him a kiss on his cheek
"What was that for??" he asked turning to me
"Can't I kiss you anytime I want??" I asked
"Of course babe!!" he said and pulled me near him and started to kiss me passionately,
"Darling lets save this for tonight e?" I asked him pushing him away on me
"Ok, but I can't wait!!" he said and laughed
"You have to babe!!" I said and stood up, he stood up too and we leaved home to go to the restaurant

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"! I'm ready babe, come on!!" said coming from the upstairs but then she suddenly stopped near me, and stared at me
"What happened ? Whats wrong? Why you crying??" she asked and sat next to me, I pointed the magazine and she took it and read it
"Oh God! ! She is back!!!!!" she said in a very happy voice
"But why you crying?" she added sounding worried now
"Didn't you read it all?? She is coming with her boy friend! She's already over me!!" I said
"! I don't think she loves him or something like that, lets go to that dinner and we can talk there what'll we do, she is back right??" she said
"Yeah" I said and got up, wiping away my tears
"Lets go!" I said and we went out and got in my car and we drove off�

AT RESTAURANT

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" Good Night Mr. You booked one right??" the headwaiter asked
"Yeah" I said holding hand
"Please follow me" he said and let us to our table and then we ordered our meals.
", don't look now but is at the table which is near us" said with a shocked face
"What" I said and turned and saw holding hands with a guy, She was looking happy
"I said don't look !!" whispered and I turned back
"What are we gonna do now??" I asked
"Don't panic! Now we're gonna make her jealous as we can" she said almost whispering
"How??" I asked
"Now hold my hand and look into my eyes, I'll take her attention on us don't worry" she said
"Ok" I said and held her hand tightly as I can and looked into her eyes deeply but thinking of what will happen!!
"Oh!" she yelled a bit and made her knife fall on the floor, waiter ran near us and got the knife and went away to bring her new one
"Oh , I'm sorry, what were you saying??" she asked a little loud�

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A lady who was sitting the table near us dropped her knife. Then I heard that she said 'oh , I'm sorry, what were you saying' and I looked at the guy. OH MY GOD!!! NOWAY!!!!! The guy is !!! looked at my shocked face and
"? What happened hunnie?? You went white in a min" he said
"Oh nothing love, I just felt sick" I lied
"Oh wanna go back to home??" he asked worried
"Oh no , its not that important, I don't wanna ruin our special night like this babe" I said trying to hear my words
"Ok babe" said and hold my hand again and looked at me deeply
", I love you!" he said at a little loud in a sudden
"I love you too darling" I said and he approached a little to me and kissed me, And NOW!! SAW US!!!!! YUPPY!!!

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I mounted 'you heard it too right?' and she nodded
"Say something nice to me silly" whispered and I hold her hand again
", I wanna tell something to ya babe, You know I love you and you're best. Since the first time, you were near me and I knew that it was a sigh from God to me, that you're mine, I love you " I said
", I love you too babe" said and smiled at me, then a song started� it was THAT'S WHEN I'LL STOP LOVING YOU by NSYNC. And it was one of and mine songs. It was really special for us, I thought she wouldn't dance but they stood up and went to the small dance floor.
" Lets dance" I said in hurry
"!! No She will understand everything!!! Pretend like you don't know her coming back to London again and didn't see her" said
"But it's not fair!! This song was one of our songs and she's dancing with that guy!!!" I said worried and the song started

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever (yeah yeah)
That's when I'll stop loving you (that's when I'll stop loving you)

That's when I'll stop loving you

I'm sure you've heard these words before
And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more
You're afraid it all might end
And a broken heart is scared of breakin' again

But you've gotta believe me
I'm never leavin'
You'll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop loving you, yeah

Long as sunlight lights the sky
The light of love will be
Found in these eyes of mine (these eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You're the only one
I'll ever give this heart to

What I'm trying to say is (to say)
Nothing will change this
There'll be no time you won't find me there
Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Well you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop loving you

When this world doesn't turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining
Till then I'm gonna be by your side
I'm gonna be loving you forever
Every day of my life.. baby
Oh yeah yeah

Well you know then baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving..

That's when I'll stop loving you
When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth (lies become the truth yeah)
Well you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving (that's when I'll stop loving)
That's when I'll stop loving you

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
(Well you know then, baby)
That's when I'll stop loving (that's when I'll stop babe)
That's when I'll stop loving you

", what's all of your special songs? But the romantic ones, which loves most??" asked smiling after the song, and her guy sat again to their seats and chatted about 's old times in London. She didn't talked about me, or said anything about me
"Hmm-lemme think�" and I always danced when NO ONE LOVES YOU by ATOMIC KITTEN and it was special too
"No One Loves You by Atomic Kitten" I whispered
"Ok, one more" she whispered back
"Hmm- THIS I SWEAR by Nick Lachey" I whispered again
"Babe, I have to go to loo" she said and went. I was alone at the table and and her guy was talking

", what was it like with your old boy friend? Cos we met each other by his mistake, right?" he asked
"It was good but not that much, he cheated on me and I leaved this country to get him out of my mind and I did!" said
"I like him" he said in a sudden
"What??" asked confused
"Cos he made a chance to us to met and then now" he said smiling
"Yeah, congratz to him, to making my life terrible!" said and laughed
"Ouch?? Really??" he asked smiling
"No babe, I love you" said and BANG!!!! came

"? What happened??" I asked
"I went near the headwaiter and asked them to play No One Loves You and This I Swear!" she whispered
"What?? What you trying to do??" I asked her shocked
"I'm gonna learn her reaction and by this, we'll learn if she still loves you or not" she said
"Oh God! I love you" I said and saw a confused look on her face
"I understood the way you love me , don't wanna talk about it now!!" said and laugh and then TATATA!!! The song started to play
"? Wanna dance darling??" I asked a little loudly!!
"Love to!!" she said and we went to dance, I could see getting upset, jealous. I don't want her to get upset or jealous!! Damn it! I love her much!

You and I once shared love
So strong and so secure
But all you left are memories
The feelings are no more

Like flowers in a big field
All died and blown away
The letters and the pictures
Are all that will remain

But every moment, of every day
I wanna see you, I wanna say

No one loves you, like I love you
No one needs you, the way I do
No one knows you, like I know you
No one hears you, the way I do

So many years of memories
Surpressed beyond recall
The feelings once unbroken
Seem silent and so small

But every moment, of every day
I wanna see you, I wanna say

No one loves you, like I love you
No one needs you, the way I do
No one knows you, like I know you
No one hears you, the way I do

But every moment, of every day
I wanna see you, I wanna say

No one loves you, like I love you
No one needs you, the way I do
No one knows you, like I know you
No one hears you, the way I do

and I danced very close and was always looking at our direction, I knew she really got hurt. But the reason for our love finished was me, not her! Why she getting upset again?? It was my fault and instead of her trying to make me jealous and upset, I'm doing it!! Its not fair!!!! Then all of a sudden the next song started and it was THIS I SWEAR by Nick Lachey! and mine first song that we shared our first kiss and our first dancing together. The day I asked her out was just the best day of my life. I was very happy to have her, I dunno if she felt like it too, I dunno. Anyways, the song started to play�

You're there by my side
In every way
I knew that you will not forsake me
I give you my life
I would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me
I may not say it quite as much as I should
But when I say I love you
Darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you till forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
And this I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Whenever I could, one thing that's true
Is anything I do, I do for you
I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you
Darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you till forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand an

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I couldn't take it anymore!!! Is it coincidence or a joke?? The 3 songs, and mines!! Special songs and we danced with another persons,
"Can we go home??" I asked getting up in the middle of the song
"Why what happened darling?" he asked
"Nothing, I felt sick again" I said
"Ok, you go near the car and I'll come after I pay" he said and got up too
"Ok, I'm going babe" I said and started to walk. The door was behind the small dance floor so, when I came near and , I shot them a look but I don't think anyone saw it and then went out to go to near car.
I waited and waited for to come�

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" , she is alone now, go and talk with her" said when we saw left the restaurant in the middle of the song
"What about her boy friend??" I asked looking at 's boy friend, paying the bill I thought
"He wont come, I swear" said and winked at me
"Ok babe, thanks" I said and ran out from the restaurant to go near

I saw her sitting on a bench, saying something like "Why? Why me??". I felt guilty and sat near her.
"Why why you?" I asked looking at her, head cos she was sitting her head in her hands.
"Wh-what you doing here??" she asked shocked
"I saw you running out from the restaurant" I said looking in to her eyes, oh god! I missed her much!!!
"Were you in restaurant??" she asked like she didn't see me
" don't act, I know you knew I was there" I said
"Yeah I knew you were there, next table" she said
"You heard the songs too, right??" I asked her looking down
"Yeah, why did you dance with her in our song ??" she asked starting to get weary
"First you danced with that bastard so I danced with her" I said
"He is not a bastard!! He is my boy friend, and he is my boyfriend so I danced with him" she said
"So she is my girl friend, I danced with her!!" I got angry
"Right! So why don't we leave it e??" she said getting angry
"I did everything to you to got me back but you took that bastard!!" I yelled
"I TOLD YOU HE IS NOT BASTARD!! YOU'RE BASTARD!" she got up and shouted at me I got up too, looking deeply in her eyes
"AT LEAST HE DOESN'T CHEATS ON ME!!!!" she added shouting and crying, I just looked into her eyes
"I didn't cheat on you, it was a mistake and I was drunk" I said softly, she wouldn't understand cos I whispered
"SAY SOMETHING!!!" she yelled again, I looked at her eyes one more and then I kissed her right on her lips, she tried to got back but I didn't let her, once she kissed me back but then she stopped kissing me, I kissed her. Then I let her go off my hands
"What you trying to do????" she asked confused
"You still love me, don't you??" I asked her with hopeful eyes that she couldn't see
"What you talking about?? I don't love you, I love !!" she said
"Say that all with looking into my eyes" I said, she looked at me for a while
"I DON'T LOVE YOU AND I LOVE " she said and she went away from me with crying
"!! I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!! YOU STILL LOVE ME LIKE I DO!!!!!" I yelled after her but she was gone

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What if I still love him huh? I ran away from him, I didn't know where I was going so I stopped and looked around. It was a beach then I felt headlights behind me. I turned around and it was . He got out from the car and ran near me
"Babe! What happened?? I've been searching you!" he asked worried, hugging me tightly
", I'm happy to you to come" I said and cried on his shoulder
"Will you tell me what happened??" he asked again
"Can we go home? Plz??" I said looking at his deep blue eyes
"Ok darling" he said kissing top of my head and we went near car and got in. drove home�

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"?? What happened?" asked running near me
"She ran away, and told me she loves and not me" I said my head in my hands, crying on the bench.
"Aww !!" said and hugged me
", I still love her much, what am I gonna do now? She hates me!!" I said crying
"We'll look it later hun, so lets go, I'll drive" she said and we got in my car and drove home

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We came to my home and we got in the living room. I sat on the couch, I felt staring at me. I looked at his eyes
" what happed??" he asked coming near me, he sat near me still staring at me
"Nothing" I said looking down
"Like I would believe it" he said
"Really nothing happened" I said
" tell me the truths!!!" he said
"NOTHING!!!!" I yelled and ran to my bedroom, leaving him behind, confused of what's going on with me

MORNING

I woke up and saw I'm lying on my bed alone, Where's ?? I got up form the bed and went to downstairs quickly and saw sleeping on the couch. I felt guilty cos I yelled at him last night and didn't tell anything about what happened last night, I gave him a kiss on his cheek and then the bell rang. I got it and it was Newspaper boy.
"Good Morning Ms. , I heard you're back again so I came" he said, he's around 14 15 ages and he's really cute.
"Thanks Tonny, yea I'm back again, so come every morning to bring my newspaper k?" I asked
"Ok Ms. " he said and gave me the newspaper
"And don't tell me Ms. , just " I said winking
"K Ms. " he said and left. I closed the door and went to the kitchen. I started to prepare tea. While I was preparing, I looked at the newspapers first paper. And saw a new with big letters. I got it on my hands and read it slowly

BLUE'S SINGER AND HIS GIRL FRIEND HAD A BAD ACCIDENT LAST NIGHT WHILE TURNING BACK TO 'S HOME. THEY HAD A BIG CAR CRUSH. WAS DRIVING THE CAR AND THEN A BIG LORRY HIT THEM. THE COUPLE WASN'T DRUNK BUT THE LORRY'S DRIVER WAS VERY DRUNK. THE LOORY'S DRIVER DIED WITHIN SOME MINUTES BUT AND ARE IN A COMA. WE ALL WISH SOMETHING BAD WON'T HAPPEN TO OUR HEART-THROB BOY AND HIS 4 MONTH OLD GIRL FRIEND �

I felt tears coming down my cheeks. Last night after the fight he had an accident and now he's in coma! I have to be with him! I don't want him to leave me behind in this life� I went upstairs and found my mobile phone and searched for 's number. I don't remember his number clearly. was one of my best friends when I was living here 4 months ago. I left here without telling a bye to him, I think he's very angry at me. It had been ages since the last time I called him. I found it and quickly pushed the green button, my hands were shaking�

"Hi, its " said with a pale voice. I tried to say something but I couldn't
"� �it�it's�me�" I said with my shaking voice
"??? Hi babe? How you doing?" he asked trying to sound happy
"I'm not good , what's the hospitals name?" I asked
", you heard it right?" he asked and I started to cry again
"Yea, how's ?" I asked wiping away my tears
" he's really bad, and he has been telling your name in his sleep since the ambulance went near them to get them" he said crying too
" I want to come and be with him, which hospital?" I asked and he told me the address then I hung up the phone.

I got dressed and grabbed my car keys and coat. Then I wrote a note to and we t out quickly. I got in my car and drove off crying. I came to the hospital told me and got in.
"Where's ??" I asked to a nurse
"Erm, who r you searching for Ms.?" She asked like an idiot.
"TELL ME WHERE'S ???" I shouted at her then some one tapped on my shoulder, I turned and saw , he hugged me tightly
"I missed you girl" he said. I felt the cold tears burn on my shoulders. Then we broke the hug
"Where's ?" I asked
"He's in coma and no one can see him" he said
"Where's the girl? Erm� I think" I said
", died 1 hour ago" said looking down
"OMG!" I said and started to cry even more, I thought can die too
"Aww don't cry, nothing will happen to " he said
"Where's the other guys?" I asked while was wiping away my tears
"They r waiting in front of 's door" he said
"Lets go there" I said and we went to the others. When we came near them, I saw everyone crying. I saw Antony punching the walls, and trying to calm Mrs. down and crying. Johnny B trying to wipe his tears. I we went near them and they saw me. First Mrs. got up, co we know each other very well. She stared at me and I looked down
"??" asked shocked, I looked at him
"??" Mrs. asked and then ran near me and hugged me, I hugged her back.
"I'm sorry" I whispered when we broke the hug
"It wasn't your fault , it was 's fault" she said then came and hugged me and I hugged him back
"I missed you mate!!!" I said trying to smile a little but I couldn't, I just cried and cried
"I missed you too babe" he said and then came and we hugged too
"I missed you babe" he said
"I missed you too" I said and then I went near Johnny B and hugged him too.
"Hi Johnny" I said
"Hi beauty, we missed you much u know" he said
"I missed you too" I said and then we all sat
"Cant I see for a while?" I asked then a doctor came, we all stood up and waited for doctor to talk
"As you know we lost , but for the first time, opened his eyes" he said and every body started to smile, hugged me
"And I wanna ask something to you, Does any one knows who's ?" he asked and I looked down, then I looked into doctors eyes
"Its me" I said feeling a little guilty
" I just wanna tell you this, is living just for you, he wants you to be near him so only you can get in and stay there" he said and I nodded
"Thanks doctor" I said and smiled a little
"Come with me and the nurses will get you ready to get in the room" he said and then we went and the nurses got me ready and then I got in 's room. I saw a guy lying there, with lots of bruises and his arm was broken, he had serums around him and lots of needle on his body. God Bless him. Then all of a sudden nurse stopped near that guy, I stared at her
"Why you stopped?" I asked
"I'm sorry�but this is Mr. " she said looking down.
"Ok that's enough, I'm getting angry, tell me where's ??" I asked
"Ms. Here's Mr. " she said and I started to cry
"No he's not !!!!!!!" I said and went near him. I hold his hand tightly and looked at his face and yea it was , My !
"I'm going out Ms. " the nurse said and went out, I looked at again and I couldn't believe my eyes. He can't be ! I hate my self! I let him down and he got accident. I kissed his hand and let my tears fall down on his bed.
", if you're hearing me now, I wanna tell you that I never stopped loving you, I still love you and promise me, you wont ever leave me. Please don't . I love you, I know I told you that I love . I don't love him. I was just trying to find a in him. I was just hoping that I can find a part of you in him but with no luck. I couldn't. He's like you, he looks like you so I supposed that I love him. But I never loved him. I promise you I wont ever go away and leave you behind again. But I was really suffering. The one I really love cheated on me. Anyway. All I wanna hear from you is that you forgive me too, I just don't want you to go away. I cant live without you, you're my reason to live in this life. I waited the day that I can come back to London and see your face again. And I saw you again. Please say something, just don't tell me that you will go away�" I said and then laid my head on his bed and closed my eyes

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I feel that some one is talking near me but I can't understand. My all body hurts, I cant move. I feel like some one's there for me, I want to be with me but I know its just a dream to me to see again. She hates me. Then some how my mouth opened and then I could say something. I tried so hard, every min,
"��.��!!!" at last I shouted and then my eyes opened a little, I was seeing everywhere steamy. Then I saw some one looked at me, I looked at her. She has long hair, then she started to talk
", tell me something more, I love you babe, don't go k?" she said
"??" I asked
"Yea ? I'm here babe, do you want something?" she asked
"!" I said again, all I could say was .
", I'm , I love you babe, I'm here and wont leave you ever" she said, WHAT? IS SHE ????? OMG
" IS THIS YOU??" I asked shock then my eyes could see more, and yea it was !
", OMG! YOU OPENED YOUR EYES!!" said smiling'
"�" I said
"Yea babe?" she asked
"I'm sorry" I said and saw her crying
"Don't be babe, I forgave you, just get well soon" she said wiping away her tears
"� I� was�really�drunk" I said
"I know babe, I know, I trust you and I believe you" she said
"I� didn't� meant� to� hurt�you" I said
" I know babe" she said still crying
"I�love�you" I said and then I couldn't breathe anymore, I closed my eyes then I got up from the bed. I saw crying on my body, then she ran and call a doctor to look, doctors came and looked at me, the nurses let out. I heard the sirens and look at what r they doing. I couldn't look my body anymore so I got out of the room. Then I saw my mum crying, then in 's arms crying too, was punching the walls and was sitting there crying his head in his hands, Then I started to hear the thinks. First I heard 's
"Please , don't do this to me, I love you, I cant live without you, please, I want you to in my life again, please ! I beg you!!!" she was crying then I heard 's thinks
"Mate, don't do that to us, What r we gonna do without you, I swear, I will tell you that I like when you will return near us, mate don't do this to us, we all love you, what will Blue do if you will go away? All the fans will want an angel voice but you'll be gone, please mate, come back!" I got weary, then I heard 's thinks
"Mate, come back, we cant live without you, you're our best mate and we love you, don't do that to us, we need you, come back" then I heard 's
"Mate just come back. I remembered the day we met and then out football match, the one who you won, you were jumping around telling 'haha I won ' mate, don't do that to us, we need you, come back please mate, just come back" I was crying now, then I heard my mums
", my son, you're my everything, where you goin? You can't go this early, mum still needs you, you will marry with the girl I love and I will stand there very proud of you, I don't wanna loose you, I love you son, I love you!" OMG, I can leave life this early but I have to, God wanted it!!! Then I heard Johnny B's thinks
"Son! I remember the day when we were on tour, I was saving you from the fans, then u told me something and we couldn't stop laughing, son please don't go this early, we still have a tour on 2005, and we will have lots of fun there too, just don't go, I swear I wont shot again, please don't leave us" now the time came, I need to go, I went near and then kissed her forehead
"Babe, I will be with you always, don't ever worry, I love you and I'm very sorry about the things I do that hurt you. Please curse me inside for every word thet I said that caused you to cry, curse me inside, I won't for get, no I don't babe, I don't know why, I'm leaving the one I was looking to find, why, why?" I said and kissed her on her lips for the last time then I walked away from there, leaving the ones I love lots, the ones I'll never forget, the ones that always there for me when I need, the one who's the love of my life, the one� Sirens started to ringing and then the doctors got out of the room, the last words I heard was�
"Sorry we lost him�"
" I LOVE YOU! I PROMISE YOU THAT I WON'T EVER STOP LOVING YOU, I PROMISE�" , the one, the love of my life, then I continue to walk to the way�