My life is one big drama which will never end because I have a psycho boyfriend. He always harms me, hits me and treats me really bad. Sometimes I think I'm enough of this and decided I'm going to leave him but afterwards he always tell me that he didn't know what he did. I used to believe him cos in other way I'm feeling sorry for him, no one knows about his illness so until now I still with him. Actually I'm not love him but I'm care about him�

One afternoon I was cooking in my own apartment when I heard my boyfriend opened the door, he has a spare key. He came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist
"Hi babe how are you???" I asked trying to get him off me while he kissed my neck
"I'm fine, and now I'm gonna make you fine if�" Suddenly he grabbed my hair
"Ouch!!! stop it, it's hurt!!!" I screamed, he didn't listen what I said and picked a rope from his pocket and tied up my hand
"And now I'll send you to heaven baby!" He said as he pinched my face
"You're even again , leave me alone!!!" I screamed so loud but with no luck, I was looking around but no one was there
"SHUT UP you bitch!!!" He slapped my face, now tears running down my faceI glanced over to the door and saw the front door slightly opened
"Good he forgot to lock the door" I thought to myself
came closer with a knife on his hand, I was scared to death. He came even closer and as he was above me I kicked him and ran as fast as I could to the door. I slammed the door with my foot, luckily the door is automatically lock by itself when we slammed the door. I ran away still with my hands tied up tightly with rope in the back, I looked over behind me and saw already opened the door and got to his car to caught me up. I'm looking around the road wishing someone will help me until I saw a car appeared and coming over me, a big black van coming over me. Without a doubt I stood up in the middle of the road and stopped the car, the car stopped right in front of me
"Help me please?!?" I cried out, someone opened the car door and let me in. I glanced to the window and saw 's car
"DROVE OFF NOW!!!" I screamed and the driver pushed the pedal and drove away, I took a deep breathe as I noticed 's car didn't follow us
Everyone in there still in their speechless, none of us talking for a moment. I could see they probably think 'what's wrong with her'
"Ehm can you help me with this please???" I asked the guy who sat next to me, he nodded and loosed the rope away
"Thank you so much" I cried out and hid my face with my arms
"What happened with you?" The driver asked me, somehow I tell them the whole story of me and , how mad is he and everything they need to know about me and
"OMG he's crazy and totally prick, how come he treated this beauty lady so bad!!!" A guy who sat next to me suddenly hugged me and nothing I can do than hugged him back, somehow I felt so safe in his arms. I never felt so safe before this; he could make me feeling I'll be fine if I stay with him
"So what's your name then?!?" A guy who sat next to the driver turned over to me
"My name is . , what about you guys???" I smiled
"Well my name is , these a lot are my best mates. Here's , that one and a guy who sat next to you is " He pointed the guy one by one
"Wait, wait a minute. Your names sound familiar�" I tried to think
"Hehehe really?!?" The driver asked
"Yeah how could I forget!?! Tell me guys???" I begged with my puppy eyes
"Alright we are Blue, have you heard that name before??" asked me
"Yes of course I heard that name before and wow I saved by Blue, what an amazing situation" I giggled, on the way I used to know them more.
They were funny and very kind person especially who never get his hands off from my shoulder
We arrived 2 hours later; I do not know where I am
"Thanks for the ride, now I'm saved. I can go somewhere to find a hotel for the night," I said as I got out from the car
"NO! I won't let you go. You can stay at us for the night and tomorrow morning we will take you home" said and held my hands not wanting me to let go
"But�" I paused and looked at them
" right , you better stay with us for the night" reassured me
"No, it's nothing like that. I mean I'm not gonna back to my old apartment, will find me in no time�" I explained as I looked on the ground
"Stay with me for a couple of days until you find your new apartment, beside that I live with my own in my big apartment so it'll be cool if you stay there" exclaimed and the other guys nodded
"Absolutely you can stay in 's apartment, tomorrow we'll creep at your old apartment, grab your stuff and take you to 's apartment. won't ever find you after all," added
"Thanks so much guys, I dunno how to say thanks�" I replied
"You are welcome sweetie," said

We walked to this huge building with four gorgeous guys surrounding me
"Where are we going now?" I asked the first time we stepped into the elevator
"We'll meet Johnny B first then we can go somewhere to eat or if you want you and can go to 's apartment afterwards" winked at and knocked him on his elbow
"If you don't mind , I prefer to go to your apartment cos I guess I need some rest�" I said shyly
"Sure hunnie�"
We entered the room and found Johnny B sitting on one of the chairs in that room
"Hi guys!!!" Johnny B greeted
"Hi Johnny, what's up you calling us to come here?" asked as he sat next to him, I sat next to
"Wait a minute, who's this young lady???"
"Oh she's our best mate, right guys???" answered immediately and looked at the guys
"Correct" added
"By the way, I just want to tell you that next week you guys will perform on the Brit Awards party BUT�" Johnny B paused
"But what???" asked with a weird face
"But you guys must bring a date, if you know what I mean"
"Fine with me�" smiled
"Me too!" replied
"Alright so you guys agreed with that, nice cos after the Brits Awards you guys will have a week off"
"Whohoho!!!" Everyone on that room started jumping up and down excitedly
I smiled at them when I saw them jumping up and down
"So can we leave now?" asked after a while
"Sure you can " Johnny B answered
"Right thanks Johnny, guys I'm and leaving right now! See you tomorrow for our plan" winked and grabbed my hand; we walked away from the door to the elevator. It was a silence in the elevator
"So�I can't just stay in your apartment without doing anything, I'll pay you someday but for now I must find a job first�" I said breaking the silence
"NO! I mean yeah you can do something for me cos anyway I don't want you to pay me"
"How?"
"Can you do laundry?" He asked and I nodded
"Can you cook???" I nodded again
"Ok so that means you can do my laundry and cook for me, are you agree with that?"
"Yes and once again thanks " I came over to him and hugged him, at that moment the elevator door opened and we got out from there
"Let's take a cab!" He held my hand and stopped a cab; we got in to the cab and drove to 's house. I dunno where about he lives but the journey isn't that far only took about half hour from Johnny B office
After paid the cab, we walked to his apartment
"Hold on, I'm searching for the key�" He said as he put his hand on his pocket
"Here it is" He added and smiled, he opened the door and let me got in first
"Nice apartment and huge�" I exclaimed as I looked into this huge apartment with at least 3 bedrooms and 5 other rooms
"Yeah that's why I need someone to live in here while I was away with the band"
"Why won't you take your mom to stay here?"
"No she didn't want to"
"Oh�"
"So c'mon follow me I will show you your room" He smiled and walked to the other room beside the first bedroom
"Here's your room," He said as he opened the door, I saw a bed complete with everything and bathroom across the room
"Thank you" All I could do is mouthed the word, I can't speak at all
"Well yeah welcome, so are you hungry?!?"
"A bit"
"I'll call Chinese then�" He was about to picked up his mobile but I stopped him
"No, I guess I should cook for you"
"But now you're tired"
"That's ok, I can cook something for you just show me where's the kitchen and what you've got on your refrigerator"
"I hardly have nothing in my fridge" He smiled and showed me the kitchen, it was a big and clean kitchen
"Ok open it so I can see what you've got"
"Alright�see!" He opened the fridge and showed me a pack of noodles, garlic, a bottle of sauce and grill meat
"What do you think you'll make for tonight???"
"How about pasta?!? You like it???"
"I'd love it, need some help?"
"Yes you can help me with this, open it for me please???" I gave him the bottle of sauce, I started cooking the pasta. I made the sauces while boiled the noodles
An hour later we finished with the cook stuff and ready to eat our dinner
"Yeah it looks delicious" screamed as I gave him a plate of pasta
"Beats me!" I winked, we started eat our pasta and of course it tasted good

After eat we went to the living room and watched TV, I get along so well with him and I found that he's a very funny guy
"So , how long have you and been together??? Didn't you feel he's only such a pain for you???"
"Ehm we've been together for almost 2 years and you are right he's only a pain for me, by the way enough of talking about he's sick!!!"
"What do you want to talk about then?"
"About you�"
"Me?!? I bet you know everything about me"
"No, I don't know your personal life"
"Hehehe tell me then what do you want to know from me"
"Your girlfriend???"
"Fuih! I don't have girlfriend babe" He looked sweet with his innocent face
"What? How?"
"I need someone who respect for what I am, not for the Blue stuff or I'm a celebrity. But the girls I met lately just cared about money and popularity" He looked sad
"Come here let me comfort you" I opened my arms; he came closer and hugged me tight. He laid his head on my shoulder while I rocked his hair
"Don't you feel alone" I asked
"Yes, I need someone in my life but no body seems care about that" He closed his eyes
"It's ok�" We stayed like that for over half hour, slowly slept in my shoulder still with his arms around me holding my waist tightly
"It's time to go sleep, let me take you to the bedroom" I whispered through his ear, he opened his eyes
"I don't want go to sleep"
"But you already did"
"Yeah I mean without you�" He mumbled, I guessed he's in dream or something. I got up and held him in my arms and walked to his room, I laid him on the bed and covered him with blanket. I kissed his forehead and was about ready to go when someone grabbed my hand
"Didn't you hear me if I don't want go to sleep without you�"
"Ok, I'm staying here until you sleep. Now close your eyes" I sat next to him
"You didn't get it�" He said but with his eyes firmly closed, I shook my head and smiled. Slowly I crept out from the room and went to my roomI laid my head upon my pillow in my room, it's hard to sleep for me like something stuck in my mind but I cant figure out what it is
" you sleep yet?!?" I opened my eyes and found standing in the door
"No, why???"
"I can't sleep, can I sleep with you I promise I wont do anything to you" Before I could say something he already jumped to the bed and laid his body next to me. His fluffy hair felt so soft when I let my hand run through it. He rolled closer to me and held me tight. His head was on my chest and I softly ran both of my hands through his hair, he didn't seem to mind. He only held me closer and tighter
"Why are you like this ???"
"Dunno, you made me feel like this" He closed his eyes again while put his arms around me
"You're dreaming, I don't even do anything to you" I closed my eyes

*****THE FOLLOWING DAY*****
I woke up and saw a figure sleeping beside me, I glanced to the watch and realized it's already 9am, I got off from the bed
"Where you going?" A voice behind me almost made my heart jumped out
"I'm going to take a bath but I guess I can't, I don't even have clothes"
"Oh wait here, I think I have a clothes for you" He got out from the bed and went to his bedroom, he came back with clothes in his hand
"Here you can use this�" He handed me a beautiful funky clothes, and of course it's for woman
"How did you get this all stuff?"
"Sort of my ex-girlfriend's but she didn't want it cos she said they're too cheap for her"
"She's crazy how can she think love is cost a thing??? Anyway thank you" I said and walked to the bedroom, I opened the tap water and let the hot water running down my body. I loved the bath very much and when I got out from the bath only wear a towel, I saw still sitting in the bed of my room
"Why are you still here?!?"
"I'm waiting for you" That was his answered
"Can you please go out while I'm changing this clothes" I asked politely, he looked over to me and walked closer. I held the towel tightly
"Why?!? Can I stay here???"
"You're joking �" I bit my lips
"Ok if that's a case I'm going to take a bath here then" He walked off to the bathroom, I quickly changed my clothes and went downstairs
My hands shaking dunno why and I felt something I never experience before

I tried to calm myself down when I heard walking downstairs
"Ready to go to your apartment and grab your stuff?" I was thinking with what happened with me and and it made me want to leave him for forever but when I'm thinking about staying with , I have a little bit doubt with that cos a bit strange than I thought
"You scared living with me huh???" asked as he saw the frightened in my face
"I�I just�" I dunno how to explain to him, he came closer and smiled
"Don't worry it just for me you made all the feelings that I never had came back again"
"Ok" We jumped to his blue BMW and drove to my apartment, when we got there the apartment looked mess up. I bet came here earlier. Quickly I packed my stuff in two big suitcases and leave the apartment immediately
We arrived back to 's apartment and I put my suitcases in my room, I went back to the living room and found watching TV
"Hey, need some company" I said as I sat next to him
"Hi�"
"So tell me who's you're gonna bring on the Brits Awards?!?"
"You mean my date?!?" I nodded slightly
"Dunno don't think about it yet" He added desperate
"Why, the Brits Awards is next week baby"
"I haven't found the girl yet"
"Aww!"
"Aww what?!? Can you do me a favor?!?" Suddenly got serious
"Yes what?!?"
"Are you up for such a crazy things?!?"
"I guess"
"Well now you don't have a job yet, I'll give you a job with a high salary"
I'm thinking about what he said and it took me a while
"Hey earth calling to !!" waved his hand in front of my eyes
"Yeah, cool so how much you'll pay me for the crazy things and what kind of job then???" Honestly, I love challenge and it sounds like a challenge for me although I don't know yet what must I do with these such a crazy things
"Pretend you are my girlfriend for a week" I stared at him and I'm out of breathe suddenly
"Can you repeat what you just said" I asked
"Please pretend to be my girlfriend for the week until the Brit Awards finish, and you'll get whatever you what"
"How much you will pay me for that job?"
"It's up to you, you want a new house, a new car, travel around the world, money or whatever just say to me" I looked at his eyes closely and he sounded serious, there's no way he's making fun of this
"Just pretend right?"
"No and you must do like girlfriend should do to her boyfriend" I raised my eyebrow
"Like what, gimme some example"
"Y'know what I mean �are you up for it?!?" I took a deep breathe and released it slowly
"Promise me you'll pay high for that" I opened my hand, if he didn't shake it that mean he only joking. He reached it and shook it
"I promise!"
"So now I must pretend like I'm your girlfriend???" I sat closer to him
"Yes, I wanna see how work it?!?" I closed my eyes and moved my head closer to him; I pushed my lips towards his and kissed him softly. I didn't think he will kiss me back but he did. I felt like I'm a bitch doing this things but anyway I'm free from and that's because of , I think I must do something for him to say thanks. It was a good kiss and loads of passion, it didn't look like I only pretend to kiss him but honestly I enjoyed the kiss. It was one of the best kiss I've ever had, the kiss stopped and opened his eyes. Slowly a grin appeared on his face
"Are you satisfied with that?" I asked him and put his arms around my waist
"Definitely, you are a good actress and for sure a good kisser too" He smiled and bow over again to kiss me

*****THE NEXT DAY*****
That night we slept in 's room but we didn't do anything, he just held me all night in his arms and pulled me closer to him. He just wanted to safe me and I still didn't believe if he'll pay everything for me!?! Sounds a little bit weird
"Hi babe, you already awake???" He got up and rubbed his eyes
"Yes, do you want breakfast???" I asked and got off the bed
"No, we can eat somewhere today beside that today we'll go shopping for your dress"
"For my dress?!?"
"You need something sexy for the Brit Awards right?" He winked at me
"Yes and I need a fancy salon too for the make-up" I teased him
"Sure you'll get everything you want babe!" He pulled me to the bed again and kissed me
That day we went around the fancy shops in London, I told I just need one dress for the Brits Awards but he bought me 3 beautiful dresses and they cost a lot money. also bought me some casual clothes, everyone in the shops looked at me with their mouth fall down on the floor. We walked back to 's car and when we walked to 's car, grabbed me closer and kissed me in public and I didn't care with that but somehow I felt like someone took our pictures�

We went to the restaurant afterwards and had a dinner together, the meal was good and after that, we went home. The minute we got into 's apartment and just dropped all our shopping bags on the floor, 's cell phone went ringing
"Hold on babe!" He walked away from me and picked up the phone
"Hi what's up! Ow really??? I'll check it out then, thanks for calling bye!" He hung up the phone and walked over to me
"Something wrong???" I asked curiously, but he looked very happy
"No, let's go web surfing cos said we'll find good information in some website�" dragged me in front of the computer and he clicked some website, slowly the pics appeared on the monitor and my eyes just went wide the first time I saw the pics and read the story
"Cool huh?!?" said and grabbed me to sit on his lap
"How?!? We only went shopping a minute ago and they already had our pics???" I asked in disbelieve
"Yeah some paparazzi are crazy!"
"Let me read this line" I said and looked into the monitor closer
"'s new girlfriend showed up in public and they shocked all the people, cos this lovely boy from Blue doesn't care locked his lips to his girlfriend in public�" I read carefully
"See? So now you know how hard working in the show business!" I nodded

A couple of days later we sat on the living room, cuddling, loving and having fun each other. I more feel like I'm his real girlfriend and not only pretend to be his girlfriend�We were watching some movies we already rented before and I put my head upon 's shoulder and not noticing slowly I went sleep, picked me up and carried me to his bedroom, he laid me on the bed and undressing me slowly without letting me awake. I felt something different and saw smiling
"Hi�"
"What are you doing?!?" I asked when I saw my dress fall off; I grabbed the blanket and covered it around my body
"No, I just want you to bring all my feelings about loving a girl back. I never do this for such a long time and�" He looked down; I felt sorry for him and didn't want to reject him right now
"Come here you can do whatever you want" I said and threw away the blanket; he smiled and came on top of me� That night we had sex just pure sex and not making love, but I just felt sorry for him although there's another feeling in my heart for him but I can't describe it yet, feeling like I want to be with him and I want to be his real girlfriend but I dunno it's hard to tell!
The next morning I woke up and found sleeping annoyingly in my stomach, I pushed him off and he slowly awake
"Hello babe" He got up and kissed me, every time he kisses me I wanted more
", I wanna say thanks for last night. But just for one second I wanted that feeling back again, how it is to be in love with someone. Make love to someone. You know? And you gave me that feeling last night and I'm thankful for it.You made me feel those love feeling in heart back, feeling that I never want to touch again before but you bring all that feeling back�" He held my hand tightly, that time I'm sure I'm real FALLING FOR HIM!
"Yeah�" Now I'm the one who dunno how to tell him that I love him, after a few days together it made me realize that I love him. I know much about him and we became real close. Yes I love him!

*****THE BRIT AWARDS*****
This is the last day of my job to pretend to be 's girlfriend, and tomorrow I'll be back to a single girl with a heart broken feeling.
came up behind me and kissed my neck
"This is the last day�" He whispered
"Yeah, we better get ready other wise you'll miss the read carpet" I said
"Ok, I'm changing my clothes and you better get ready yourself" he added and walked to his room, I picked up one of the dresses that lying on the bed. I decided to wear the black one, it was a helter neck silk gown and very beautiful. I put on the gown, put on the make up and wore my stiletto
"You ready honey" screamed from the other room
"One sec!" I took a look in the mirror one more time and convinced myself, I walked downstairs and found dressing with a black suit and he looked so damn good!
"WOW!!! You never told me you'll be a princess tonight" exclaimed the minute he saw me walking down the stairs
"You never told me either you'll look so damn good in that clothes" I held his hand and we walked to the car. All the way to the place were held Brits Awards party my hands couldn't stop shaking, noticed it and took my hands
"That's ok, you are not the only one who shaking. Actually I'm shaking too but fortunately I'm driving so you can't see how my hands shaking so badly" He smiled; his smile helped me calm myself down. An hour later we arrived at this huge and sparkle place, loads of people screaming, loads of camera lightning and loads of celebrities coming
"Oke here's the time" held my hand as we walked to the red carpet, I forced myself to smile and let the photographer took the pics of us. I made some good poses with , and finally we met with the other Blue boys which brought their own dates. They stopped a while and made some interview
"So guys tell us who are your date tonight?!?" The journalist asked them, pulled me closer to him
"I bring , my best mate" exclaimed
"I bring my girl " added
"And I bring my best mate too " replied
"And you ?!? Wow we already knew you two are a couple, no need more explained huh???" The journalist winked at and me
"Yeah she's my wonderful treasure, my beautiful girlfriend " said and the other Blue boys looked at him amazed
That night was amazing night; Blue won two awards for the Best Album and Best Band in UK. The party were also incredible but now it's time to go home and it's time to stopped pretend to be his girlfriend

We walked to the living room and fall our selves down at the couch
"So�" I said not wanting to say the things I must to say
"Yeah it's time to stop, thank you so much for making me the happiest man in the world although only for a week" At that point I want to tell him that I want to be with him forever but my mouth can't speak and my knees are weak
"Tell me , how much I must pay you for this???" He looked at me deeply than he ever did, not a word I could say that time
"I�only�" I paused and turned around
"Say you worth to have what you want" He added
"I�only�want�you" I said almost whispered and let the tears rolling down my cheek, he didn't say a word for a minute so I guess he didn't want to be with me. I walked slowly to my room and packed my stuff, I'm ready to leave when I felt two arms around my waits that made me dropped all my bags on the floor
"You think I didn't hear you a minute ago�" He said lovingly through my ear
"I heard you and it took me a while to make sure I'm not dreaming" He turned my body around and forced me to face him
"I know I'm crazy to ask you something that impossible you to give me but�" I replied
"Shhh don't talk, let me finish my word first" He put his hand on my lips
"I love you since the first time I saw you, I never felt like this for such a long time and I offered you those crazy job because I always want to be with you, spending my days with you. you are my hero for bring the love feelings that almost die in my heart, you made me believe we're living for someone and I'm glad cos I found you, the only one girl who respect me for what I am" He paused. "I know since I offered you the job you won't ask me for a thing, I believe you felt a love in your heart. I love you !" He finished his words and wiped away my tears
"I love you too but you wrong I'm not your hero, you are my hero!"
"Yeah we are hero for both of us then�" He smiled and kissed me, this time I don't have to pretend to be his girlfriend cos now I'm his girlfriend for sure
"So, let's unpack again then. Would you help me with that" I glanced at the suitcases next to me
"No!!!" He screamed and grabbed me to the bed, we let ourselves as close as we could and this time we didn't have sex but it was made love�