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Part One

It was a cold, damp, dark december night and molly was on her way to the school disco on her own. Oh i cant do this, hi by the way i'm i am ment to be writing a horror story cos thats what i do in my spare time but i have written so many i've ran out of ideas. Ah well might aswell write about somthing thats just plain and simple. My life. So here goes...

I still love no matter what anyone says, hes my soulmate. We split up 2 years and 3 months ago i'm now 19 and is nearly 23 years old. It all started when i was 17 and 20. I met him at a signing in my homecity of manchester hes in a band called blue and i was a massive fan. luckily when they where on tour i was in the same hotel as them and we hit it off streight away. We started seeing each other more and more often and we where so much in love but 9 months into the relationship i found out i was 3 months pregnant with 's child. I told him i wasnt happy in the relationship but the truth was i didnt want him knowing he was gonna be a father not while blue where at the height of their fame. So i broke up with and here iam now at 19 years old with a 12month old baby and the father dosnt even know about his daughter. I just knew if i told him his world would come crashing down on him and i dont believe in abortions so i literally ran away from in order to save his singing career. Hes contacted me a few times since the split asking what he was doing so wrong that made me call it off. But i couldnt face telling him the truth not now not after over a year that was until one particular day.

I opened my eyes to the sound of my little sweetheart crying. I picked her up out of her cot and wiped the tears away from her soft, plump, red cheeks. She was beautiful and i loved her dearly
"now, now darling whats the matter with my little angel eh?" i asked smiling at her. She tilted her head up to look at me and flashed me a smile. Everyday i could see in her pretty greeny blue eyes. If only he knew the real reason why i left him and broke the relationship off but he had no clue. And thats what i now regret. After 12 months of struggling of bringing her up i decided enough was enough i couldnt let her grow up without her knowing who her dad is. Wethere wanted to have anything to do with her was another thing but it was a risk i was willing to take for the sake of our daughters up bringing.
"i just cant believe you didnt tell me!" shouted to me down the phone
"i'm sorry i didnt, but i just knew what your reaction would have been like" i replied
"HOW? you knew me what, 11 months? and oh my god , sorry just aint good enough for god sake, i cant believe you kept somthing like this quiet for over a year thats just selfish, you selfish woman!!" carried on screaming down the phone to me. I burst out into tears
"i'm sorry, really iam i just thought it was the right thing to do" i cried
"RIGHT THING TO DO? What the f**k ! right thing keeping the pregnancy to yourself, i dont think so you ovbiously dont know me if u thought i would be pleased about this!! are you sure she's even mine?" yelled
"WHAT? oh my god i cant believe you just said that, thats bang out of order and you know it!" i replied angrily
"yeh is it? well now you know how i feel about the whole situation" replied then hung up the phone.
"ARRRRHHHHHH T**T!!!" i slammed the phone down onto the floor then collapsed onto the sofa and broke my heart. Well you cant say i didnt try and i think had made it pretty clear that he didn't want anything to do with his baby daughter.

I jumped as the phone rang. I got up and squinted at the clock it read 12:47am i was suprised the phone still worked with the way i slammed it to the floor earlier. I peeled myself up from the sofa and picked it up off the foor to answer it
"hello" i said
"hiya is that ?" i heard a voice ask
i frowned "yeh who's that?" i wondered
"its , 's mate" he replied
"oh god i dont want anymore arguments or lectures i feel bad enough" i began to cry
"hey dont cry i aint gonna shout or anything i just wanna know what happend and why" he said. He sounded sweet. I was just about to talk when the baby began to cry.
I let out a big puff of air and said "oh look the baby is crying can i call you back in about 10 minutes?"
"yeh sure you want the number?" asked. I took down his number and went to see to the baby.15minutes or so later i gave a call back. We chatted for about an hour and i told him everything from how i felt about to why i kept the baby a secret. I trusted him until...
", i got somthing to tell you" said to me.
I wiped away the tears from my eyes and replied "what?"
"well the truth is is here with me and i put you on loud speaker so he heard everything" said.