I MISS YOU
After long hours of staying inside my office, finally I arrived home. I'm now really tired and so I got off to bed earlier than my usual bedtime. When I was on my way upstairs to my room, my nanny tried to catch me by shouting, The following morning, I wasn't feeling very well so I decided not to go to work today. First thing I did was to call my boss and tell him I couldn't come to work and that I'm feeling sick and so I did. He completely understands it and told me to get well soon. Then I lied myself again on the bed. When I turned my body to the other side of the bed, I saw the letter nanny handed me yesterday. I was curious who was it from and so to my curiosity, I immediately got off from the bed and got the letter.
I noticed the letter came from . I asked myself why he would write me a letter instead of calling me. I mean he's just two blocks away from me. Out-of-curiosity, I opened the envelope and read the letter. It said:
To my Dearest ,
You must be wondering why I wrote you a letter. I don't know how to say this to you personally but to tell you frankly you are the only woman inside my heart. I think of nothing but you. I know this is kind of a shocked to you but I don't know how to keep it from you. I mean, sooner or later you will find it out. I decided to write to you because I think you deserve to know what my true feelings for you are. I know you already got a man and I respect that. is a nice man and I'm sure he will take care of you and he will make you happy. I respect my best friend and I respect you. Both of you are very precious to me. But if things don't work out between you two, just remember that I'm always here for you through thick and thin. I wish you all the best in the world.
Yours Always,
Oh my God! I cannot believe has feelings for me. I thought he only liked me as a friend and nothing more than that. I could think of anything else but that revelation of the whole day. Now I miss . I wish he's here beside me and taking care of me but he's out of the country because of his work. I'm on my bed the whole day. That night when I was eating dinner, someone knocked on my door. I opened it and was surprised to see , 's mom on my doorstep. I can see she was crying and there were sadness in her eyes.
I cannot sleep that night. It can't be right. I can feel inside me that is still alive. He can't be dead. Tears began to form in my eyes. Then all of a sudden, I heard my phone rang. I just looked at the phone but I did not answer it. I turned my head facing the pillow and sobbed. After a few seconds, I heard someone knocked on my door. I lifted my head and looked at the door saying, "Who is it?"
She closed the door and I sobbed again.
On the other hand, nanny was talking to on the phone.
On the other hand, I was still sobbing in my room. Then I saw a photo frame of and me beside my bed. I stood up and got the picture from where it was standing. Then I sat on the floor and caressed the picture using my hand. Then I began to cry again. I hugged the picture saying, "I miss you ! I love you so much! You promise we will always be together but you leave me here all alone. I will never love again. My heart died with you!" I then looked at the picture of us together. Then I smashed the frame in front of me. Then I got the piece of broken glass and slashed both of my wrists. I was in pain but I did not mind it. I closed my eyes and waited for me to die.
Then I heard someone running up the stairs and nanny shouting my name panicking. She immediately ran towards me and was trying to stop my wrists from bleeding badly. She was crying out loud for help saying, ", help! why did you do this? Help! Someone!" I heard his panicked voice. I am still conscious but my eyes were slightly opened looking at nanny's panicked face. Then I heard someone rang my doorbell downstairs and also nanny shouting for help.
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I hugged her so tightly while she cried on my chest.
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To be continued....
"!" I stopped from climbing the stairs and turned my body on the opposite direction and faced my nanny.
"I'm tired. What do you want?" asked her abruptly but not my intention to do so.
"You've got mail!" she said and handed me a letter.
"Thanks!" I said and turned my back again and climbed the stairs with speed. I put the letter on the side table and dropped my body on the bed without changing my clothes and fallen into a deep sleep.
"Are you okay, ?" I asked worriedly and then rubbed her back as a sign that I care.
"I've got a bad news!" she said and then burst into a cry.
"What is it, ?"
"'s dead!"
There was a blank expression on my face. I cannot believe what I was hearing. It can't be true. I don't know how to react upon hearing those words from .
"No, it can't be true!" I said in disbelief.
"Duncan called me up this morning and told me he wanted to surprise you so he decided to come home. I just got the news when I turned in the television. It had been confirmed about his flight, it crashed near the waters; there weren't any survivors found. I'm sorry!" she began to cry again.
I cried out loud saying, "No!" hugged me and we both cried into each other's shoulder.
", you got a phone call." I heard nanny on the other side of the door.
"Come in!"
", why are you crying?"
"Nothing nanny, who's on the line?"
"It's . He wants to talk to you!"
"Tell him I'm not home yet!"
"Why don't you want to talk to him?"
"I don't feel like talking to him right now!"
"I understand. Okay I'll tell him. Are you sure you're okay? I'm just here if you need someone to talk to!"
"Thanks nanny!"
"Good night!"
"I'm sorry but isn't home yet!"
"Nanny, I know you are lying. I know she's there! Can I talk to her? It's really important!"
"Can you tell me what's happening?"
"'s dead. His plane crashed yesterday afternoon."
"Oh my! I'm sorry but you can't talk to her right now! Good night !"
"Thank you!"
Nanny put the phone down. Then she climbed up the stairs. She was about to knock on my bedroom door but then she decided not to disturb me. She went downstairs and slept at the living room just to make sure I was going to be fine.
I am ringing the doorbell when I heard someone shouting for help. My first instinct was to open the door and immediately ran upstairs to where I heard nanny screaming. I ran upstairs and went to 's room. There I saw the bloody lying on the floor almost lifeless. I also panicked saying, "I'm taking to the hospital. Help me!" Nanny and me lifted her up.
I saw beside me and also was panicking. Then all of a sudden my eyes shut and everything turned black. I became unconscious. The last person I saw was lifting me up in his arms. He and nanny carried me to his car and he laid me at the back seat. Nanny laid my head in her lap while drove me to the nearby hospital.
I woke up with a tremendous headache. Then I sat down on the bed not knowing where I am, so I glanced around the room and noticed I was in a hospital. Then someone opened the door and I saw enter with a bouquet of roses and a basket of fruits in his hands.
"Good morning!" He greeted me while putting the roses and basket of fruits on the table.
"Why ?"
"What?" he asked curiously.
"Why did you bring me here?"
"Because you needed medication. You tried to kill yourself last night!"
"Why did you help me?" he asked rudely.
"Because you needed to!"
"Why did you not let me die?" I hysterically said to him.
He sat beside me.
"shhhhh�.." he then hugged me.
"Why did you not let me die?" I repeatedly said to him while pounding his chest hardly but he never let go from his hug.
"Shhhh�. It's alright!" he said.
I cried out loud.
I feel so much pain upon seeing being so hysterical and trying to hurt herself. I never saw her act like this my whole life. She really loves so much that she wanted to kill herself. I never wanted to see her hurt. I wish I could take that pain away from her. I wish I could.
She loosed from my hug and then I helped her wiped her tears away.
"Leave me alone , I need sometime alone."
"Okay I'll leave you but promise me you'll never do anything stupid, alright?"
She nodded.
"Okay. I'll be back later!"
I went near the door.
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I heard and glanced back at her.
"Thank you!" she smiled.
It was the first time I saw smiled after those crying. I smiled back and said, "Your welcome!" and left the room.
left me alone in the room and I was still smiling. Then I lay on my bed and my memories with flashed back. Again, tears dropped from my eyes. I miss him so much. I wish he was here beside me, taking care of me. I missed his hug, his kiss, and everything about him. I still couldn't accept he's gone in my life forever.