"That was amazing" my heart raced and I was sweating the bucket loads as I rolled off the top of , my breathing continued to be heavy. Me and had gone to the beautiful island of for a weeks break. Our relationship was on and off more times than a tap so described it to all the blue fans. It was difficult to stay together due to 's work commitments. I come from and me and met while he was on tour and we hit it off straight away. He's my soul mate. We where both happy with an on and off relationship, until 1 particular day which was to change our lives forever.

I dropped my shopping bags to the floor and threw myself onto the sofa. I wasn't feeling my best today I just seemed to shrug off the illness. Maybe I was missing . It had been a week since we came back from and went straight off to work. The phone rang.
"For god sake" I growled as I peeled myself up from the sofa "hello" is said in a pissed off mood
"hiya darling its me you ok?" it was
"yeh great thanks" I cheered up
"listen, I have a couple of days free next week fancy coming staying at my flat and then we can do wotever" flirted
"ooo really, wonder wot that could be" I blushed
"yeh I'll be there" I followed on
"wicked ok I'll pick you up on Monday at around tea time right?" asked
"yeh sure see you then bye" I smiled and with that I put the phone down.

That week shot past.You all set?" asked me as he put his hands on my waist and pulled me in for a kiss
"yup" I smiled
"good lets get going then" let go, and we both got in the car and sped off into the winter sunset.

Half way to southeast London pulled up the car in the middle of nowhere
"what we doing?" I asked while I watched him pull up the handbrake
"guess" winked. I looked up at then at the back seat
"am I now thinking what you are?" I laughed
"yup well I hope so" smiled as I climbed over into the back seat.
followed and lay on top of me "ooo baby" I smirked.
"Oh my god it's changed so much since I last came" I said surprisingly as I walked into 's flat
"yeh you it then?" asked grabbing my bags
"yeh its great" I told him
"you wanna check out the bedroom" winked
"you aint half sex mad Mr. " I said kissing him.

dropped the bags and pulled away from the kiss and said "nah its just you that makes it addictive babe" he smiled.
"How about we go out for dinner tonight" followed on
"aww I would love that" I smiled with my arms still tightly wrapped around him
"ok darlin you wanna go get changed and I'll make u one of my special cocktails" he smirked
"alright hun" I gave 1 last kiss and then went off to get ready for dinner.
"Clare u ready?" shouted as he made his way towards the bedroom "whoa you look stunning" he said as he walked in
"smooth talker, I must admit u scrub up pretty well to" I laughed
"yeh but I don't look good enough to be with you" replied
"oi don't say that you're my soul mate I love u more than anything: I said wrapping my arms around him yet again
"if we wasn't going out I would literally rip that dress off you and throw you on the bed" laughed
"don't worry babe there's always later when we get home" I flirted.
We had one final kiss then went out, got into the car and headed for the restraunt where had booked us a table.
"Thank you" I smiled as opened the door to the restraunt for me
"Table for 2 please we booked one earlier" told the waiter
"what name is it please?" the waiter asked
"its " he told him
"follow me sir" the waiter smiled.

Me and followed until we reached a table to two which was situated in the far corner of the restraunt. We thanked the waiter, sat down and looked at the menu. The menus might as well have been in French because I couldn't understand half the stuff that was on it. I didn't wanna say anything to but when I looked up he looked even more confused than I did. First we ordered drinks had a bottle of Budweiser and I settled for a . For a main course of course had to have the , which was on the list of, specialties and I went with a French specialty. The meal was wonderful and me and split the bill, however wasn't too happy because he said it was his treat bit I didn't think it was fair no matter how much he ear!ned. After we paid the bill we got into the car and went straight back to 's flat.

At 's flat we both snuggled up together on the sofa with alcoholic beverages
"" asked
"mmm" I hummed
"can I ask u a question?" asked again
"mmm" I hummed again
"would you move in with me?" said.
I sat up and looked at then said "oh my god, yeh course I will, you sure?" I said excitedly
"course i am sure I wouldn't have asked otherwise" he said sounding chuffed
"oh " I grabbed him and hugged him.
then took my hand "come on I wanna give you a flat warming present" he laughed.
He pulled me into the bedroom, kicked the door shut and then filled the night with love and passion

The next morning I woke up in 's arms but felt like shit again within minutes I darted up, ran into the bathroom and slammed the door shut. I strolled out of the bathroom with my hand on my forehead and back into the bedroom.
"You alright ?" asked sounding worried
"yeh I'll b fine must be a bug going round" I croaked
"maybe you should see my doctor" suggested
"alright yeh" I agreed.

Later that day drove me to the doctors luckily he had time to fit me in. the doctor took some blood tests and I had to go back the next day to find out what sort of bug it was and what medication I would need to take. looked after me really well although I seemed fine in the evening. He insisted I stayed in bed and got some rest. He made me dinner, brought me drinks anything I wanted went out of his way to get it, he even bought me a bunch of flowers and a card that said "get well soon" he was wonderful to me.

The following morning me and where sat patiently in the waiting room waiting room waiting for my name to be called
"miss please" I got up and went into see the doctor while waited in the waiting room for me.
"Have a seat" the doctor smiled as I walked in. I sat down and waited in anticipation for the results. I bet it was only a cold or maybe a bit of flu.
"Well" the doctor sighed, "the results haven't turned out the way I thought I couldn't have even guessed" the doctor laughed. Oh god I thought to myself its serious what could it be? My mind dreaded hearing the words of a killer virus like cancer or a disease how would I cope my mind pondered.
"it aint no flu, cold or even a virus you have" the doctor explained. Eh? I wondered I really was confused now
"one of the blood tests came back positive which actually means you're pregnant" the doctor finished. My body froze in its spot
"w, w, w, what?" I stuttered in shock
"you are in your 14th week which is 3 months and a half" the doctor sounded cheerful. I was dreaming, this couldn't be happening, me and where still young we wasn't ready for a baby yet what was I gonna tell ? I blinked a few times, looked around the room then got up "thank you doctor" I flashed a quick smile, grabbed my bag and walked back into the waiting room where I was greeted with
"where's the prescription? What's wrong ?" he asked curiously I daydreamed a little before finally saying
" i am fine just take me home please"

I sat on the sofa with my chin resting in my hands as I gazed into the bright yellow and orange flames of the gas fire.
"Here you go, " nudged me
"mmm" I mumbled then lifted my head up
"oh cheers" I said as I took a mug of tea from . sat down next to me and watched as I continued to gaze into the open flames of the fire
"you gonna tell me wassup?" asked
"there's nothing to tell" I got up and walked into the kitchen, got the ironing board out and started to iron. Half way through the ironing pile I burned one of 's shirts
"OH SHIT!!" I screamed I then flopped down onto one of the dining chairs firmly clenching the burnt shirt put my head down and wept like a little girl wanting her lost doll
"hey, hey, hey, wassup darlin don't cry" took hold of me
"I burnt your shirt" I cried
"aww hun forget about that I know something's wrong" took the shirt out of my hands and took me into the lounge and sat me on the sofa
"come on babe you godda tell me what happened or I cant help" explained.
He was right and there was no time like the present so I just blurted it out
"I'm pregnant " I turned and stared helplessly into his greeny blue eyes, was sat in shock then dropped his head into his hands
"oh god" he mumbled.
I got up and went into the bedroom and began to pack my things neither me or could handle this right now I understood needed space to think. After I had packed my last things I grabbed the bags and walked out of the bedroom and into the lounge and dropped them next to the front door
"what you doing?" asked. I ignored and used my mobile to phone for a cab
"hiya can I have a cab please, yeh if possible, , its " I put the phone down "he will be here in 2 minutes" I whispered
"clare why you leaving please don't go, we can work this out, where you gonna go?" asked upset
"I don't know anywhere we both need time to think. Do we really wanna be tied down with a baby yet I !mean come on you hardly get chance to see me! And I just couldn't cope on my own I cant go through with it I'm sorry" I cried helplessly.

The cabs horn beeped outside. "No please don't do this I will make time I promise please don't leave iam begging you" pleaded I dropped my head, picked up my bags and gave a final kiss on the cheek and opened the door
"I love you" I wept as I left
"no please" followed me to the cab I threw my bags into the cab and then got in
" please listen just hear me out" tried one last plead to save our relationship. I looked at and said "I'll miss you" I shed my last tears for "take me anywhere" I said to the cab driver. The cab started to move further and further away from . I cant believe I had walked out on my soul mate, there would never be anyone there anymore nobody to kiss away my tears no one to keep me from pain. The only love of my life vanished as the cab turned around the corner. He'd !gone. I clutched my stomach to the feeling of pain and sorrow, I still had a part of inside me, it was our miracle that had torn us apart. The feeling of guilt would lie inside me for the rest of my years on earth weather I decided to keep the baby or not. Either way my love had gone, gone forever. I thought this would have been a love that lasted maybe I was wrong.

"WAIT" I screamed
"what?" the cab driver asked
"STOP THE CAB, LET ME OUT" I urged, the cab stopped instantly, what was I doing? Was I completely out of my mind? I jumped out of the cab and started running back towards as I turned the corner lee was sat on the curb with his head in his hands
"!!" I screamed as I carried on running towards him. jumped up and started running towards me. At last I was back in his arms we did more kissing and hugging than ever before
"I couldn't bear to be without you, you mean everything to me, I'm sorry I love you so much" I wept in 's arms
"shh its ok babe" replied holding me tight. At that moment the cab turned up and grabbed my bags and took me inside and made me a drink to calm me down.

6 months later I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl who was 2 weeks over due. We decide to call her . After a few months at home went back to work, to work on blue's 4th album. He phoned home everyday and came home twice a week when he had busy schedules. On the release of blue's fourth album I went out and bought it and read 's message it said:

, we have had some rough times but we have always pulled through now we have our little who has brought us closer together now we are inseparable and I want you to be my one love forever.

All my love to you both always

xxx
P.s. look on the fireplace

I looked on the fireplace where I found a ring and a rose and a gift tag which read, "be my bride?" I just knew then that this would b a love that lasts FOREVER.