I pushed my big suitcases through the crowded in Heathrow airport, it's my first day in London. I dunno what am I gonna do here but at least I can go away from Florida and start the new day here. I thought maybe I can find a job soon, by the way I need some money then, do I?!? I walked over to the exit door and suddenly a guy bumped into me which made all my bags fall on the ground, I looked up at him with a weird face
"Watch were you going man!!!" I yelled angry at him
"I�I'm sorry. I was in hurry and I didn't notice where I was going" a young man said and helped me picked all my bags up, I can see if he's really sorry for what just happened. I didn't blame him though but it just drove me crazy. I released a deep breathe
"It's oke" I said and grabbed all my bags, I looked at him once again and sighed. I walked to where I supposed to go earlier, the guy who bumped into me still followed me in the back. I turned around and faced him
"What's up again?!? Why do you follow me?!?" I asked him and looked in his eye, oh boy he got beautiful blue eyes and I just realized it now
"Let me take you home, let's just say it's for my apologize to ya" he begged and I smiled
"Ehm thank you but to be honest with you I don't even have a place to stay, so I guess I can find a hotel for stay around here maybe for a couple of days�" Wow!!! It's strange to me to say all this to a complete stranger like him
"Oh sorry, so I take it you're new here then?!?" He asked me, I just nodded and stared on the ground
"Have relation who lives in London" He added
"No and the worst thing is I must find a job soon, the sooner is better" I answered
"Hey I know where you can find a job. D'ya know how to organize a band tour schedule?" I raised my eyebrows up and seemed confuse, I thinking for a while and said
"You mean like a tour-manager?!?" He nodded slightly
"I guess so, by the way where can I find those job then?!?"
"Alright I'll take you to where you suppose to be tomorrow and if you don't mind for a couple of days from now you can stay at mine though, it's better then staying in hotel which takes a lot of money" WHAT!!! A complete stranger offered me to stay at his house???
"Are you being serious or what huh?!?"
"Yeah but it's all up to you"
"Won't your girlfriend angry at me?" He laughed a bit when I asked him that question
"I don't have girlfriend, so?!?" I think this guy not trying to harm me or anything, he looks so charm and cute indeed
"Ok but I'll move as soon as I got the job ok?" He nodded and picked one of my suitcase. He walked to the direction to his car, I followed him in the back while pushed another one of my suitcase
"Get in while I put all your suitcases in baggage" I got in his car and a few minutes later he got in and sat behind the wheel ready to drive
"Ready?!?" He asked me and showed me a wonderful smile
"Ehm thanks for everything. I owe one to you and I hope someday I can pay it, anyway I don't even know your name" I opened my hand, he reached it and shook it
"� and you?"
"Oh I'm . " He smiled and we started driving. It's great to see a new city and everything that I've never been there.

We drove and an hour later we got to his house. It was big and huge, and I'm so curious to know what he's doing for living. We stepped into a big path and tried to find a key on his pocket, finally he got the key and opened the door. The first time I stepped into the house my jaw just dropped
"Welcome !" said and put all my suitcases on the settee
"Wow!!!" I was speechless, it just unbelievable a guy who seemed so young got a big house like this
"Ok I'll show you your room then" He picked up all my bags again and walked upstairs, I followed him in the back while I glanced around the house. He opened the room door
"Alright the coast is clear, you can sleep here" I looked around the room with amazement
"�thank you SO much for everything" I said shyly, he smiled, put all the suitcases on the floor and sat on the bed
"So, what do you do for living then?!?" I asked him curiously as I finally sat on the bed with him
"You sure you don't know?" I shook my head
"I'm joining a boyband called Blue and fortunately we are searching for a tour-manager seeing our old tour-manager decided to quit, so tomorrow I'll take you to our record company office. Hopefully they will like you" He explained
"I'll leave you to take a rest a while, I'm going to phone some Chinese food incase we are hungry tonight" I nodded and watched him close the door silently behind him. It was all a miracle for me, I let my body fell on the bed and close my eyes slowly�

*****THE NEXT DAY*****

I felt the sun shining so bright upon my face, I woke up slowly and surprised seeing standing right beside my bed with a big grin on his face
"Wakey beauty!" He greeted and sat on the bed
"Hey how long you standing there watching over me?" I felt a shame
"Took 10 minutes for me to wake you up"
"Oh sorry , I'm not that kinda girl who wakes up this early"
"It's oke hunnie. You better fresh yourself up while I'm making breakfast" After left the room I quickly took a fast shower and changed my clothes. I came downstairs and found Lee making breakfast in the kitchen
"Hi boy, need some help?"
"Oh no I guess, it's already done" As said that he gave me scramble egg and toast bread. He sat on the dining chair in front of me
"Now let me make something to drink ok?!?" I offered and got up
"Ok please make me a cup of coffee" He smiled, I walked to the kitchen cupboard and grabbed 2 glasses. I put them on the edge of table
", where's the sugar?"
"It's over there babe" He pointed on the top of kitchen cupboard, when I wanted to reach it I hit the glasses next to me which made the glasses break on the floor
"Oops sorry" I said and bent over
"It's alright babe, let me help you" Lee took the breaking glasses and "OUCH!!!" cut himself from one of the broken glasses.
"Ohh no...let me see" I took his hand.
"No" He tried to resist
"Don't be such a baby...I just wanna see if some glass got in" I pulled his hand closer to me.
"But..."
"But but what? Just let me see it!" I took his hand and took a look at the cut.
"Yep...you got something in here" I said and looked better at it.
"What are you waiting for?! take it out!" he said sounding like a big baby , I giggled.
"Ok ok just come here closer to me...better light..." I said and got his hand closer to my eye so I could see. He was standing close to me now, so close I could smell his aftershave.
"Is it out yet?" he asked not looking at his bleeding hand.
"Just a second..." I concentrated on his cut.
"That's it" I said and got it out, I showed him the small glass and he smiled and blushed.
"Thank you" he said still close to me
"you're welcome" I said still holding his hand. He stood there looking at me and I at him. It wasn't long before the obvious happened , we kissed.
"Oh no" I said after my lips parted his
"It was..." I couldn't continue what I had to say.
"I know" he took a deep breath. No one of us talked for a long moment, we both stood there looking at each other.
"Alright we better ready to go to record company" He said breaking the silence. I got up and nodded
"I'll wait for ya in the car" He left the kitchen, I seemed confused of what just happened! How come I kissed him, oh no he kissed me first!!! I walked slowly over the car, he waited for me.
"Got in you!" He winked, I blushed and got in

On the way to the record company office we didn't talk that much it just filled with silence. We got to the record company office and all of a sudden I got scared, noticed it and held my hand to make sure everything will be alright. I calmed down a bit
"Maybe they only will interview you, that's it I'll waiting for you here" smiled. I walked to the room where they might interview me, the interview went pretty well
"We want to take you on" Johnny said
"Wow that's it terrific" I answered.
"But to begin it will be a trial period, just to see how you will blend in. Come back tomorrow, it will be your first day and you will meet the lads" Johnny told me
"But I come here actually with one of the boy, he's outside"
"Oh really who's he?"
", want me to call him for you?"
"No guess not you better still come here tomorrow for your first day and meet the other lads" Johnny winked at me, I went out from the room feeling relieved. I found still sitting on the chair, when he saw me walking from the interview room he bombarded me with loads of question
"Yes they wanted me and it was pretty cool, and for you Lee I thank you SO much I dunno how to say it"
"That's oke babe, let's go somewhere we must celebrate it" He smiled

*****THE NEXT DAY*****

I came back again to the record company the next day with , I met with Johnny and he ushered me to the meeting room where I might meet with the other lads
"Hey boys, this is , your new tour-manager" Johnny introduced me to the other lads
"Oh, hi , nice to meet you" said and he shook my hand.
"Hiya, I am "
"Well hello, how you doin?" said.
"Hi boys, very nice to meet you" I smiled
" why you're not introducing yourself to huh man?" asked who's sitting on the sofa
"I already knew her, I the one who brought her here" smiled and everyone went laugh
"Oh ok, so now we will not only have to listen to what Johnny says, but also what you say, that's great" added.
Me and went home after we got home I wanted to tell something to
"�" I hesitate
"What babe?!? Got a problem?" He asked me, I sat on the settee
"It's nice to stay here but I think I can't stay here any longer cos I already got a job and as I promised you before I'll move as soon as I got a job" I explained
"Why!?! It's very nice to have you in this house�I don't have anybody else here and I'm feeling lonely but since when you came here you brought the happiness for me" He held my hand, I wanted to disappeared at that moment
"Please stay here for more longer, by the way you are my new tour-manager" He begged
"Ok" I finally agree with him

The next day I came to record company alone cos Johnny wants to tell me something, I left the house early in the morning not wanting to make woke up, when I got there I saw Johnny smiling
"Morning young lady!" He greeted me
"Morning Johnny!" I said and gave him a kiss on the cheek
"I just want to tell you the rules in here, sit here hunnie" I walked and sat on the sofa next to him
"Uhm..." I just said
"Ah don't worry. Actually I just want you to know if in here we all know that a tour-manager or other stuff won't start a relationship with one of boys" Johnny said
"I want start what???" I asked confused
"A relationship with one of the boys" He repeated
"Oh ok, but I wouldn't even start that if they paid me money" I joked, Johnny laughed
"Oh I'm glad you say that" Johnny added

Months go by and I turned into a friendship with them. I can really have a laugh with the boys and the job is so cool. Luckily I had a couple of days off. That would give me time to work on your new home. I had decided to get an own flat in London and finally agreed with it. I was working really hard, painting the kitchen, when the doorbell went.
"Hey , what are you doing here" I said
"I thought I would come and see how you were doing. Damn girl you should be on a break and look at you painting away" he laughed.
"Well I have to finish this of, come in I will show you the place, but take no notice of the mess"
Me and had a laugh and he even helped out with the painting, which was really fun and the kitchen got finished in no time.
", what the hell have you done there" I said while I pointed at the wall
"Oh I though I would put a message for you and the wall" said.
"You are crazy, but it's actually pretty cool" I laughed.
It said....Lots of Love from xXx on the wall.
"Oh no" I said "you had just dropped a tin of paint on the floor"
"Quickly clean it up" shouted.
The 2 of us got on our knees and started cleaning the floor. Somewhere during the cleaning we 2 looked into each others eyes and for some reason our lips met. The kiss was so good, it lasted for a while and I didn't realize that I kissed one of the boys which of course I'm not allowed to do that cos if anybody saw us like this then I'll get fired by the second
"Oh sorry" I told .
"What for? I really love you , I really do. From the first day we met" said.
"No we can't, it's not allowed" I added.
"Oh come on , as long as they don't find out, it will be ok" made sure everything will we ok
I got up from the floor and did to. We kissed again.
"We just need to be careful then, nobody should know this, not even your or my mates" I said
"Nope it's out little secret" said.
helped out the other days of the holiday as well and at the end of the week my new flat was finished.
"It looks so cool" I yelled
"Yeah its looks better then my house" joked
"Tomorrow it's back to work. We really need to think what we are going to do" I said.
"Ah just act normal, it will be just fine, just don't show them anything" explained.

The next day it was just a short drive to the record company from my new flat. I still thought it would be so difficult to keep my little secret.
"Good morning" I said as I walked into the building.
Actually nobody was there yet, just Johnny, so me and Johnny decided that it was a good idea to read through all the things that were going to happen in the next couple of months. The plan was to go touring through Asia & Australia, well that would take 2 months, then it was going to America for a video shoot for the new video and finally back to England for the promotion of the new album.
"Good morning people" said as he walked in.
"Hey good to see you're not late this time" Johnny joked.
At the same time all the other lads came in. It was like a reunion, they had only been away for a week, but it looks like it had been ages to them. I looked at and he looked at me and he gave me a wink, luckily nobody saw it.
"Ok boys, lets go into the meeting room and we will tell you what the plans are for the next couple of month" Johnny said.
"Well" I started to say "You know the first month we will be in Asia and after that we will travel to Australia, for promoting the new album there"
"And after that you guys are filming the new video in America, so we will be there for a couple of week. Then after that its back to England for the promo of the new album here" Johnny added.
"Yeah and the best thing is still to come, after that you guys will have a 2 weeks holiday" I said.
"So if I get this correct, we will be away for like about 3 months then a month promo in the UK?" asked.
"Yeah that's right" I said.
"And when will we be leaving?" asked.
"We are leaving tomorrow, we need to get our shots today" Johnny said.
"And are the 2 of you coming along?" asked.
"yeah Johnny and I are both coming along"
"Oh then its good" giggled
"Ok guys get your jackets and get in the van, we are going to get the shots now" Johnny said.
After the shots we were all free to do what we wanted, well I needed to get my things packed cos it was going to be a long long trip.

The next day I got my things ready, Johnny was going to pick me up and then pick the rest of the boys up along the way. It was only 5 o'clock in the morning and I hardly got any sleep the night before. Just before Johnny got there I turned on my phone and got 1 message...It was from ........'hey babe, can't wait until we go on the trip, I am glad your coming with us, love ya mucha xXx' I giggled to read the message, not long after that I heard the doorbell rang and there was Johnny
"You ready ?" He asked, I nodded and got all my things then locked my flat door

On the way to airport we picked up all the boys, we started our LONG flight and it seemed like forever. We finally got into Singapore airport. It was the first stop of many stops. We got out of the plane and went to the hotel. But I could not hang around cos I needed to get the boys to their first interview of that day. Later that night I was sitting in my room watching the TV, cos there was no promo that night. came into the room and sat next to me and gave me a kiss.
"Hey babe what's up!" He asked and linked his arms around my shoulder
"I'm fine" I giggled
At that moment walked into the room.
"Hey !" said "Hey , what are you doing here." asked.
"I was bored and just came in to see what was doing then we got into this movie on the TV and just chilled" explained
"Come sit here" I told to join us "This is a good movie, you know"
"Oh all right" said.
We watched the end of the movie and it was getting late so the lads got up and left.
The rest of the trip I knew me and needed to stay away from each other cos they would find out.
The trip had now come to Australia and I was so happy cos it had always been a dream to go there. But it still made I feel a bit sad cos I did not see a lot of the country. Well the only thing I saw was the inside of hotel rooms, concert venues, radio & TV stations and the road while I was in the car.
"So you like Australia" asked.
"Well I have always wanted to come here, its a shame I cant go out and see the country a bit more"
"You will see the country one day, well just be positive to yourself" made sure
"yeah I will" I said

The trip seemed to go by faster then I could imagine. It was now a plane trip to the USA and the video shoot. Still I could not really cope with the fact I had to keep everything quiet about me & . But it was the best thing. The first day there was a day off. But I did not feel like going anywhere, so I just told the lads I would stay at the hotel.
"Hunnie are you going to be ok?!?" asked me worried, he knew something definitely wrong with me. Those boy always saw me through my mind
"Yeah yeah I will be ok, you go and have some fun" I said.
The boys left and went out into the town. I decided that I was going to the pool to have a swim. The swim really did me good. I loved swimming and it made me think about a lot of things, but the main person I was thinking about was and what we should do. I had made a choice. I was going to quit my job as soon as this trip was over, I could just not handle it. Well I loved the job, but I could not handle the pressure of the little secret.

Later that night, I decided to go and talk to about it. I walked towards his room and suddenly I saw walking towards me.
"Hey " I gave him a kiss on the cheek
"Hiya, so how are you feeling now" he asked.
"I am feeling a lot better now, thanks" I smiled
"So you wanna come down to the bar with me and have a laugh"
"Ah no thanks, I was just about to head back to my room and watch some TV" I lied
"oh ok, I will see ya tomorrow then" said.
"C-ya tomorrow " I say as I watch walking down the corridor.
I knock on 's door and I hear him opening the door.
"Hey , come in" said, he looked at the corridor before he shut the door and locked it
"Now are you going to tell me what's wrong. It's been bugging me all day, cos I know there is something on your mind" said.
", I can't handle it anymore to be honest. I have made a decision today" I said while the tears started to come down my face.
"Ah babe, don't cry, I hate to see you in tears. Now tell me the truth, Do you want to break up?" asked.
"No, why would you think that? I love you to much to break up with you" I said
"Oh thanks god, It's not that. Now tell me what it is" He felt relieved
"Well after we get back to London I am going to quit this job. It's just not working out" I said
"No don't" said "I got through this trip, cos you were here. I wouldn't know what I would do if you weren't with me"
"I don't know what to do anymore" I said
I fell into 's arms and he just tried to cheered me up by giving me the best hugs ever.

I decided to stay at 's room that night, the next morning I found myself still lying on 's bed. rocked my hair slowly before we heard the doorbell rang
"Hold on I'll be right there in a moment" yelled as he jumped up from the bed
"Babe quick here put my shirt on and hide!!" I got 's shirt and hid on the cupboard behind the door.
opened the door and there was standing
"Why you just took so long man!" sounded upset
"Hey mate what's up!" tried to put a smiled on his face
"Nah! I just wondering where's cos I've been searching for her in her room but no answer, I also checked down at the bar or swimming pool. So have you seen this morning?" asked
"Ehm�nope I haven't seen her this morning" answered a bit nervous
At that moment I drop something on the cupboard which made some noise voices
"Oh shit!!" I yelled suddenly and not realizing if still standing there
"Who was that ?!?" asked curiously and stepped into the room
"Oh nobody mate�" tried as hard as he could to hide the truth
"To be honest with ya , it sounded like !" looked deeply in 's eyes
"Oh mate come here!" grabbed to the room and locked the door behind
"Ok , I am going to be honest with ya, cos you are my mate, but promise me you won't tell anybody, cos we will be in dead trouble" said.
"Yeah yeah I promise, now tell me" said.
walked to the cupboard and opened it. "Come out he knows" he said.
I walk out and was holding my hand. looked so surprised.
"Oh my god, you & !!!" he shouted.
", please be quiet, I could lose my job, well actually I am going to quit the job, but not until we are back in the UK" I said
"How long has this been going on" asked.
"Since we had a little break before we came on this trip. I was helping out in her flat and we got it going on" explained.
"Do you know what" said "You just need to tell the people. I am sure that it will be ok. I mean you are a really good tour manager and it will be sad if you need to quit your job. Oh and another thing, you seem to make very happy. I was wondering why he was so happy during the whole trip"
"I know we need to tell everybody about this, but not just now. We want to wait until we get back to London" said. "Ok its up to you, but I think its better to tell Johnny & the others now, before I tell them" told me.
"Ant, please please don't tell them anything, we will tell them later on, won't we " I said.
"yeah we will" said "At the meeting tonight"
left us 2 on our own again and we really feared that this was going to be it. We needed to break up, but I didn't want to.

*AT THE MEETING*
"Alright peeps let's start the meeting" Johnny as about to stand up but quickly stand up first before Johnny
"Ok I want to tell you something before we could start the meeting tonight" He sounded really nervous but anyways I felt it too
"What's up !!" They spoke together
"How can I start with this�" looked at me and I just looked at the floor cos I know I dunno how to start it just TOO hard to speak
"Well�I think it's better to say to the point! Right�" He paused and took a deep breathe "Me and are together, but if you know what I mean"
"WHAT!!!" Johnny stood up
"What the hell you two thinking huh?!? Y'know the rules there's NO relationship allowed!!!" He screamed and the room seemed filled with his voice
"But Johnny I'm truly love and I can't help it�" looked down, he seemed upset. I got up from my seat and walked over , I have him a hug
"Johnny please don't blame him over this cos it's also my fault and I know what must I do" I said in the middle of silence
"Right cool !! Now get all your stuff and leave as soon as possible cos y'know what yeah you're fired!" Johnny said coldly I close my eyes and felt tears rolling down my cheek, I tried my best not to cry at least not in this room
"Ok that's fair�" I got up and walked slowly to the door, but immediately stood up in front of the door and blocked the door so with that I can't get out of the room
"NO!!!!!" screamed
" you know the rules babe, I'll be ok with it. When I get home I'll call you�" I said and looked deeply in his eyes, I know he's feeling so hurt but it's the best way for both of us
"If you fired then I'll quit of everything including I quit of Blue!!!!" yelled and held my hand
"Don't be stupid !!!" Johnny said in really angry tone
"She's the best part of my life and I don't know how to live without her!!! Can't you understand me!!!!!" Now 's crying wildly, I hugged him and let him crying on my shoulder
"Shhh I don't want if you quit from Blue cos I know the best part of your life is Blue and I'll be alright maybe I can find any other job soon" I need to go away from here, I kissed 's forehead and got up
"Johnny thanks for everything and please take care of , I'll go now�" I stepped out into the room, straight to my room and grabbed all my things and went to the airport. I went with the first flight directly to London�

*****1 MONTH LATER*****

I felt a bit dizzy and I decided not to go to work today, I called my friend if I couldn't go to work today. I got a job as a journalist in some teenager magazine. I went to the kitchen and opened my fridge to find something to eat but I've got nothing. Since I left Australia I never keep in contact again with and the others, I lied to cos I didn't call him straight away after I arrived at London. I just want him to be happy without me or even now I tried to get out of his life�I grabbed my jacket and went to supermarket to buy something, on the way back to my house it was started to raining. DAMN!!! I forgot to bring my umbrella!!! I just want to crossed the street before a car stopped right in front of me, I looked at the car angry
"Where's your eyes!!!"
"Sorry" A man got up from the car and there I saw him again for the first time since last month, he stood there looks really great as he always did
"!!!" I stunned, but now the rain got bigger and bigger and we were standing there at the rain
"Are you ok?!?" He walked slowly to me, his hair was messed up because of the rain and he seemed didn't care standing right there in the big rain
"OMG I missed you!!!" Suddenly I got back all my feelings for him, I hugged him so tight not wanting him let go
"I missed you a lot too and I love you" As he said that I broke free from the hug, I didn't expect if still feeling that for me
"I loved you, I love you and I will always do!!" He repeated again, I stood there amaze
"I�love you too !" His lips wet from the rain but my heart skip a beat when came closer and finally his lips brushed mine, it felt so good. We kissed there together in the rain for a while
"Let's get back to my car" He said after we parted, I got in his car
"I still do love you !" He held my hand
"I love you too�" I kissed him again
We went back to my flat and now we are trying to dry ourselves, we sat on the settee
"How are you?!?" I asked him cos I dunno how he is after I left him
"Miserable if you want to know the truth, why didn't you call me early
I'm dying cos I'm SO worried about you"
"I�I tried to get out of your life but I guess I can't! Sorry for not calling you sooner" I laid my head upon his shoulder
"Y'know what babe?!? My life turns into nightmare since you're gone and now I want you to make my life more better and bring the real back, can you do it for me?!?"
"Ehm�is everything going to be ok?!?"
"I guarantee"
"Yes I'll try to bring your life back�" smiled and not a moment later our lips met again and we kissed passionately.