It feels like I believe in a thing called miracle, after I thru the hardest time in my life for almost a year with my three-months-old daughter called , then this things happen changed everything in no time, which now me, my husband and my daughter lived together in somewhere so far away almost everyone wants to go there. The place called heaven�

*****Flash Back 1 Year Ago*****

I was dating one of famous boyband member from Blue and I already started dating with him since the first time Blue exists, 2 years with him is one of the best moments in my life not to mention that it was a great time. I was walking away from my office when I got a text message, I opened my bag and picked my phone out
'Hi babe, prepare urself 4 dinner 2nite! Pick u up at 7 in our house! Bye and I luv u so much xXx '
I read the text message and smiled to myself, always has surprise for me. I walked over to my car and drove home, an hour later I arrived at my house and just went directly to take a bath. I felt the hot water rolling down my body and I felt relax, I grabbed a towel beside me and wrapped it around my body. I picked a dress that I'm gonna wear for tonight, put it on and make-up my self. While I was just choosing the shoes I heard the beep horned on the front of my house, I looked outside the window and saw waving his hands at me, I waved back and ran downstairs
"Hellow sweety!!!" He yelled the first time I stepped into the last stairs, I ran at him and jumped up at him wrapping my hands around his neck
"God I missed you!" I said and smelt the good smell of his body
"So did I hunnie, a lot!!!" I grinned and he put me down on the ground
"Not to mention you look gorgeous tonight like you always did , I love you�" He came closer and our lips touched
"Ehm that's nice!" I replied in between kisses
"Want something nicer than that?" He asked mysteriously
"Like what?"
"You'll see later babe!" He kissed me again, after the 'kissing' stuff we went for a dinner in a restaurant he already booked. It was a small restaurant but very romantic, there were also a band who playing romantic songs as a background. We walked in hand in hand as the waiter led us to the our table
"Here you are Mr. !" He said and pushed the chair out and let me sit in the chair
"Thank you, can we take a look on the menus now?" asked politely while sitting opposite me
"Sure you can, here you are�" The waiter handed us the menus, I looked at it and smiled
"What would you like to eat love?" asked me, I shrugged
"You always shrugged don't ya! Ok then let's take the fave menus in this restaurant!" gave up
"Oke your meal will serve in 10 minutes" The waiter left to the kitchen, I looked around the room and not noticing stared at me
"?" He asked quietly
"Yeah" I looked over at him, he held my hand tightly
"I love you, I dunno how to describe that feeling to you�" He replied desperately
"I love you too �" I smiled at him, we just look at each other until the waiter gave us the meal and we eat our meal
"It's good!" I yelled after we ate our meal
"Oh yeah, you love it?"
"Ehem�" I said nodding as I took a sip of my drink
"It's not the end of our romantic night , let's dance" He got up from his seat and opened his hand, I reached it and we walked to the dance floor
The band are singing some romantic song when we got to the dance floor they played Westlife song's called 'Tonight'
wrapped his hand around my waist and we danced real close, I put my head upon his shoulder and closed my eyes firmly
"Ah it's a good song, ain't it?" said, I lifted my head and raised my eyebrow
"Good song?? Just a normal boyband song?" I added and went back placing my head upon it's shoulder
"Listen to the chorus sweety, I know it's 'only' a normal boyband song" Without saying anything I listened to the chorus and suddenly my temperature went higher and I felt hot all of a sudden
"Got what I mean love?"
"Ehm not really�" I lied
"Listen carefully I know you hate Westlife but please just listen to the song"
"Ok then, you quite!" I giggled as I listen more carefully to the song

Tonight, I'm gonna make it up to you
Tonight, I'm gonna make love to you
Tonight, you're gonna know how much I missed you, baby
Tonight, I dedicate my heart to you
Tonight, I'm gonna be a part of you
Tonight, you're gonna know how much I missed you
And I miss you so

"Yeah I heard it�" I break the silence after heard the chorus of the song
"Got what I mean?"
"No" I lied again
"Then let me show you something, let's go!" He took my hand and led me outside, we ran to the place that was a little bit more quiet
"Ehm ok, you see the string that hanging over there?" He asked me and pointed at the string which hanging on the tall three
"Yeah, why's that?"
"Pull it down hunnie�" He whispered in my ear and pushed me to walked over to the tree, I walked slowly
"Pull it down?" I asked again
"Yeah just pull it down sweety�" He encourage me, slowly I took the string and held it tight. I looked over to and he nodded slightly, I pulled it down and a big and long paper extending down to the ground with a note in it and followed with loads of confetti dropped above my head, I opened my mouth and covered it with my hand as I read the note 'Will You Marry Me?' I glanced to and found him smiling
"I'm gonna be a part of you tonight if you lemme do that" He walked closer to me
"Oh my dear God! I love you �" I jumped on him and started kissing him
"So I take it as a yes then?"
"Yes!" I answered excitedly, we kissed again and I could see there were followed by a huge fire works above us�

*****The Next Morning*****

The sun shone so bright thru our bedroom, I opened my eyes carefully and glanced to the clock beside my bed
"Wakey wakey love!" I whispered to 's ear, I looked closer at him and noticed that he's got long lashes and very beautiful blue eyes
"Morning babe!" He opened his left eye and rubbed his right eye
"Morning, have a good sleep last night???"
"Yeah of course I had a good sleep, because now I'm so happy with you as my fianc�. Oh yeah babe hold on I got something for ya, I put it on my pocket actually but I forgot to give it to ya last night" He grabbed his jeans on the floor and shoved his hand down the jeans
"Got it!" He smiled widely
"Close you eyes love�" I did as he said and I felt grabbed my hand slowly, pushing something to my finger and kissed my hand
"Open now" I opened my eyes and shocked as I saw a beautiful ring fit my finger
"Oh my gosh, it's very beautiful hunnie. You shouldn't do this, I'm happy enough!" I said getting in tears
"No, you worth get the most beautiful thing in this world cos it fits you�" He bow over and kissed me, slowly we lowered back to the bed�

*****5 Months Later*****

Last month me and married in the big church in London, the other Blue boys happy for us including our family. Now we were living in London and I had something to tell tonight, went for the tour last month and today he headed back home. I cooked dinner for him and prepared everything, exactly at 7pm I heard the knock on the door. Placing the last food on the table I rushed to the door and opened it
"Nighty love!" appeared on the door and handed me a bouquet of red flowers, I kissed him breathlessly
"Ehm I smelt a good food in here�" We stepped to the living room
"Yes I cooked for ya and it's your fave food, wanna go eat our dinner now?"
"Yes, I'm hungry sweety�" We walked to the dining table and he sat opposite me
"�" He said while eating his food but immediately stopped from eating
"Yeah, the food isn't so good?" I asked worriedly
"No, the food is great!"
"So�"
"Last night when I'm staying in my hotel room I went to the balcony and started counting the stars�" He paused
"Then?"
"The total of the stars are 1.000.000 but today before I went home, on the way to go here I counted again and something happened�" Paused again
"What happened then?"
"1 star has missing, cos the total of all are only 999.999"
"Why's that? Probably you missed count then�"
"No because the missing star is right there, yes the missing star is in your eyes�" He finished and touched my face
"You always been this way since we started going out , sweet, gentle and romantic"
"I'd love to do that!"
"And I want to tell you something because you acted sweet to me right now"
"What babe, shoot!"
"I'm�I'm 3 months pregnant" I yelled happily, was speechless and didn't say anything for a while
"OH MY GOD!!!! THANK YOU!!!!" He yelled and grabbed me, swinging me around in the air
"Hahaha it's a good news then???"
"Sure it is, nothing more happy for me than being a daddy!"
"Awww we'll become parents soon�"
"Yes!"
"Wanna have your dessert now?"
"Let's skip the dessert!" He grinned and carried me up in his arms and went to our bedroom�

*****4 Months Later*****

is away with the band for 2 months but he never forget to call me once a day, I still work at my office but I guess I must quit soon cos I cant handle work with carrying a heavy lump inside me. Today after work I went to my boss's office and told him everything, he agreed with my decisions but told me not to quit but just having a break for 4 or 6 months
"Yes , please don't quit of this job you are a good worker. I'll give you time for break this few months and after the baby born you can join us again�" My boss said
"Thanks very much Mr. Hall that's very nice of you" I smiled and shook his hands. I went home and just making myself a tea when I heard the phone rang in the living room
"Hello?" I picked up the phone and sat on the sofa
"Hi sweety! How are you and my baby???" I heard 's voice on the line
"Oh we're fine but it's getting hard for me without you here�"
"Aw don't be sad I'll be home soon!" He reassured me and I felt relax
"Ok then be careful �" Somehow I said the things that I won't to say, it more like saying goodbye. Oh no! get that thought of your head !!!
"I'll and remember I love you and our baby always, without a doubt more than I love myself" His sounds echoed in my mind, a tear rolling down my cheek
"Yeah, I love you too!"
"Gotta go hun, I'll see ya very soon" Then the line is dead, I took a deep breathe and suddenly fell a sleep on my sofa
" !!! ARE YOU IN THERE!!!" I jumped out and realized I slept on my sofa, I looked at the clock and it was 11pm
" !!!" I heard someone screaming my name loudly, I got to the door and opened it. I saw 's face white and all his body shaking
"What's wrong ? Why are you here?" I asked worriedly
"I'm sorry �I'm sorry�" He cried and hugged me tight
" what the hell is wrong!" I felt a bad feeling
"��" He looked at me with his watery eyes
"What happened with , where's he???" I asked and looked around the road, no one was there just the sound of wind blowing in the night
"He�he got accident an hour ago and now he's in ICU, let's take you there!" A lighting like strike me and I couldn't stand right
"Oh my god!" That's all I could say before running with to his car and drove away. And hour later we arrived at the hospital, I saw and sat on the hall way
"There you are !" They stood up and gave me a kiss on my cheek
"Where's ? Who's He???" I cried out and couldn't control of myself. The doctor came from 's room and opened his mask
"Who's his wife in here, Mr. wants to see her!" The doctor said
"I�I'm his wife" I said nervously
"You can come in Mrs. " The doctor let me in, I stepped into the room and found lying helplessly with loads of stuff in his body
"Oh my word!"
" ��" He tried to speak, I shook my head
"Don't speak" I held his hand tightly
"I love you�" He started to cry, I started to cry too
"I love you too, please be tough we'll have our baby soon�" I squeezing his hand, as the time I said that I heard the a long pause from the life-support system and the doctor came around and tried pushed me off from the room
"Oh my God, what's happening in here!" I said panickly as I saw closing his eyes
"He's in shock please wait outside, cos he lost loads of blood because of the accident" I walked slowly in tears and dropped on the floor
" what's happening, is alright???" helped me up and sat me on the chair
"I dunno�" I mouthed
"Believe me he'll make it!" said and hugged me

An hour later all the nurses and the doctors came from 's room, I rushed walking over them
"How's he???"
"I'm sorry�really�" The doctor said and I burst into crying
"He didn't make it but you can see him now" They left me
"Thank you" I walked slowly and sat next to 's bed and took his hand
"I know you're already rest in peace, but�why did you have to go now??? At the time that our baby will born???" I struggled a laugh
"The past one year married with you and 2 years dating with you have been the best moments in my life and I just wanna say thank you for being there for me and our baby, you are a great dad and our baby will know it. �I love you forever!" I left alone in the cold as took me home
"Thanks �" I said as we arrived at my house
"I guess I stay here for the night, I'm afraid with you" He said, I gave him a hug and let him in
"Yeah course you can"

*****3 Month Later*****

I gave a birth child last month and now I have a wonderful baby who is a girl and I named her , I lived with my mom in my house cos I need to go to work and my mom agreed to take care of my baby when I was working.
I'm in my way home when I felt my phone beeping in my bag
"Yes it's speaking"
"Hi it's me !"
"Oh hiya, how's the band???" I asked him and we continued talking until one and half hour, Blue still exists and they just released a new album. I'm sure will be proud at Blue as he watching from heaven�
I drove my car home and I didn't get attention to the road cos somehow I really missed right now and I almost hit the child who crossing the street. The mother yelled at me
"Watch out where you going!!!" She yelled, I got out from my car and apologized to her
"I'm so sorry�" I replied
"Later watch were you going young lady, it's dangerous!" I nodded and watched them crossing the street and disappeared in the corner. The wind blew wildly and messed my hair, suddenly I heard someone whispering in my ear, the place became really quite and no one was there. I looked around and found my self the only one who's in the street
"I guess I should go" I turned around to my car and got in
"Do you love me? Still wanting me?" Some weird voice whispered in my ear, I held my neck
", is that you?" I asked cos the only one person who stuck in my head right now is him
"Yes darling, it's me�"
"Where are you?" I asked looking around
"Somewhere I can always watch you and I really proud of you and so with my daughter �"
" take me where you are, I missed you, I loved you and I need you NOW!" I added with tears heavily dropped from my eyes
"No, you should go on with your life. Don't worry I'll always watching you here in peace, now go home love 's waiting�"
"NO WAY!!! I don't want to say goodbye to you, NEVER!!! I don't wanna lose you again�" I yelled madly
"Baby there's no goodbyes, promise you we'll get back together if you really wanted to"
"Yes I want, I would give up everything for you" Suddenly appeared in front of me with the clothes that he wore when the accident happened
"God�" I ran to him and hugged him
"When you get home, opened our wedding album, there's an answer of all�" disappeared and left me in the dark�
I quickly drove home, when I got there I saw mom sitting in front of TV watching MTV and there's Blue's new vid
"Hi you home hunnie!"
"Yes mom"
"Look your little sweetheart is a fan of Blue, someday you should take meeting the guys�"
"Yes I will, mom can I have with me a while?"
"Sure!" She handed me and I brought her upstairs in my room
"Sit here baby�" I sat her up on her chair while I searched for my wedding photo album. I found it and flipped it out, a piece of paper fell down on my lap. I opened it and read it

Dear my love and my sweet daughter,

I missed you guys so much and I'm so happy seeing you go on with your life , just don't give up cos I'm here watching over both of you�
But I changed my mind as I talked to you earlier, I thought maybe we could be together again but this time it'd be forever. Only if you wanted �

Come to my grave tomorrow and you'll find the answer, take with you. I'll see you soon love�

Kisses and hugs,
xXx

I closed the paper and let my eyes crying, I hugged and promised to my self that tomorrow I'll come to 's grave and find the answer.
Slowly me and fell asleep until the next morning my mom woke me up at 9am
"Love wake up!" She sat beside my bed
"Morning, mom could you please help me?"
"Please make ready while I'm taking a bath, I'll take her to maybe she's miss her father�"
"Sure babe" I took a bath and get ready
"'s ready yet?"
"Yeah she's outside"
"Hey sweety you look beautiful�" I picked her up and carried her in my arms
"Bye mom�" I walked over to my car
"Bye�" Suddenly my mom in tears
"Why are you crying mom?"
"Dunno, I'll miss you guys�" She said, I only nodded and drove off

*****An Hour Later*****

We arrived at 's grave, there were loads of flowers from his fans and his band mates. I kneeled down and put the flowers down
"�I'm here with " I said and paused, silence a while only 's voice who playing with her doll
"Thanks for giving me a clue but I still dunno what you mean�" I laughed
"Ok I just want you to know that I love you and ehm� is getting on well although she just only three months old. She's beautiful and got your eyes, your smile and probably she'll be a singer as well as you�" I laughed again but wiped away the tears at the same time
"I came here because�damn�I missed you , very!" I started to cry
"I love you everyday more and more�" When I said that suddenly 's hit something that made it fall on the ground, a bottle fell on the ground
"What you doing ?" I asked her as I picked the bottle up, the bottle very little but I could see inside it that there is water
"What's this???" I looked closely, suddenly everything make sense. A very bright light showed in front of us and slowly appeared
"�"
"Do still want to be with me?"
"I do"
"You got the answer now you decide�" I looked at him and then looked at the bottle
"Yes I will go with you�" I said as I released a deep breathe, I opened the bottle slowly and my hands are shaking madly
" go first�" I said as I picked up and sat her on my lap
"Drink it baby and we'll meet your father" I made her drinking the water inside the bottle, and left half for me
"Now it's my turn�" I closed my eyes and drank the water, I felt my breathe became really hard and slowly I laid there above 's grave with

" wake up love�" Someone whispered slowly in my ear, I opened my eyes and found smiling from ear to ear
"We're together again"
"Really???" I looked around me and everything is white
"I miss you and I love you" bow over and kissed me, he carried in his arms
" I miss you darling, you're beautiful�" I smiled as we walked over to the gate, which opened so widely and looked behind me, I saw crying while hugging me and 's body
"Wait up !" He turned around and looked at me
"What's up hunnie"
"Look there" I pointed at who's crying
"He loves you and just say thanks to him, you gotta coming to his dream babe" explained
"He loves me?"
"Yeah, a week ago he came to my grave and told me he loves you so much"
"Yes I'll come to his dream then�"
We continued walking over to the gate and found truly life together forever�