� !!!!� My mom yelled from downstairs, my eyes flickered and I suddenly woke up. I looked at the clock beside my bed and couldn�t believe my eyes.
�Oh shit I�m late!!!� I pulled the duvet away immediately and rushed to the bathroom. I put on my uniform and brushed my hair then tied it up.
Half an hour later, I grabbed my bag and bolted downstairs. There, I saw my mom buttering the toast.
�Morning mom!� I said and kissed her on her cheek.
�What�s wrong with you? You woke up so late!� She replied and gave me the toast.
�Thanks, I�ll talk to ya later on. Bye!!!� I added with mouth full of toast and ran to school. I arrived at school about 10 minutes later, I walked along the corridor and it was so quiet, my heart beat even faster and I felt my body start to sweat. I looked at my timetable and went to the class, damn why I had to have Mr. Arthur�s class today! I walked to the class slowly and knocked the door twice.
�Late again Miss ?!?� Mr. Arthur said and looked at me; everyone in class was looking at me too. I could feel my cheeks burn.
�Y�yeah sorry. I woke up late today,� I answered nervously.
�Well it�s not a surprise for me then, if you�re not late then probably you didn�t do your homework! You never try to be serious about my lessons, do you?� He added and I just rolled my eyes.
�I promise it won�t happen again,�
�That�s ok! The class is full today so the only chair left is beside Mr. , you can sit over there with him!� He said, pointing at who sat alone in the corner.
�Thank you�� I said and walked over to the chair, reluctantly. Sitting next to this arsehole had to be worse than getting detention from Mr. Arthur. I hated . Yeah I must admit he�s gorgeous and I had fancied him for over a year when I was in the year 10 but when he found out that I fancied him, he started teasing me. I was upset and that�s my reason for hating him, which I�m sure you�ll all agree, is quite reasonable. He always got on my nerves and I knew that he loved to do it.
�Hi Miss. !� said and smiled. I didn�t reply, and I just sat next to him.
�You�re so quiet today, what�s up?� He added.
�Could you just shut up!?!�
�Ouch! Don�t snap at me! I�m just trying to be nice,�
�Alright, but just leave me alone!� I got my books and pencil case from my bag and put everything on my table. I felt a pair of eyes staring at me as I wrote the class notes in my jotter. I turned around and found smiling widely at me while fixing his hair.
�What?!?� I asked curiously.
�Nothing�� He added and went back to writing in his jotter. I shook my head and tried to focus my attention on Mr. Arthur. It was a boring lesson and I really hoped the class would end soon. But thankfully, it wasn�t long until the bell rang; I smiled to myself and put all my stuff back into my green quicksilver bag.
�Thanks for joining the class today and see you again next week, don�t forget to do the homework and good day!� Mr. Arthur said and left the room. I took a deep breath and started to stand up when I felt two arms on my shoulder.
�Where�re you going babe?� It was .
�Leave me alone will you!�
�Come on what�s wrong with you???�
�Nothing and now just go away!�
�Can we talk about us please?�
�Nothing to talk about because you�re SOOOO annoying, you know that!� I snapped and walked away.
�But you used to fancy me before!!!� I stopped in my tracks and turned around, while trying to calm myself down.
�Yes I used but it�s over now!� I smiled and turned on my heel, and walking out of the classroom. I could hear him say something behind me but I just ignored him.

*****At Canteen*****

I slammed all my lunch at the table in front of me and sighed deeply. My best friend, looked at me worriedly.
�Chill out , what�s the matter babe?� She said as she sat next to me, I grabbed my sandwich and ate it.
�Nothing�� I replied.
�Bet there�s something, you never act like this. Tell me babe!� I swallowed the sandwich and started to tell the entire story on why I was in such a weird mood.
� again! But, you never stop talking about him?!? You told me you hated him so what is it now?�
�Sorry but erghhhhh he�s so unbelievable, although I said I hated him, deep down, I think I still really like him, you know what I mean�� I replied softly, I heard someone giggle behind me. I turned my head around and found almost falling on the floor with laughter.
�Gotcha!!!� He said still in his fit of laughter.
�You heard me??? Oh please don�t tell about it???�
�Don�t worry I won�t tell about it,� He smiled.
�Thanks !� I added.
�Ok there�s something I wanna ask ya!� He said as he sat down next to me and slung his arm over my shoulder, I drank my orange juice and nodded.
�This Saturday coming, will be throwing a party in his house, d�ya wanna join us?!?� He asked as he lent his head on my shoulder, looking up at me with his puppy dog eyes.
�Don�t look at me like that! And no, I better stay in and study!� I pushed his head up from my shoulder.
�Why?!? You said you still fancied , so it�s your chance to get closer to him?� He tried again.
�I�ll think about it again, later on,�
�Oh come on please I�ll pick you up and drop you off, after the party so you�re safe from any nutter�s. Please???� He begged as he held my hands.
�Ok but �s also joining me!� I looked at and winked.
�Alright ladies, see ya and I�ll pick you up at half 7 on Saturday!� He said and walked away.
�He�s sweet y�know that!� added.
�Aw you like him?�
�No way I�ve got remember?!?�
�Mmmm�.O.K,�
�Anyway I gotta getting going, back to class, catch ya round after school!� kissed my cheek and went away, leaving me sat there alone in the canteen.
I was walking to my locker when I spotted coming over to me. I quickly turned on my heel, and walked as fast as I could in the opposite direction.
� please stop!!!� He called after me; I stopped but I didn�t reply.
�I�just�wanna�say�� He said, while trying to catch his breath.
�What? I don�t have time, come on quick!�
�Alright let me breathe first! I want to invite you to my party this Saturday, I really hope you can come!�
�No promises, but I�ll try�� I said and walked off.

*****5 Hours Later*****

I was lying on my bed, silently, looking up at the ceiling, when I heard my mom come into my room and sit in my bed.
�Hi sweetie how was your day?� She asked as she stroked my hair, I got up and lay my head on her shoulder.
�Mom is there something wrong with me if I hate someone and love them at the same time?�
�Got problem�s in your love life then?� I only nodded.
�There�s a fine line between love and hate, Honey. Maybe, deep down, you really don�t hate that person, you�re just confusing it with Love��
�What do you mean?�
�Saying that you hate him is really just to show him that you don�t care about him but actually you do. You are just too proud to show it in front of him. You don�t really hate him, do you?� I shook my head, slowly.
�It�s normal pumpkin, now you better get yourself to bed. Don�t think about it too much!� She kissed my forehead.
�Thanks mom, you always know what to say. I don�t know what I�d do without you, I�d probably be lost,� I added and smiled watching her walked out of my room.
�Night sweetie and have a nice dream,� After she closed the door behind her, I tried to sleep but with no luck, my mind was somewhere else.
*~*

The following day I woke up earlier than usual. I took a long bath to freshen myself up. It was still early in the morning when I put on my uniform and combed my hair. I was ready at 7.30am. I went downstairs and made breakfast for myself. I saw my mom come into the kitchen still wearing her PJ�s.
�Hello mom!� I said, handing her a cup of coffee.
�Hello darling� and wow it�s surprising to see you awake this early!�
�Yeah I couldn�t sleep last night so I decided to get ready early,�
�Oh yeah your father called me last night�� She said as she put jam on her toast.
�So what?!?� I asked, not interested.
� he�s your father so please?�
�Yeah so what am I suppose to do then?� I asked. I was beginning to get upset, I didn�t want to hear about it.
�He wants to see you this Sunday,�
�NO WAY!!!�
�Yes you will see him on Sunday and that�s it!!!�
�Mom please, he�s a jerk! Don�t you know that?!?�
�Yes!� She started.
�Maybe he�s never been a good father to you but he loves you, and he never meant to leave us,�
�Mom, the last two years with him, was the worst years of my life and right now I�m blessed that he�s out of my life!!!� I yelled, I couldn�t control myself.
� !!! He apologized to me last night and we have decided to get back together, he�ll be staying here again, with us!!!�
�Oh yeah! And that makes it ALL better! I�m leaving!!!� I slammed the glass down and ran away, tears ran down my cheeks but I ignored them, I needed to let it all out. I walked along the streets but it was still early so I saw no body was there. I decided to sit on the park bench first. There I can cry my eyes out, I could allow the tears to run heavily through my eyes, down my cheeks.
�Why me?!?� I hid my face with my hands, and sobbed loudly into them.
�Take this,� Someone, a man, from the sound of the voice, handed me a handkerchief.
�Thank you,� I replied, wiping away the tears, I took a deep breath and gave the handkerchief back to the owner without looking up at him.
�Here�s your hanky. Thank you�� I added
�What�s wrong, ?� He asked politely, I looked up to find standing in front of me.
�What are you doing here?� I asked surprised.
�I was on my way to school but I saw you crying over here so I decided to ask what�s the matter. Is there anything wrong with that?� He replied innocently.
�No, I guess not. But could you just leave me here alone please?�
�No I�ll stay here with you!�
�What if I bunk from school, you better go to school before the lessons begin!�
�I�ll bunk with you, it�s so simple!�
�Alright so what do you want?�
�Tell me what�s happening with you, I�m so worried about you!� I looked at him confused, why was he acting so sweet towards me now? Did tell him what I had said earlier?
�It�s nothing I just got in a fight with my mom��
�Why�s that? As far as I know you really love her,�
�I love her but I just couldn�t understand why she forgave my dad after everything he�s done to us?!?�
�Look, , they love each other. Don�t you understand that???� He asked as he put his arms around my shoulder, I looked at him in the eye and shook my head.
�I don�t think I believe in a thing called love, love is hurt, it�s fake. Most of the time, it doesn�t exist!� I replied.
�Your mom forgave your dad because she loves your dad, and I�m sure your dad really wants his family back. He loves his family and sooner or later you have got to forgive him��
�Thank you for that, but I�m so curious as to why you are telling me about love and stuff?!? From what I can remember, you like messing around and teasing me, why are you acting differently, with me now?�
�It�s nothing though, I just�ah it�s really nothing believe me!� He smiled but he sounded nervous.
�Ok let�s go to school, I don�t want you to get detention because of me. Come on Mr. get off of your lazy butt!!!� I offered my hand and he took it. I helped him up; his hand still had a firm grip on mine. We stood there for a few minutes, our faces only millimeters apart. I could feel his warm breath brush gently over my face. His arms managed to wrap themselves tightly around my waist and I could feel my heart begin to pound, hard against my chest. I looked up at his face; my eyes traced every outline of his cheeks, his nose, his jaw line, and his lips. I could feel a sudden urge take over me, an urge to kiss him. I wanted to kiss him, I needed to kiss him. I felt his right hand stroke my cheek softly, tracing the outline of my cheek bone, before lifting my chin up, he moved his head closer but suddenly hesitated. I blinked a few times, keeping still but he only kissed my forehead.
�Let�s go to school or else we�re gonna be late!� He said and held my hand leading me in the direction of the school. I was stunned by the touch of his hand and I still couldn�t believe what had just happened. I was wondering why he didn�t kiss me on the lips, why he kissed my forehead instead? Maybe it�s true, he isn�t that interested in me. We stopped at the front of my locker, and loosened his grip from my hand.
�So see you at my party tomorrow night!� He said and left me.

*****Saturday*****

It was 9am when I woke up. As soon as I had managed to crawl out of bed, I made my way downstairs, I apologized to my mom last night and she said she knew that I would never leave home (Hey where am I gonna stay if I leave this house?) and she forgave me. As I neared the Living Room, I heard my mom speaking to someone. I continued to walk towards the Living Room and peeped my head throw the door. There was my mom and dad talking to each other. I couldn�t believe it! What the hell where they playing at?!?
�Hey sun shine, how did you sleep?!?� My mom stood up and kissed my cheek.
�O.K. I suppose,� I replied and rolled my eyes. I didn�t want to be civil, I wanted to scream my head off, to demand what he was doing in MY house, but I couldn�t do that to my mum.
� you�re all grown up! I missed you so much, sweetheart!� I could see the tears form in my dad�s eyes, as he moved towards me, enveloping me in a tight hug.
�Thank you,� I said, while trying to gently push him off.
�I�m sorry sweetie, I never meant to leave you and your mom. I know it was a stupid mistake and I promise it won�t happen again if you give me one more chance�� He said still hugging me.
�Yeah but please let go off me, I can�t breathe!� I protested, and he let out a small smile as he let go. I smiled back.
�So am I forgiven, sweetie?� My dad looked at me, with his sad, tired eyes. I looked around at my mom, she was holding her breath, waiting for my answer, and they both were. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
�I suppose so,� I shrugged,
�I just want you to know that you hurt me a lot, and it wasn�t easy, it�s not going to be easy.� I could see my mom smiling, tears rolling down her cheeks, my dad hugged me one more time.
�Thank you , I love you�� I smiled and hugged him back. That�s when I realized, maybe love wasn�t what I thought it was. Love was comforting, honest and wonderful.
*~*

That day I went shopping with my dad, my mom stayed at home cooking lunch for us. It was great shopping with him, and to be honest I loved it! I missed doing stuff like this, being able to go out with my dad, to be close to him again, and now I was able to do it. At lunch time we went home with loads of shopping bags in our hands, my mom got the door and helped us with them.
�Wow! You bought loads of stuff!� My mom said to dad as she gave him a kiss on the cheek.
�It�s not mine, it�s hers�� He pointed at me and I just giggled.
�Yes mom I need something new for tonight, if I�m allowed to go to my friends party, that is,� I looked at her, silently begging. I watched as mom and dad, looked at each other.
�Well it�s your night out then, but don�t be too late!� Dad warned me.
�I�ll sleepover at �s, is that O.K.?�
�Yes that�s ok sweetie! Look at you now, you�ve grown up to be a beautiful and smart young lady and we�re really proud of you and we love you�� Dad added and I hugged him.
�Thanks dad you�re the best!� I whispered in his ear. And do you know what? I actually meant it. The few months that he had been away were a healing time, a time which we all needed. Everything was better now, and it was going to stay that way. I knew it, mom knew it and so did dad.
�Alright let�s eat our lunch, I cooked your fave,� My mom said to me. I let go of my dad, we walked to the dining room and started to eat our lunch. After lunch, I phoned .
�Hello?� I heard her voice on the other end of the line.
�Hiya , it�s me!�
�Hey , what�s up?�
�Are you going to �s party tonight?�
�Yeah, I sure am, I can�t come with you and cos is picking me up, so I�ll just see you there?�
�O.K. that�s no prob sweetie! Bye see ya there and oh yeah can I sleep at yours tonight?�
�Sure!� Just as we hung up, I decided that it was time to get ready. I retreated to my room and raked through all the clothes I had bought today, trying to choose what to wear. After about half an hour, I decided upon the baby pink, strapless, bias cut dress, it was gorgeous. I then took a long bath, soaking in all the gorgeous smells of my bath bomb, before rushing back into my room, to dry my room. Just as I applied the last coat of lipgloss on my lips, I heard my mum knock on the door.
�Sweetie can I come in?�
�Sure mom, wait a minute!� I went to the door and opened it for her.
�Wow! , you look gorgeous. There won�t be a guy at that party who�ll be able to resist you,� she smiled.
�Thanks but I doubt it,� I blushed.
�How come?�
�It doesn�t matter,� I shrugged
�Aw come on! Don�t be like that. Now let me put the finishing touches to your make up,� She added and smudged a tiny bit of blusher onto my cheeks.
�Mom it�s too much!�
�No, you look beautiful, babe!�
�O.K., I trust you, now, where�s my bag and shoes?� I asked while my mom picked the shoes up put of the box on my bed.
�Here put them on!� Just as I put my shoes on, I heard my dad shout my name from downstairs.
� , there�s someone waiting for you!!!�
�Ok wait a minute, I�m on my way!!!� I shouted back.
�Mom are you sure I look O.K.?� I added, quickly.
�Yes darling, now, go and have fun!� She reassured me and kissed my cheek. I went downstairs and instead of , it was .
�Hi !!!� He greeted me with a smile. I had to admit, he really did have a sexy smile.
�Hi, ,� I smiled back, �I thought was gonna pick me up, not you��
� �s just sorting out a problem at the moment,� he shrugged
�So are you ready?� he added
�Mr. will you take care of my lovely daughter?� My dad joked.
�Yes don�t you worry Mr. I�ll take care of her, all night�� winked at him.
�Bye dad and have a nice night with mom!� I giggled and linked my arm with �s. As we sat in his car, driving to the party, I tried to make some conversation.
�So it�s going to be a crazy party then?� I asked him and he only nodded.
�Do you mind to elaborate?� I asked sarcastically.
�Well, Simple Plan and McFly are performing,� said, trying to keep a straight face. I knew he was taking the piss.
�Ah, you�re only kidding. But, how did you know that I love both of those bands?�
�Yes of course I know you like Pierre from Simple Plan and Harry from McFly. I don�t think there�s something I don�t know about you, ��
�So they�re gonna be there, then?� I couldn�t help myself. What if he wasn�t making fun?
�Unfortunately they�re busy at the moment, too busy to play at my little party. But why would I want Harry and Pierre to try it on with my girl�� He said and looked at me, I looked at him too, trying my hardest not to blush, and instead I just smiled.
When we got over there, the party had already started. Loads of people were there and the music was great!
�Nice party Mr. !� I said as we walked through the door.
�It�s only for you�� He replied slowly, but I didn�t hear what he said.
*~*

It was getting late and I was in heavily drunk. I had found a spot in the garden to sit, while nursing a sore head and trying my hardest not to be sick.
�Here you are!� said as he sat next to me.
�Here I am��
�Need more drinks, girl?�
�Yeah maybe, it was a great party oh no the best party alive!� I added.
�Here,� handed me another drink. We sat there till 2am when everyone was leaving, the both of us heavily drunk.
�It�s late come on get in�� helped me to stand up normally, and he sat me on the sofa.
�Thanks for that!� I said closing my eyes.
�Y�know what?� He asked.
�How the hell do I know, what?!� I heard him laugh a little at me.
�Y�know you look cute when you�re drunk!�
�And you too,�
�You look beautiful and it�s true ��
�Sure just say what you want to say about me!�
�Are you too drunk to talk about something???�
�No, I�m still alive!� I opened my eyes and saw sitting beside me looking at me deeply.
�Where�s the others?!?�
�They�re gone��
�Just both of us now?�
�Yes why?�
�Oh I hate you!!�
�Yes I know you hate me,� He said he was still smiling. I began to pull myself up, off the sofa.
�How did you know that I hated you?�
�Because I felt it, I hate myself for��
�For what?!?�
�Nothing, it doesn�t matter. So why d�ya hate me?!?�
�I don�t hate you . I just hated the guy who teased me, and the guy that walked up to me a day ago, the one who stood in front of me without doing anything�� I said looking at his eyes, he smiled and put his arms around my waist.
�Can you tell me what that guy did to you?�
�He just came a bit closer, and that�s it!�
�Like this???� He took a step closer to me.
�Yeah�� I could barely talk. My breath had caught in my chest and my heart was thumping.
�Was that guy supposed to do this?� He bent down and kissed me softly.
I felt his lips brush over mine, as I closed my eyes and put my hands on his neck. The kissed got deeper the longer it went on. He pushed me down onto the sofa, gently, and started to unzip my dress but I pushed him off.
�No, no, no�� I started.
�That guy was supposed to do that, but I think, he was too scared, too chicken�� He kept kissing my body all over.
� , stop it!� I said. I pushed myself up off the sofa and began to pace around the room.
�I�m sorry. It�s, just�I� I thought you felt the same�� He looked at the ground while fidgeting with his thumb.
�I�oh come on tell me what�s wrong with you?� I said and sat next to him.
� I love you and I thought you loved me too��
�You love me?!?�
�Yes I love you. I have done for a long time, before the rumor about you fancying me. Remember, the other day, when I told you that guy was too chicken to tell you the way he really felt about you, well that guy was me�� He took a deep breath.
�I�ve always loved you and I�ve been waiting for a moment like this for, what seems like, a lifetime�� I smiled as I watched him say it. He was too cute, his eyes were locked on mine, and I believed him.
� don�t you know how much I love you too?!?�
�Well if you love me and I love you what are we waiting for???� He replied cheekily.
�No. First, you�ve got to teach me how to be a good kisser,� I winked at him.
�Well, I will take great pleasure in helping you with that!� He scooped me up in his arms and carried me through to his bedroom and dropped me on his bed.
�So�� I gave him a cheeky smile and his eyes just seemed to flicker, brightly.
�Just do it like this!� He licked his lips and started kissing me again. He gently pressed his lips against mine, and the kiss that had began as a soft, shy, touch turned into a powerful, passionate one. His hands ran all over my back searching for my zipper, my hands did the same.
�That�s one way to do that...� said, gasping for breath, as our lips parted.
�Yeah...� I whispered softly.
�Ready for the next one?� He winked as he turned off the light.
�Guess I am�� I replied seductively, just before he kissed me again.