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Part 1

The awkward silence that fell upon the room was unbearable it kept happening this awkward silence didn�t he love me anymore? I tried talking it over with him asking if I�d done something wrong or if he didn�t love or fancy me anymore but I got the same reply �no Hun you haven�t done anything wrong, I still fancy you and I love you to pieces� but somehow I wasn�t convinced I wouldn�t ask anymore about it I was afraid of an argument happening afraid of loosing him
�Are you ok� I asked him
�Fine� he replied with no tone to his voice I got up and left the room left him to ponder in his own world as he�d obviously forgotten the world we used to share laughing and joking now it was full of quietness and for me loneliness he just couldn�t open up to me anymore�

Let me explain this better
My names and I�m supposed to be the girlfriend of but it seems he�s forgotten me and yes I do mean the from the famous boy band Blue I love him like there�s no tomorrow but it seems he�s the one forgetting about me or maybe he�s found out my secret�? No he couldn�t have could he? Surely not
�I�m going to see � I told and left the house not waiting for a response from him I got to �s house

�Heya Hun� she said as she answered the door
�Hey� I said with no expression she let me in and I walked into her kitchen and sat at the table while she made a cup of coffee for us both
�Still no change with ?� she asked handing me my coffee
�Nope still the awkward silence� I replied sighing
�I don�t know why he�s acting like this I mean what have I done wrong?� I asked
�Nothing not to my knowledge anyway� she replied
�Yeah but it�s so strange I mean you know what we used to be like� I said looking at
�Yeah so loved up and always talking to each other� replied
�Yup exactly now it�s like talking to an annoying parrot that�s lost its voice� gave me a strange look
�you know he repeats things like when I ask him if I�ve done anything wrong he says I haven�t or if he still fancy�s or loves me but he says he does� I said hoping got what I meant
�Yeah I can see what you mean� replied
�You think he knows?� asked
�Knows what?� I asked
�That you like a little bit� asked
�I don�t know or he could just still be hung up about us loosing the baby� I said
�Yeah but it was tough for him and you when that happened and he shouldn�t just be all ignoring you and stuff no one can stop a miscarry� said I nodded
�Yeah I know well I�m sure I�ll find out some day why he�s being like this� I said as I drank the rest of my coffee
�Well Hun I�m gonna have to love ya and leave ya� I said getting up
�Thanks for that chat I really needed it� I said hugging her
�No problem that�s what friends are for� replied
�Bye Hun�
�See ya� said as she shut the door

I slowly walked back to mine and �s house I went into the living room and sat down on the edge of the sofa
�Hi � I said
�Hey babe� he said jumping and a photo dropped from his hand I didn�t dare go and pick it up and neither did
�I�m going out for a bit� he said getting up and slipping on his jacket that was on the back of the sofa
�Be back soon� I said as he left the room and went out the door with no goodbye kiss like he usually did I slowly got up and picked up the photo that had dropped from �s hands minutes earlier it was the first baby scan I had I remembered that day and I both had tears of joy in our eyes when we saw our baby on the monitor tears welled in my eyes as I took the photo and put it back in the small wooden box that belonged in the bedroom upstairs I took the box back and put it on the dressing table neatly I sunk back slowly on the bed and began to cry as I sat up with my legs crossed if only I hadn�t lost our baby and I would be happy he�d probably have his hands on the bump that would have formed by now if it wasn�t for them thugs that attacked me our baby would still be growing inside of me and we�d be happy
� � came �s voice he was stood at the bedroom door looking at me had given him a spare key as had stayed here a few times when he�d had a row with girlfriends or something like that
� what you doing here?� I asked him
�Well I came to see you I saw in the local pub on his own just staring at his pint and I knew you�d be alone and I�m alone and bored but I didn�t expect to come in and find you crying what�s the matter?� asked as he sat down next to me
�It�s he�s acting strange he keeps ignoring me and today I found him staring at the baby scan doesn�t love me anymore he�s neglected me because I lost our baby� I said crying into �s shoulder I liked the feeling of being in �s strong muscular arms I hadn�t felt this secure in ages
�Shh it�s ok babe� said rocking me gently
�You really think it�ll be ok� I said sniffing and wiping my tears away.

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I looked down at this sweet innocent angel who was crying on the bed as I entered and �s room I got into the house because I had a spare key in case of getting into rows with girlfriends and wanting to escape the drama of it all I spoke with as she cried into my shoulder my arms around her had been neglecting such a beautiful women as her it seemed so surreal
�Shh it�s ok babe� I said rocking her gently
�You really think it�ll be ok� said sniffing I pulled back and looked into her deep penetrating Blue eyes my head moved closer to hers as our lips brushed each others and a passionate kiss arose from it I�ve been wanting to kiss her for so long and by the feeling of passion from her kiss I think she has been wanting this as much as me she led back onto the bed pulling me down with her as we kept on kissing till we heard the front door slam and someone running up the stairs�

Part 2

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I quickly broke away from and began to talk as normal to her
�So you coming out clubbing tonight?� I asked her as entered the room
�I�m not sure you going clubbing tonight� asked him
�No I�ve got something I wanna watch on TV� replied
�Oh football match?� asked him
�Yeah Arsenal verses Manchester United� replied
�Right, well do you mind if I go out clubbing with then?� asked
�No you go don�t let me hold you back anyway I don�t want you to be bored cos I�m watching football� replied smiling at her
�Ok thanks Hun� she said jumping up and kissing on the cheek
�Is there something wrong?� asked noticing �s tear stained face
�No, nothing why?� asked
�Cos you�ve been crying is it something I�ve done?� said looking at her with concern
I�m surprised his even noticed that the way he�s been acting lately
�No just erm hormones� said quickly nodded
�Well I�ll pick you up at 8 yeah?� I told as I left the house
�Yeah sure bye � she replied as I she shut the door
Great I was going to be alone in a club with but nothing could happen surely the paparazzi would be around to snap us but I want her so bad why does have her he doesn�t even treat her right he doesn�t deserve such a kind loving young girl like her I looked at the watch on my wrist 3 hours till I had to pick her up and try to fight my feelings for her again�

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�What was doing in our room alone with you?� asked me coldly
�Nothing you know he has a spare key well I was up here putting back the wooden box that contained the baby scan you were staring at before I came back from �s I�m sorry I lost our baby but nothing can change that but what it has changed is you, you hate me now so why don�t you just admit it� I said getting angry
�I DON�T HATE YOU, I LOVE YOU JUST OH FORGET IT�� shouted and went out the door slamming it fiercely I sighed angrily as I stormed up the stairs and went into my room deciding what to wear tonight�

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What have I done now I just upset when I really shouldn�t have she�s done nothing wrong well accept for liking in a different way she thinks I didn�t see them kissing but I did I saw them when I first entered the room but I backed out again pretended I hadn�t seen anything it could have been a harmless mistake I mean I haven�t exactly been kind to her lately not since she lost our baby why can�t I accept that there�s nothing on this earth to change that it�s getting to me so bad that my love for is turning into hate and mistrust I reached �s house and knocked on the door
�What you doing here � she asked playfully
�Nothing much just had a row with over nothing basically and I need someone to talk to and I thought no one better then you I would have gone to but I went home and found him and kissing on our bed they don�t know I�d seen them though� I told
�You wanna get even� asked shuffling up closer to me on her sofa
�No of course I don�t two wrongs don�t make a rig�� I was cut off by kissing me I don�t know why but I kissed her back and I enjoyed it I wanted more from her kiss�