Heart's Desire

By: Haruka-chan

AN: I watched Digimon for a while, and thought about writing this for a long time, so now I am finally down to writing it. It's Hikari and Ken fic, I think they are cutest couple other then Hikari and Yamoto. Anyways this about 8 to 9 years later, they are 20. Well Kari is 22 and Ken is 24, and there is the whole gang and new people. I can't really explain this story, so just read it and tell me what you think!

Chapter 1: Wonder of a New Life

At Hong Kong Hospital, it was around the holidays did everything became hectic, with doctors who were taking a break, families wanting to spend time with the patients, and everyone was just hyped on eggnog.

A girl with black hair and bright green eyes walked into the office and looked to the other young woman who sat there working hard on her last report for the night. "Hey Kari what you doing this Christmas?"

The young woman in question with the light brown hair, and warm brown eyes looked up, taking out the pen, which she was biting on before she could talk, "Hmmm? Oh? Huh? What did you just say Jen?"

"What's up with you Kor?" asked Jen folding her arms over her chest, "...You have been out of it I mean you are really distracted by something."

"Nothing I was thinking about the Christmas party back home with my brother, sister-in-law and my friends,” said Kari with a smile, of course she’ll never tell Jen that she was also wondering of other things ‘and him I'll see him again and this torture will just go on. Will I be able to tell him this time?’

Jen flipped her black hair back and push up her glasses, "Oh you seem real excited!" rolling her eyes, “what’s really bothering you.”

Kari rubbed her eyes before she looked at Jen, "I wish...I was...I guess I'm just tired oh by the way James called me and asked me to tell you that he will be picking you up at 5:00 which is in about 5 minutes from now."

"Oh my god Kor you could have told me sooner you know!" said Jen as she scrabbled of her seat and started to gather all her things. “Gee Kari you’d think you’d remember things like this for someone who hasn’t even reached twenty eight yet!”

Kari smiled as she stuck out her tongue in a childish manner, "Oh Hey Jen."

"Yeah?" asked Jen still throwing things into her bag.

"Merry Christmas" said Kari throwing Jen a box wrapped in blue wrapping paper and gold ribbon around it.

"Thanks Kor" said Jen stuffing the present in to her bag and giving Kari a quick hug. "Oh yours is in your left drawer.”

"Thanks Jen" said Kari getting up with her papers.

It has been like this since she started her job there at Hong Kong General Hospital, she would have never guessed in the past that she would be a doctor but a lot of things are different now at least for her it is, with everyone else it's the same Tai, Sora, and Matt had worked out their little love triangle at the end Sora decide that she loved Tai and they had gotten married as soon as they started their jobs and the news is out that Sora is going to have a baby, and Matt well he’s traveling with his band for the summer and still studying. Mimi and Joe had become a couple about 3 years ago and are going to get married over Christmas. Izzy still smart as ever had started to work for NASA and has been dating this other digi-destin name Lina she is really pretty, they are going to get married over summer.

Davis has moved on and found his true calling playing soccer and dating Rita a friend of Lina who also happened to be a digi-destin. Cody who was now in his final year of collage is studying the martial arts, and soon to become a big scientist was seeing this girl that again Lina has hooked him up with, you’d think she had a lot of pretty friends just waiting for a boyfriend. Yolie and an unknown person were going to tell us some special news but other than that she was now a successful businesswoman and T.K well he didn't like the fact that she didn't love him but still he was sweet enough to let her go and let her become what she is. Just like his mom he choose to be a reporter for a very famous news station, and that one person she hasn't got any word of well she wouldn't know what had happen to him.

Everyone had stayed with what he or she wanted to be and what he or she was going to be except her. She was always the first to arrive and always the last to leave, it has become a life long habit she was now 22 she had studied hard and had became a doctor, her everyday life was lonely and sad at least that's what Jen had said to her, but what can she do if she was and still is in love with the same man from 12 years go, nobody knows how she really feels, she wears a mask for her friends every time she visits but not much longer can she just put on a mask and cry all night.

Things would have to change, because the one that she was hurting was herself, she was confident sure but rejections hurts so much more when it’s from the one person you loved all your life, it’s putting a whole another meaning to the word ‘crush’ because it’ll kill her faster, considering she was slowly dying now.

At L.A. Community Hospital, how strange that around this time the number of benefits that takes place there at the hospital, parties on parties, and the patients seem to be as busy or holiday hyped as anyone around the world, only difference was the weather, there is Los Angeles the temperature was about seventy degrees, the probability of a white Christmas was low, but not impossible.

"So doctor what you think, is she going to be ok?" asked a woman in her early 30's looking through the glass of the door at the young girl who was in the room with an IV stuck to her arm.

"She is going to be fine don't worry about her I want to keep her over night just to run some tests and make sure she’s ok" said a young doctor in his early 20's.

"Oh all right is it ok to see her now?" asked the woman.

"Yes it is go on in, just don't stay too long" he said with a smile as the woman smiled back and nodded before going into the room. He pushed some of his dark hair out of his blue eyes and walked into the lounge to find one other doctor who seemed to be taking a break.

"Hey" he said looking up from his video game.

"Hey John what's up?" he asked looking at the other man with the blonde hair and amazingly bright hazel eyes.

"Hey Ken" said John.

"So what's up?" asked Ken looking up from his papers.

"I just had one of those moments that you want to forget,” said John as he poured himself a cup of coffee.

Ken just looked at him, "Mrs. Harmony?"

John nodded, "The woman is crazy I wonder how that little girl could even stand her, I mean maybe she asked to get sick so she can have a stress free x-mas for once."

Ken chuckled as he took a sip of his own coffee, "Well I feel for you man, but can't help you."

"Hey Ken what you doing for Christmas?" asked John suddenly.

"I'm going home to visit my friends, a lot of surprises I'm going to be an uncle soon" said Ken with a small smile.

"Your sister is having a baby?" asked John.

"No, well she is like a sister I have spent most of my life with them so they are family" said Ken.

"Cool you don't mind if I tag along do you?" asked John in a hopeful voice.

"What about Catharine?" asked Ken with is eyebrow raised.

"She and I broke it of, I couldn't stand her telling me what to do..." said John.

Ken didn't say anything, he learned a long time ago not to ask of other people’s business especially if it was John and his girlfriends.

John continued "...I mean she basically told me what to do every minute of my life I was with her and she just keeps talking about her friends she's a self-centered bitch."

"Oh well if you want you can come along but have to warn you, all my female friends have boyfriends and whatever you do stay away from Lina, Izzy's girlfriend she has friends that she pull out of nowhere, and tries to hook them up" said Ken.

Johan started laughing "Wow, this will be an exciting Christmas, but you never know one of them might leave their boyfriends for me."

"I doubt it these people knew each other since they were five and have been growing up together since, and all the girls have come to love one or the other guys is romantic way except one she has never felt for any one that way" said Ken looking towards the picture which sat on his table.

"Great if that one comes I'll make her mine, from the pictures I saw all your friends are hot especially that one name Hikari" said John.

Ken's heart gave a weird ache that name always did that to him, the one that got away.

"Hey Ken when are you leaving for home?" asked John.

"Tonight" said Ken gather up this things.

"WHAT?!" asked John almost dropping his coffee, "How am I going to pack in time for the plane?"

"Wow I had no idea you were the gay type,” said Ken with a light chuckle.

"What?! Shut up just because I want to look presentable doesn’t make me gay! What time do I have to be at the air port?" asked John pulling his white lab coat off.

"By 6:30 the plane will leave at 7. Seen you than I got something I have to take care of" said Ken going through the door. Ken walked slowly down the steps with a lot of thought ‘what if John did make his move on her would she go with him? Would she? Or would she just go on living her life as if nothing is missing she thinks she can fool people with her stupid mask, doesn't even notice that I have seen her cry at night...cry herself to sleep, I bet she never thought that I wanted to hold her and know what was wrong, no of course she doesn't she is Kari the light there can be no darkness in her life, she was my light.’

Ken than finally walked out of the building and in front of his car when someone tapped him on the back. "Hey Ken can you give a ride?" asked a girl with black hair pulled in to a bun and she had brown eyes, had on a pink suit.

"Sorry penny can't I have to get home" said Ken.

"Come on Ken I didn't bring my car today" said Penny.

"Sorry I think you better wait till John gets here I really have to get home and finish packing" said Ken and got in to his car.

"Packing? For what?" asked Penny.

"I'm going away home to visit my family for the holidays" said Ken.

"Oh and I had such plans for us" said Penny.

"Bye Penny see you in two weeks" said Ken and drove of, "Thank god" he turned on his CD player the hard rock flowed through his car, his mind on only one thing, ‘This is going to be a very interesting Christmas, I’ll make sure of it.’

The airport was filled with people Ken hadn't really expected to have this much people as he was walking he bumped in to someone with John behind him. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to hit you."

"It's all right I think I should have looked where I was g-" she started but didn't finish but just stared at Ken's face and so did Ken but was broken when they heard their names.

"Hey Ken, hey Kari" said the group walking up to them.

Ken helped Kari up he couldn't believe his eyes she had grown so much she was tall about 5' 7'' her hair was up to her waist and she had 'developed' a lot since their last meeting, she was stunning with her bright brown eyes, they seemed a little more reserved since the last time, but wonderfully beautiful nonetheless.

"Hey you two it's so great to see you,” said Sora throwing her arms around Kari with her big tummy.

"Hey Sora! Oh look my niece or nephew is in there,” said Kari rubbing Sora's belly.

Sora giggled and hugged Kari again, as they all greeted and hugged, it really had been too long since they last saw each other.

"Hey your that cute friend of Ken’s" said John.

Kari blushed "umm, and who are you?"

"I am John,” said John with a grin and extending his hand towards her.

"I suppose you already know my name" said Kari taking his hand.

"Come on introductions later, we have to go" said Mimi.

Kari looked around all the faces, "Hey where is Matt?"

"I thought he was going to be late,” said Yolie with a smile.

"But he told me he was going to be here tonight" said Kari.

Sora smiled at Kari, "Maybe he's late, you know Matt sometimes he loses track of time."

Kari nodded when she felt arms encircle around her waist, and someone’s chin lean against her shoulder.

Ken was shocked but made no indication of it, why make a scene and have his plans ruined now? And he was sure there was a reason as to why he was holding his Kari in that manner.

Kari turned and smiled she knew his scent from anywhere, "I'm glad you made it on time."

Matt grinned "So did I almost thought, you guys were going to leave without me."

Tai came from behind Sora, "Is something going on between you two that I should know about?"

Kari and Matt laughed so he didn’t change each time they came to visit. "Come on let's go" said Matt taking one of Kari's bags.

Ken couldn't believe it Matt and Kari? ‘I lost her for good.’

"Oh carp, there isn't enough space for all of us. Two of you have to take a cab,” said Mimi.

"I'll go" said Kari.

"Me too" said Ken at the same time.

"Great you two go and find yourself a cab.

"John you can come with us, give us a chance to know you better,” said Yolie.

John smiled and got in to the car.

Matt looked at Kari, "You sure you don't want me to go with Ken?"

"I'm fine go on, it's just an hour ride,” said Kari.

Matt nodded and got in to the car and waved.

Kari nodded and waved good-bye, "So let's go and find a cab,” said Kari turning towards Ken.

"Already got one,” he said with a small smile.

Kari nodded and got in. The ride was slow and quite.

"So you and Matt are dating?" asked Ken all of a sudden.

"Huh? Oh no 'not really' Matt was in my town when we meet up and started to spend some time together" said Kari.

"So you guys aren't dating?" asked Ken.

"I don't know what you call it, but no I'm not dating him,” said Kari.

Ken looked out the window, that wasn’t the answer he wanted because that just insinuated that they saw each other from time to time and slept together.

"So what have you been up to?" asked Kari.

"Me? Nothing much, you know doing the regular doctor thing,” said Ken.

"So is Penny your girl friend?" asked Kari.

"Huh? Penny? How do you know about her?" asked Ken.

"I...um I called you a few weeks ago and she was at your place and she picked up she said that you were busy" said Kari slightly blushing.

‘Kill Penny!’ thought Ken. "No she is a co-worker and an annoying one at that."

Kari laughed and soon Ken joined in, how they each missed that sound. How long has it been almost a year no five years since he last heard her laugh and at something he said.

"So how have you been?" asked Ken.

"I have been all right, things have been getting kind of boring until Matt showed up, with him around I didn't feel as lonely with everyone here" said Kari.

Ken smiled ‘So it is him...’

"So how does life of a doctor feel like?” said Kari.

"I can't say I hate it but I like it so far, so many good people" said Ken.

"I feel the same way,” said Kari.

"What did you call me for, not that I mind you calling me?” said Ken.

Kari blushed "I was just being stupid and felt like talking to someone so I dialed your number."

"Why would you feel stupid calling me?" asked Ken.

"I guess I thought you would be bothered you know. But after I hung up with your friend Penny. I went out and ran in to Matt so I guess some good came from it" said Kari.

‘Definitely kill Penny!!!’ thought Ken. "I would never mind if you called me, actually it be a relief to know you're all right, I don't hear from you much as I do from others."

Kari's eyes went glassy, but she fought back the tears, "Yeah, that means a lot to me. Thanks."

"Anything new happened in the past 5 years?" asked Ken.

Kari laughed "No and you make it seem like it was so long ago" said Kari. ‘It felt like forever.’

Ken chuckled "I guess your right I do make it sound longer then it was."

"So are you thinking of settling down?" asked Kari.

"Settling down? I guess first I'll have to find the right one,” said Ken.

"I suppose your right,” said Kari.

"What about you?" asked Ken.

"Me I...I not sure what I want yet, but for now I guess I'm fine" said Kari.

"How true" he said under his breath.

"What?" asked Kari.

Ken smiled "nothing."

"So your young friend, how does he know me?" asked Kari. ‘Maybe you do talk about me.’

"I had a picture of all of us from the last time we met, and he instantly liked you and asked what your name was,” said Ken.

Kari giggled, "I guess I'm liked."

"You were always wanted and loved,” said Ken.

"You really think so?" asked Kari

‘Not by you’ she thought.

"Yeah, I'm sure,” said Ken.

"We're here,” said the cab driver.

"Great" said Kari looking through her bag for the money.

"I'll take this one,” said Ken handing the cab driver the money.

"You didn't have to" said Kari.

"What kind of a guy would I be if I let you pay?" asked Ken smiling.

Kari smiled as they stepped out of the car.

"Finally it's about time you two showed up" said Sora.

"There was traffic,” said Ken.

"So come on let's go up stairs. TK is probably waiting for us" said Yolie.

"Hey where is Izzy?" asked Kari.

"Oh he and Lina are arriving tomorrow, I hope she doesn't show up with one of her 'friends'" said Mimi.

Kari laughed and Ken smiled. "It has been so long that I haven't home" said Kari looking around.

Tai and Sora lived in a pretty big house due to their good fortune.

Tai put an arm around his sister and smiled, "It's been lonely without you."

"Yeah we felt so guilty without you missing individuals" said Sora.

"So Sora when is the baby due?" asked Ken.

"Funny you ask, it due some time in two weeks" said Sora with a smile.

"Oh I will get to see my niece/nephew,” said Kari.

"Yeah I'm going to write a song for her" said Matt.

"It's a girl?" asked Kari.

"That's what the doctor said,” said Sora.

"Oh I feel bad for that baby, with Tai as a father" said Kari.

Matt nodded in agreement, “Remember those years back when he used to threaten guys who asked you out.”

"He use to get mad when Kari and I went out" said T.K coming out.

"T.K!" said Kari.

T.K spread his arms for a hug. Kari laughed and hugged her once lover.

"It's been a long time,” said T.K.

"Yeah..." said Kari.

"Hey what you say to home cooked meal?" asked Mimi.

"Mimi you know how to cook now?" asked Matt.

Mini's eyebrows twitched, "Yes I can cook!"

Kari stifled a giggle on Matt's shirt, "I am sure she cooks great."

"Thanks Kari" said Mimi with dramatic teary eyes.

"Hey no fair you were on my side,” said Matt.

"Oh poor baby" said Kari ruffling his hair, and everyone laughed.

Ken smiled hiding this disappointment and resentment. Everything was going great for her, now he was the one left to cry to sleep.