Desire is the Death of all things

By: Haruka-chan

Chapter 3: The Obsidian Butterfly

“In the name of god, impure souls of the living deal shall be banished into eternal damnation.”

"Amen"

"All right men moved out," said Fargason.

Victoria looked back up the sky and said her own prayers, which was whispering her master's name. If she was honest with herself it was because of him she felt as if she was part of a group while doing the job.

"Get ready Victoria." She heard the commander say.

She looked towards the targets were nearing them, if she were human she couldn't have seen them from where they were stationed, but being a vampire made her stronger, her senses knee but her heart stayed with her; slipping a little each day. She pulled the trigger and saw the way it rushed towards the targets and hit their vital parts as they turned to dust.

"All right lets move to the next stations," said Fargason.

She knew that these men were honorable; they were good men who gave up their glory to work for a secret organization. Though sometimes a few have a thirst for glory and would do anything to get it, but they were always silenced. These men were happy and proud of what they did and the woman they served which brought her to Integral. Victoria had already been honest about her feelings for her master. The admiration she felt for him and if she were human she would know just what she felt and blush, but being a vampire changed all that. She knew that her respect surpassed that of just simple friendship, and he made her feel things. He fascinated her with his powers, his tricks, and his admiration for his master.

And again she was brought up. Theses men would do anything she asked; they would follow any order just as her master would. Victoria for a second wandered what made this particular woman high with respect. Even her master who could easily leave her stayed by her said, not only did he stay by her, he protected her, he raged over her and killed his own kind every night for her. Victoria was envious, very envious of this woman who made her backdrop bow down to her. She knew that her master respected her even more then he had respect for his own kind, the two of them seem to know each other more then anyone else knew them, they understood each other and they even had conversations that she could never have with her master. He held such high regards for her. She was the "iron virgin" the one everyone looked up to whether they openly admit it or not.

"Master..." she whispered.

Integral stared out her window, "What's the status?"

"Well it seems that they are holding up, but the freaks are out of control," stated Walter.

"Very well, Alucard go and finish the job," she stated.

"As you wish Sir Integral," he stated.

"I have noticed that you have been quite restless these few days is something the matter Sir Integral?" asked Walter.

"Nothing..." she said not looking at him.

"I wish I was more of a help to you," he said.

"Thank you" she said.

"There is a interesting request for you to travel to India, it seems there have been some sighting of the undead there and the people are quite panicked, the Indian government has asked England personally to help out some pressing matters to sleep." said Walker handing her the letter. “The queen as requested that you see to this problem that was left behind for quite some time now.”

"I see the damn freaks have gone further then I originally thought," she said reading the letter over.

"It seems so, shall I prepare for your trip?" he asked.

"Yes" she stated.

"I realize this is personal for you" he said.

"No Walter this is business and nothing more" she said.

"Yes sir Integral" he said as he walked out of her office.

She continued to look out the window something about this letter didn't seem right. Why in India of all places and grave thieves? She knew of vampire who feed of energy but from the dead? There were too many strange events. She looked towards the drawer that held her cigar. She pulled it open and looked down at the frame next to the case of cigars. "In Hellsing there is no room for anything personal."

"What useless scum you are" he said as he prepared his gun. "To become the undead and do stupid things," said Alucard now pointing his gun at the shaking vampires. "They don't make vampires as good as they used to" he said pulling the trigger.

The sound of their screams made him smile; it was music to his ears. He smirked and walked down the path where he saw the police girl run towards him with a smile. How ironic was it that the one longed for didn't return the feelings, yet the one you thought to hate you returned the feelings, which you didn't return. Human emotions where just to confusing yet what he felt for his dear master were human emotions. He gave up being human, and he thought with that he gave up his human emotions as well but it seems she bought out many sides to him.

"Master" she said looking up at him with admiration.

He smirked at her. "Good job tonight police girl" he stated before he was off in his own way.

"Master..." she whispered.

Of course she knew where he was going, it wouldn't surprise her in a thousand years if he went to her to boast his accomplishments, but maybe his cocky attitude was more towards Sir Integral, for her to notice him, and accept him. Seras wondered if in fact Integral has accepted him.

He returned and watched as she work on her. This was hardly new to him, he watched her inundate for a decade doing it every night. He almost felt sorry for her. He saw a little girl trapped in a woman's body trying her best to prove to everyone she was all grown up and could take care of herself. It was her will power and her temper that attracted her to him. He watched her even before she knew of his existence, maybe at one point he wanted to hurt her to be free, but now he wanted nothing to harm his master. He slowly crept in to her mind where there always seem to be a war raging with what she felt and what she needed to do.

"India?"

"Why there of all the damn places?"

"God what a night"

"Get out Alucard!"

He smirked she knew when to stop him. "May I ask why you seem so distressed?"

She pretended as if their conversation from a couple of nights ago didn't happen, but it didn't leave her mind. "I have a job for you."

"What freak can I get rid of for you?" he asked.

"I need you to accompany me on a trip" she said turning her chair to face the windows.

"To India?" he asked.

"Yes. It seems that there are some vampiric activities taking place there, not only is there a feeding frenzy but it seems that there are grave raiders as well. Some of the freaks absorb the energy of those who were buried and others eat the flesh of the people."

"Interesting" he said.

"Walter is preparing for our trip," said Integral.

"You don't want to go?" he asked.

She said nothing as she stared down at her desk. "I have much work to finish," she said as if to say that is all your getting so now leave.

"What have you done with that wonderful gown?" he asked.

"I told Walter to burn it, I never want to see it again," she stated simply. “My compliments to the queen of course, but I have no need for it anymore.”

"Your charming" he said. “I wonder if the queen would think so too.”

"And your not now that we have gone over the introvert parts of ourselves could you please leave me be?" she asked irritated.

"Have you decided on answer for me and yourself?" he asked.

"What nonsense are you talking about now?" she asked.

"I know you haven't forgotten," he said.

"No matter what you threaten me with I am still your damn master and you will obey me! I don't have to answer to you nor do I intend to!" she exclaimed standing up and slamming her hands down on the oak table.

He laughed, "That's more like it."

"Alucard don't test my patient tonight!" she yelled. "Now get out!" She heard him laughing before she could no longer see or hear him.

They were ready to leave with in two days, they arrived to a beautiful area, and it was in late march the season for spring in India, the climate high and humid and the breeze cool to balance. India had 35 states all of which had small districts some of the states larger then others while others barely showed on the map. She was heading towards one of those states, the state of Goa where the forest was one fourth of the smallest state. There were plantations for nuts and beaches are said to be the attraction for tourists.

‘Maybe that’s why the freaks are down there to bask in the sun’ thought to Integral with a small snort. ‘this tourist will make cleaning up harder.’

Goa's climate is generally moderate although humidity is high. Goa has a heavy rainfall during the monsoon months. The Helicopter landed on a very grasses area just 50 meters from the manor in which she was to stay. Beautifully maintained and spacious mansion, marble floors, imported teak wood, rooftop terrace and a second floor balcony overlooking the property. It was quite the view and much to her liking.

She saw someone rushing towards her with a look of expectation.

"Integral Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing?" a man of 28 asked, he was tall and dark and looked as if he worked hard in the sun most of the time, he had black curly hair and dark brown eyes at first glance he looked as if he was only 12 with his trusting eyes.

"Yes" Integral answered.

"I am Vikram Singh I am to be your caretaker. It is a pleasure to meet you Miss. Hellsing," he said bowing his head down.

"Yes, I am to understand that the man who has sent this letter is the owner of the manor?" she asked.

"Yes, but my master had a prior engagement so he will not be joining you tonight" said the man called Vikram.

"I see," stated Integral.

"Sir Integral shall we unload your things?" asked Walter.

"Mr. Singh is there a basement in the manor?" she asked

"Yes" he nodded as he watched solider bring out the coffins. "What are those?" he asked.

"Not to worry," said Walter with an assuring smile.

"How peculiar that your master isn't here" she said narrowing her eyes on the area.

"He told me to look after you and your company, so that you lack nothing," said the servant.

"Very well I suppose I will wait for him till he returns tomorrow." She said looking around finding the area quite green and beautiful.

"Please follow me in," said the man pointing to the manor.

"Yes Of course" she said following him and Walter behind.

They walked into the manor. It was beautiful inside and almost comfortable more or less as if she was back at home.

Walter stood in front of the helicopter "Not to worry Sir Integral I will take care of everything until you get back" he said with a assuring smile.

"Yes I hope we can get to the bottom of this, but until then we will keep in touch" she said looking at the only other man she trusted with her life.

"I hope to see you very soon" he said as he got on with the rest of the soldiers.

Integral watched as her trusted protector left the ground and soon sight.

"I know that you must be hot here so it would help to dress lightly," stated Vikram from behind.

Integral turned and nodded at the man. "Yes thank you for the advice" she said.

"You have to excuse me, but I have never met an English woman before" he said.

"Well then I'm sorry that I have to be your first" she said as she started to walk toward the manor. There was just something about him that bothered her.

"Shall I make tea for you?" He asked catching up to her.

"Thank you that would be nice" she said taking out the case of cigars from her suite's pocket and lighting one. She looked to her right and saw Vikram look at her with awe and slight surprise.

"I suppose you have never seen a woman smoke a cigar before," said Integral.

He laughed, "No you must excuse me, you see you don't see a lot of that here," he said.

"I'm sure," she said.

"Would like a tour of the house?" he asked.

"I would like to be shown to my bedroom" she said.

"Yes right this way" he said showing her up the stair.

Nightfall came fast as she awaited the time that she would see her insubordinate vampire and his alacrity pet. Something about this place made her feel as if things weren't, as they seem to be. She let out the smoke and watched it disappear into the night. The scream from below told her that Victoria was up and Alucard was soon to follow. She stood putting out the cigar and walking downstairs.

"Look I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you" Victoria tried to explain the glaring shot gun holding man.

"It's all right she is with me" said Integral.

"But I didn't see her with you this afternoon" he said.

"She is an officer of mine" Integral.

"What?" asked Vikram.

"Look you see Hellsing," she said showing off her badge.

He finally relaxed and nodded. "I'm sorry I'm just very alert for Miss. Hellsing's sake the darkness is a perfect time for those creatures to walk free" he said. "It's nice to meet you I'm Vikram Singh" he said smiling at Victoria.

Victoria sighed and looked at Integral who seemed to be uninterested in what she was going to say. "I'm Seras Victoria."

"I will prepare dinner," he said walking through the door even before Victoria could say anything more.

"It's about time you woke up Alucard" Victoria heard Integral state. Then the room filled with laughter.

"It's always a nice thing to wake up and smell your blood master" he said.

Vikram came into the room again with the shotgun. "Be gone evil spirit!" he yelled shooting at Alucard.

"Dear god" muttered Integral.

"Master!" yelled Victoria. "Mr. Singh please stop shooting, he isn't any harm to you!" exclaimed Victoria.

"Really Alucard you don't have to frighten the host" stated Integral.

Vikram stopped as he watched Alucard smile up at Integral, and saw her talking to him.

"Alucard stop wasting time and follow me," she said turning to go back to her room.

Vikram looked on shocked as the 'creature' followed the Hellsing woman.

"You must excuse my master he doesn't mean to be trouble," said Victoria bowing before the stunted man.

"You must be more careful these people are easily threatened," she said.

"Hmm are they?" he asked smiling at her.

"Alucard this isn't a joke for you I would like you to keep from acting like your eccentric self" she said.

He watched as she sat behind the desk and look down at the papers. "Your feel something is uncanny here do you not?" he stated as if he knew just how she felt, and maybe in a sense he did.

"I find it hard to believe that the man would just leave for a prior engagement when he was expecting guest" she said. "I have a minor job for you" she said looking at him.

"What would that be?" he asked sitting down on the four-poster bed that was covered with sheer white curtains that were drawn back. He noticed that the room was very large with many windows that were adored by sheer white curtains that were blowing with the breeze. The ceiling held a small yet elegant chandelier. There was everything needed for a young woman but then in that sense his master would have little use of such a room. He chuckled as he watched her sitting behind the desk glaring her head off. "What a suitable place for you" he stated looking around the large room.

"Alucard I didn't wake you so you could tell me what room is suiting for me," she exclaimed.

He laughed as he stood and looked at her "What can I do for you master?"

"Scout the area while I inquire with Vikram" she said.

"As you wish" he said as he elapsed.

She rubbed the space between her eyes. "God I feel as if I'm becoming too old to continue this." She said as she stood and tucked in her 38 calibers in her pant’s pocket.

Victoria watched Vikram pace back and forth mumbling things like a madman. She soon started to lose interest.

"He isn't going to harm you so you have nothing to worry about" said Integral.

"How could you let that thing come near you?" he asked.

"I had ten years to custom to it," she said.

"Ten years?" he asked shocked. "How do I know that it isn't you who have sent these creatures to our land when you have two for pets?" he asked rising his shotgun.

"It wasn't a choice to have them, but I have grown custom to them both, and she isn't my pet" said Integral.

"Then why is she here?" asked Vikram.

"She is the child of Alucard," stated Integral simply.

"How can I trust you?" he asked.

"They won't touch you, they have plenty to eat," she said looking towards the large freezer that was in the kitchen.

Vikram walked over to it and opened it to find medical blood filled to the brim. "When did this come in here?" he asked.

"When my soldiers dropped me off, that will last them months," stated Integral.

"I don't want to harm you if I wanted to it would be quite easy to but I want to know where your master has really gone" said Integral her gun in hand.

Vikram lowered his gun. "He has left two nights ago just after he heard that you were going to come to stay, he said he had a meeting and told me to look after you once you arrived, but he assured me he will be back in time" explained.

"You fear that he might have been taken by the vampires?" asked Integral.

"Yes, and I have no way of helping him, this part of the area is where they hid out for it's wooded and quite" said Vikram.

"I see," said Integral. "I'm sure we will find him," she said.

"I thank you, and I'm sorry for my out burst but I don't feel comfortable around them" he said.

"You will grow costume to them" she said.

"I will prepare dinner for you" he said.

Victoria watched as Integral kept her gun up the whole time while he had already lowered his, she was magnificent when it came to making people fall before her and do anything for her. Victoria would almost call her a diplomat if for the fact that it was her temper that attracted people. She watched as she opened the window and sat down on the chair.

"What did you find?" she asked quietly.

Victoria already knew it was her master she was speaking too and soon felt his presence slide past her to his master's side.

"Quite an interesting area you have chosen" he stated.

"You never seem to fail to act like a dunce," she said.

He laughed "I feel like a drunkard when I'm around you" he said.

"I'm sure," Integral muttered. "So what has you so elate?" she asked as she stood.

"I am positive that you will find this quite interesting," he said.

She shot him a quick warning before leaving the room and most probably towards her room.

"She must be worried," stated Victoria.

"No police girl she is excited," he said.

"Excited?" asked Victoria.

"Oh yes so very exited" he said laughing as he too disappeared.

She once again felt as if she was left out in the cold with their understanding of themselves.

Integral walked into her room. She was greeted with a cool breeze.

"It's so bloody hot,” she said.

"Then take of your clothing and you'll cool off" Alucard said with a smirk.

Integral glared "I'm not shameless as you."

Vikram went up to Integral's room to inform that dinner would be served in a few minutes when he saw the vampire and Integral talking he heard their conversation, and watched Integral with disgust and envy, it was as if the fact that she stood next to a corpse and it didn't bother her, yet she a woman stood up against a creature such as that with courage and no fear in her eyes, she even smart talked him. He watched Alucard walked towards her, Integral turned and walked towards the window looking into the deep forest, she felt Alucard's hands brush her shoulders.

"Maybe you should be a little shameless, it will teach you to take what you desire," he whispered his breathe touching her neck with intimacy.

She shook whether it was from his closeness or angry was up to the viewer, but her out burst supported the second opinion but then again it could have been both.

"How dare you?! You have been quite bold lately Alucard but that stops now!" she said before she pulled the trigger on his head.

"I do not appreciate you touching me, you will keep your place and remember that I am your master!" she said as she watched him pull himself back together.

He laughed, "You grow bolder each year, but don't forget that I own you as much as you own me" he hissed looking down at her.

"I'm not 13 any more so don't think that line will frighten me" she said.

"Nothing frightens you but your emotions that feeling inside that you have" he said.

"And since when are you my therapist?" she asked.

"I know everything about you," he said with a cocky smile.

"That's because you're a shameless leech!" she exclaimed.

"I was simply watching out for my master," he said.

"Alucard don't take me for a fool. I don't have to prove to you or anyone that I'm capable of taking on Hellsing, I'm far past that part of my life," she said sitting herself behind the desk and looking up at him.

"You don't move past anything they live in your dreams," he said.

"I suppose you know that part of me as well, really Alucard your too nosy for your own good" she said.

"I still can't get past that part of your mind, so strong willed, you really would make a great vampire," he said.

"We've discussed you brining up impossible issues," she stated.

Alucard leaned on her desk, "you and I have discussed many things master, none of, which will ever stand for neither of us," he said.

"Are you really that determined to be free?" she asked.

"Free from the curse yes, but to be free from you is a another matter completely. It is more of I will not let you free me from you" he said.

"Attached? I didn't think the great Alucard was attached to anything," she mocked as she laced her fingers and placed her chin on them.

"There is much that I am fond of master," he said before he disappeared.

Vikram couldn't believe the tension between the two. It was almost as if he had taken a glimpse of their world. He straightened and cleared his throat and knocked on the door before presenting himself.

"Miss. Hellsing dinner will be served in a few minutes please freshen up" he said.

"Yes thank you," said Integral standing to walk towards the bathroom.

He walked out closing the door when he was face to face with Alucard.

Alucard laughed looking at the frightened man. "Didn't your mother teach you not to eavesdropping on 'personal' conversations?" he asked.

Vikram said nothing as he walked down the stairs with a look of disgust. Who would have heard of such a thing, a vampire not wanting to be free himself from his master? He wondered what nut cases he was dealing with. "Master I hope you return soon" he whispered.

Dinner went by fast yet slow. Vikram watched Integral eat slowly and elegantly. Everything about her was elegant and proud, well maybe the part where she had vampires as pets isn't but she was beautiful and elegant nonetheless. He heard many stories from his master about the Hellsing organization, how they rid of evil creatures that drank human blood. He dreamt of meeting the 'man' behind the proud and powerful organization but now sat before him a woman. Yet this is the same woman who had no fear, if it were to be his sister she would have died running yet this woman wasn't afraid to shoot at the vampires if they were out of line. She was something he wished to be but he was the one wearing the apron and she the tie.

"There is a lake near by if you wish to cool of there," he said clearing the table.

"Thank you" she said again.

"I'm sorry that I'm such a coward," he said looking down.

"We're all afraid of something, some of us just had to over come that fear," she said standing and walking away.

"Master is everything all right with Sir Integral she seemed very angry with you" she said.

Alucard said nothing as he sat with his hat covering most of his face. He was honest, he was fond of many things such as her, and he was so very found of her. He yearned for her more now then ever. But she will never abate. He both admired her pride and also wrath it; it was that very pride that was tearing at her inside and she knew it, it was the same pride that kept her from him.

"Master?" asked Victoria.

"Police girl do you desire a man?" Alucard asked his ironically vivacious child.

"No...I mean...well it depends if I know him...and um why do you ask?" she looked at Alucard who sat smiling at her abrupt answer.

"I was simply wondering," he said before he disappeared.

"I do desire but I do not think it's meant to be" she said looking at the chair he had been sitting on.

Integral walked around the wooded area her gun in her pocket. It was quite beautiful, something she has never seen the trees seemed to speak with each other just as the birds which were still out. The parrots, peacocks, kingfishers, and herons their colors still very vibrant in the moonlight. She found herself enjoying this little adventure where she felt as if that child within her was finally able to enjoy herself. Integral smiled as she neared the water which ran clear and the moon made the fish scales glow silver. She stood in front of the water and could already feel the coolness against her skin. She found an oasis even if for an hour she could forget she was willing to put it out of her reach. Alucard stood on a tree as he watch the child come out she stood bearing her curious yes to the creatures of the forest. Integral's hands went to the buttons of her shirt. He watched her with hungry eyes as she slowly undressed…