Desire is
the Death of All Things
By:
Haruka-chan
Chapter 1:
Her Majesty
Ever
looked closely at a spider's web? Yes its beautiful, but what about the complex
patterns? Hard to believe that people are the same, well 'she' was. Her life was
full of all the things that made one great and all the things that made a woman
lost and lonely. She would shrug it all off, of course it was pride, and maybe
fear that made her go on the way she did. If you watch a spider, it hardly does
anything but what it is taught to do, what its ancestors left it to do.
She sat at
her desk as usual, not really interested in the paper works she still had left
to do. She turned her chair and looked towards the window. The dark clouded sky
was slowly being pushed away and the stars took on the stage to grace those who
cared to see it. She took a deep breath and picked up the pale cream envelope
that was elegantly decorated with the green monogramming.
"What
troubles the master tonight?" asked the monotone deep voice from the
walls.
"Nothing
that concerns you." Integral pulling out her much familiar box of cigars.
Alucard's
laughter filled the room, which statement alone gave him the ‘go’ he
needed to taunt her and entertain himself, "Come now master I am sure I can
help."
Integral
just ignored him and looked at the envelope, by now she was use to Alucard’s
nightly visits which involved his sardonic comment indirectly criticizing her
and asking her questions that led to dangerous perceptions.
"A
letter from her majesty, interesting what does she want you to do now? Perhaps
now she wants something practical like an eye or an ear, rather then your youth
and life." stated Alucard grinning.
Integral
glared at him showing him her anger and frustration, "Alucard tonight
isn't the best time to taunt me."
He
chuckled flashing his fangs in the most elegant and intimidating way, "But
that's where you're wrong, anytime is the best time to taunt you my
master."
Integral
turned away, her mind was clouded and he knew it, she asked herself,
"Should I attend or sit this one out like the rest?"
Alucard
picked up the envelope and pulled out the ivory card inside with its fancy
lettering. He grinned and looked towards his master. "What an interesting
invitation" said Alucard putting the card back in the envelope and then
placing it on her desk. “Will you accept?”
Integral
gave him a small glare before picking up the card and standing and walking
towards the door, "Don't follow Alucard, I don’t need your normal
conversations right now, if you must annoy someone go to your lover."
He laughed
and vanished through the walls, she often used that ‘lover’ phrase to refer to
Seras or as he called her the police girl.
She walked
towards her bedroom and then tossed the envelop on the table next to the
window. The soft knock on the door made her turn towards it. "Come
in."
"Lady
Hellsing" said Walter coming in with a sort of fabric in his arms.
Integral
took a deep breath and looked towards Walter, "Is that it?"
"Yes
my Madam, it is the dress you are to wear, according to the Queen." Walter
stated watching as his mistress’ face twisted into annoyance, but even he had
to wonder if she had forgotten her feminine beginnings when she used to run
around in skirts, and quite adorable looking dresses, but that was ten years
ago.
"Very
well leave me and have the car ready" said Integral as she watched Walter
place the black stain on her bed, walking over to it slowly. She held up the fabric
and inspected it, before stripping down and pulling the thing on. Looking at
herself in the mirror, she had to wonder why it felt so foreign to dress this
way. "Why would anyone go through such torment?"
"That
is something you must ask them then" said Alucard poking his head through
the wall, it was a wonder that his master wasn't afraid of anything and she
could endure all the pain, but putting on a simple corset was trouble some for
her, but it would be for anyone who has grown a custom to hating anything that
meant weakness in some small form, when he had first met her she was in a skirt
and it was after that night did she disregard herself as a female and took on
the role as head of Hellsing.
Integral
grabbed her gun and pointed at Alucard. "Didn't I tell you not to
follow?"
He nodded,
but then that same cocky grin was on his face once again, how he loved to watch
her eyes light fire.
She glared
and placed the gun on the vanity table, which she hardly ever used; why she had
the bloody thing was beyond even her. Looking back at her pet vampire she came
to the conclusion she didn't have time for his games. "Walter."
The elder
man walked in, the one Alucard called 'Angel of Death' it was very
interesting what this man was and what he was slowly becoming. Walter was the
living proof of the very thing that Alucard was trying to show his master,
trying to prevent her from.
"Yes
Madame?" he said.
"My
hair what shall I do with my Hair?" asked Integral, leave it to the queen
to ask her to accept her gift of a satin dress and to come to the ball for her
grandson’s coming-out dressed like a lady, it was as if her highness knew not
that she no longer dressed in that manner, how ever she was the queen Integral
would humor the woman.
Alucard
was a bit confused on his master's behavior tonight. Walter nodded as he
brushed her hair up for her, and did something to it as Alucard put it hair
dressing wasn’t his area of expertise.
Integral
stood and pulled on the black gloves handed to her by Walter. She looked down
next to the basket filled with make up. She sighed ‘It has to be done and
there isn't anything I can do about it.’
Alucard
smiled when his master was finally standing front of the mirror glaring at her
reflection, what a luscious piece of work she was.
He had to
admit that he always wanted to see his master in such a gown, where all her
beautiful curves were on display, with that came the thought so many others
will see her as well. He couldn't hid the fact that he wanted her for himself,
and the fact she had decided to accept her majesty's offer to meet with her and
her royal court for her grandson’s coming-out party was enough to pin her to
the bed and not let her go. He couldn't think what he might do if another man
looked at her with lust.
‘She's
mine just as much I am hers’ he thought as possessiveness roared through
him like a hot energy he got from drinking one's blood. It was true he hadn’t
wanted a human mate for a couple of centuries, with time comes an understanding
to what desires would bring better outcomes, and which will not. And what, no
who he wanted now was Integral; his need to break and make her had a revolution
around his action.
"Is
the car ready?" Integral asked still wanting to rip the damned dress and wash
the most uncomfortable man made vanity product of her face.
"Yes
right away." said Walter.
"I
wish you would have come with me, with you at least I will have one descent
person to talk to" said Integral as she fixed her glasses.
Walter
smiled a small one and nodded, "Yes, but I would like her ladyship to
enjoy herself and not be tied down to an old fool."
Integral
mouth curved to a small smile as she nodded and entered the car, which was
going to take her to the palace.
When
Walter returned with a small fatherly smiled he was face to face with Alucard.
"You
shouldn't let her go alone" Alucard simply stated.
"This
is the first time she has stepped out of the Hellsing business and into
enjoying herself, thought she was forced too by the queen. I did not wish to
ruin it for her." stated Walter.
Alucard
didn't say anything and that's when Walter caught on.
"Is
it that you are concern for Lady Hellsing or that you feel you are losing her
favor?" asked Walter.
Alucard
growled and walked past the old man, who knew and understood much more then he
let on.
"I
suggest that you get a change of clothing if you are going to show up at the
ball" stated Walter.
Alucard
laughed before shaking his head and walking off. The great Alucard goes to a
ball? That’s absurd.
‘Well
it won't be when everyone is fighting over what is rightfully yours.’ As
soon as the thought crossed his mind, he half smiled and glared deciding on
what he was to do. "Oh second hand this might be interesting" said
Alucard heading back towards Walter. "Walter."
"Yes
you can borrow one of my tuxedos" said Walter with a little feather
duster, dusting the mirror in the Dinning hall.
Alucard
smiled the old man was strange even for him to understand completely, "Why
would you assume that I would want to go to that ball?"
"Master
Alucard it is quite understandable that you have a claim on Sir Integral
whether she is aware of it or not; here among the few of us, but tonight
looking as beautiful as she is I don't think people would give a care what is
you say is yours" explained Walter.
Alucard
nodded and thought for a moment, how strange this might seem to the on lookers,
‘I suppose that makes sense.’
Integral
arrived at
She walked
into the light slowly towards the table she was given. The room's attention
came to her, she hated this, but she walked with confidence as she neared her
table that
"So
Hellsing you actually showed up for one of her majesty's balls." he stated
as if he knows of her social life.
She would
have taken out the gun from her purse and shoot him immediately if not for the
fact the Queen was looking towards them. "Good evening to you too,"
she said as she sat down. ‘What I wouldn't give for a cigar.’
"How
‘bout a dance?"
Her head
jerked towards him so fast that it almost ached. "Pardon?"
"Damn
it Hellsing I asked ye to dance" said
Integral
really wanted to rip out his tongue, but unlike him she had manners most of the
time. "I will have to decline your offer thank you."
He glared
at her, his hate for her probably growing more then it already has, walking
towards the group of women who looked up at him and smiled eye wild with want.
Asking one of the women to dance, he looked to her once more before he was
probably sweet talking the idiotic woman with this stories of how he loved kids
and puppies.
‘Isn't
this wonderful I left a pile of paper work to come and do nothing’ she
thought taking a flute filled with golden liquid.
He walked
in with a smile. Yes this was exactly alike, music, laughter, and wine,
everything that was part of a noble man. Some of the women looked towards him
and smiled. ‘Yes how charming.’
But his
gaze fell upon the one he was here for, but the most untactful image was in front
of him. There sat his master looking beautiful in a black satin strapless
princess gown, the front and back was detailed with double inverted plates,
with a satin cord tied around the waist, her hand's in black stain gloves. How
he described the dress in his mind was beyond him at that moment.
Her
moonbeam hair done up in an elegant bun bearing her neck for 'him', he
never seen his master in make up as these mortals call it the artificial
substances to make one’s unattractiveness fade, her lips painted a melon pink,
her eyes lined dark black bring out her ice blue eyes, and usually plain cheek
had light blush on them. She glowed sitting there holding the flute filled with
the golden liquid. He grabbed a red wine glass, and watched as a foolish mortal
tried to ask his master for a dance. He wanted to just shoot the damn fly, but
fortunately his master shooed him away. He smiled and started to walk towards
his master, when he was stopped by a pudgy woman clad in very expensive silk
and velvet gown, she was very frightening on her looks, but Alucard had seen
worse.
"Who
might you be?" asked the woman.
"I am
Alucard Lady Hellsing's escort" he stated.
"Really?
Dance with me and tell me more about yourself, I can use more men like you
around." she stated.
Alucard
was dumbfounded for a second. ‘What is she trying to do? These humans are so
incomprehensible.’
"I
hear that Lady Hellsing is quite hard on her staff, and not to mention she is
most disagreeable when it comes to the latest fashion, wearing men’s suite is
it?" said the woman that was in his arms.
‘And
I'm sure you have an immense sense of fashion, which hardly anyone could care
for!’ he thought feeling the poison of his affable behavior towards the
woman. "I do not agree with my lady for I find Lady Hellsing quite
charming."
The woman
'hmped' and just pulled Alucard closer to her.
‘Once
again I fail to grasp what she is doing, humans are so idiotic’ thought
Alucard on the verge of annoyance and anger.
Integral
gulp down her third glass of champagne, and she wasn't going to stop until she
woke to find it all a bad dream. ‘Why in the bloody hell did I agree to
come? I would rather be in the company of Alucard then be here.’
"My
aren't we making the best of this ball" said an all to familiar voice.
‘No it
possibly can't be.’ thought Integral as she turned her head and looked into
the same ruby eyes, then slowly took on the whole vision. There stood her pet
vampire clad in a tuxedo, without his usual red outfit, his hair tied back at
the nape of his neck.
‘Dear
god’ she thought. If she was honest with herself she would have in some way
say that he was eye-catching but since she wasn't at that very moment she
stayed silent her usual cool front on. "Alucard what are you doing
here?"
"I
thought master might need someone civilized to talk to," said Alucard with
his usual grin.
"You are
hardly described as civilized," said Integral.
"Hmm
yes but tell me would you rather have me or those insolent mortals?" asked
Alucard.
"You
don't give me much of selection," stated Integral.
"I do
love these small conversations of ours," said Alucard.
"Yes
delightful" stated Integral.
"So
may I have this dance?" he asked with a smirk.
‘Ok
let's take a five, here you are in one of the most dreadful balls, dressed like
a dense idiot and now your pet vampire is asking you to dance?’ thought Integral.
She placed her gloved hand on to his offered hand, "I accept."
He smiled
as he pulled her of the chair and on to the dance floor. He placed a hand on
her hip, one of hers on his shoulders, and finally where their fingers rested
on each other.
"I
must say master I find this position quite suiting," he whispered.
"Shut
up Alucard" was all she said deciding on what she should do.
He pulled
her closer, as his arms tighten around her.
"Where
did you learn to dance like this?" asked Integral.
"Hmm,
you forget that I too was man once" said Alucard with a smile.