At first I was terrified. I was terrified because I was worried I wouldn't be a good mom. I was terrified because I'd be responsable for another person's life. But Justin made me realize that I wasn't alone. That he'd be with me through it all. And now I can't wait for my baby to be born. To hold him or her in my arms and raise with Justin. I looked up to find a pair of blue eyes watching me intently.
�Hey� I whispered
�Hi� he said kissing the side of my head
�What were you doing� he asked
�Just thinking�
�What were you thinking about�
�I was thinking about you and me�
�And the baby� I whispered a few minutes later
�What about the baby�
�Well you know that we're not really sure if I'm pregnant but I really think I am" I said with a smile
�You do� he asked
�Yeah. Call it a hunch if you will�
�So you're not scared anymore�
�No. You made me realize that I'm not alone and that we can do this together�
�Well I'm glad I did. I would never want you to go through something as beautiful as pregnancy by yourself�
We stayed like that, talking softly about the baby for another hour or so until we both felt tired so we fell asleep. I woke up later to the sound of someone coming up the stairs. Justin walked in holding a tray and a smile on his face. I sat up and he placed the tray on my lap.
�Baby this is really sweet� I said kissing his lips
�Actually I felt like I needed to do something nice for you since I'm gonna tell you something you're not gonna like�
�What's wrong� I asked
�I know that you were scared about the client I had to meet with. Even though you didn't tell me. I love you but something happened while I was there�
�Like what� I asked fearing what he's answer would be
�She seduced me. She wanted me to sleep with her or she wouldn't sign the contract�
�So did you� I asked raising my voice �Did you sleep with her� at this point I was yelling
�No, I told her I'd do it as long as she signed the contract. She did so I took her out to dinner. She kissed me a couple of times but she got so drunk that she passed out and I left her in her hotel room�
�Well what if she wouldn't have passed out. You would have slept with her right?� I asked with a shaky voice because of the tears that were forming in my eyes
�I love you. I planned on getting her so drunk she wouldn't remember if we did it or not�
�But if your plan would have failed you would have slept with her� I yelled getting up from the bed
�Even if I would have it wouldn't have meant anything. I love you Brit. We're having a baby together. We're meant to be�
�No don't say that. How can you say that after what you did�
�I didn't do anything�
�This time you didn't but what's gonna happen the next time you go on a business trip�
�Nothing. Absolutly nothing�
�I don't know if I can trust you. How do I know you're not gonna meet some girl and leave me again�
�I knew you'd bring that up. I knew it� he yelled �I didn't leave because I met someone else or because I stopped loving you because God knows how hard it was for me to leave the love of my life�
�Than why did you do it�
�I did it because I had to�
�What the hell is that supposed to mean�
�I'm not ready to tell you yet. But I will. I promise. Britney I love you with all my heart. Do you think I would have done everything I did if I didn't love you? Do you think I would have splitted you up with Ryan and go through the awful ordeal we went through just because I wanted to hurt you? If I wanted that I would have left you to stay with Ryan because I knew he'd hurt you one way or another�
�I don't know what to say to you. I love you but I can't be with you if it's gonna be this way�
�It's not gonna be this way. Trust me I learned my lesson. The next time I go on a business trip I'm taking you with me�
�I don't wanna fight anymore� I said
�Neither do I�