When the wedding was coming closer I started to doubt about it even more. Everyone kept telling me I was just having cold feet. But I knew it was something more than that. A couple of weeks before the wedding something happened. And that's when I realized that marrying that man would be a huge mistake. Exactly three weeks before my wedding he showed up. It was late at night and it was raining really hard. My fianc�, Ryan, was on a business trip. I went downstairs and opened the door. There he was, standing in front of me, soaking wet. I couldn't believe after years of not seeing him, I was once again looking into his beautiful baby blue eyes. The same eyes that haunted me for years. He looked exactly like the last time I saw him. I moved to a side so he could come in. Which I regretted later. All of the feelings I had for him came flying back to me. And it scared me.
�God, you look so beautiful. Exactly like I remembered you.� He said while he got closer to me.
�Justin, what are you doing here? �
�I'm here to see you. I'm here to take you home with me� After he said this he kissed me. It was sweet and wonderful.
�Home?. I think you're a little late for that� I say aggravated �I'm engaged. I'm getting married in three weeks Justin.�
�Do you love him? �
�That's none of your business �
�Do you love me? � He wrapped his arms around me and whispered things in my ear while he rocked me back and forth.
After a few minutes I looked up to him and our eyes locked. That's when it began. We started to see each other behind everyone's back. But I had to make a big decision. I couldn't have both of them. I had to choose. And I made the wrong choice. I know that now but I didn't back then. So I sat down with Justin and I broke it off. Completely off. Of course that didn't stopped him. He kept coming back to see me.
Two nights before my wedding my friends throwed me a bachelorette party. I didn't enjoy it though. All I could think about was Justin. Ever since the last time I was with him. I wondered what was he doing?. Was he with someone new? . I came back home late at night and when I turned on the lights I found quite a surprise. There he was, standing in nothing but a towel wrapped around his waist, holding two glasses of champagne and a huge smile on his face.
�Took you long enough, huh? . Come here baby�
�Justin don't do this, ok? . I'm gonna get married I can't�
�You don't love him, you can't marry him!�
�You're wrong. I love him. I don't love you anymore!�
�Do you mean that?� He said while he got closer to me. His lips were mere inches away from me, and his breath tickled my neck.
�I...yeah�
�You don't sound convinced�
I was trying my hardest to fight the urge I had to kiss him, but he was making it harder. Seeing that I was fighting a losing battle I decided to give up. I let him kiss me. I let him make love to me.
So here I am. I've been married for three months but I wish now more than ever I would have done what I had to do. I know that if I wanna move forward with my relationship with Justin I'm gonna have to tell Ryan. He loves me. And I'm gonna break his heart. I hear the phone ringing and I know exactly who it is.
�Hi beautiful!�
�Hi J�
�I'm nearing your house, I'll be there in five minutes�
�Ok, see ya�
He arrived and I greeted him excitedly. I haven't seen him in two weeks cuz he went on a business trip. He kisses me passionately and holds me close to him. He said he had a surprise for me. And I can't wait to see what it is. We drive silently listening to the radio. Finally we stop in front of a cabin. He brought me to his cabin on the country!. We're in the middle of nowhere. No interruptions. No husbands. Nothing to be worried about. After we get settled, he picks up a blanket and spreads it on the ground. We lay there for hours just talking and watching the sky. I realize it's getting late and decide to call Ryan.
�I have to call Ryan� Just mentioning his name made Justin's face fall.
�Ok� He stands up and leaves me alone. I know he doesn't want to hear me talking to him. He's been trying to get me to tell Ryan about us. But I can't. I'm not ready.
�Hello?�
�Hi, Rya it's me�
�Britney where are you?�
�I'm sorry I forgot to call you. I'm staying over the night at Courtney's
�Ok, I love you.� I'm silent.
�Ok, Bye� I say quickly and hang up. I call Courtney and explain her everything. After I hang up I head inside and find Justin looking outside the window. I wrap my arms around him and lay my head on his shoulder.
�When are you gonna tell him?� He asked without turning to look at me.
�J, I told you I'm not ready�
�Well, call me when you are� After he said this he grabbed his keys and left.
�What?. What's that supposed to mean?� I tried to reach for his hand but he pulled away.
�Well what do you think it means?!� I have to admit that this situation is scaring me. It's the first time he's ever raised his voice at me. And I don't like it.
�I told you I need some time. Ok?. And you said you'd wait for me.�
�Yeah well maybe I got tired of waiting.! Maybe I think that you're not gonna
tell him. Maybe I don't wanna be in a one-sided relationship cuz the way I see
it you're not willing to make a commitment to me or this relationship and I'm
tired of it!!�
JUSTIN'S POV
�Yeah well maybe I got tired of waiting.! Maybe I think that you're not gonna
tell him. Maybe I don't wanna be in a one-sided relationship cuz the way I see
it you're not willing to make a commitment to me or this relationship and I'm
tired of it!!� I say. She doesn't answer me, but I can see her eyes water and I know she's about to cry. I feel guilty now for making her cry but I had to say it. I had to tell her how I feel.
�Come here� I whisper softly but she doesn't flinch.
�Britney come here� Again she only stands there crying softly. I walk up to her and wrapped her in my arms.
�I love you. And the thought of having to share you with another guy drives me crazy.�
�I love you too. I know it bothers you but I'm not ready. We got married three months ago and it'll break his heart to know that I've been cheating on him even before we got married.�
�Let's not talk about this and enjoy the rest of our day together ok?�
�Does that mean what I think it means? � She asked with that sexy kinda smile that drives me crazy.
�Maybe� I said while I started to nibble on her neck. She was giggling the whole time as I carried her upstairs to my room.