I talk and talk and talk,
never once do i tell you where my mind walks.
I lie and lie and lie,
so you dont see whats inside.
I think and think and think,
what reasons are there for me not to become extinct?
I cry and cry and cry,
the pain inside has multiplied.
I scream and scream and scream,
nobody understands me.
I hide and hide and hide,
so i wont see your face judging mine.
I close and close and close,
up everytime i hear your words.
bite down, pin me to the ground.
sink you fangs into my neck, make me bleed what the heck.
lick and drink up blood that runs down,
all over my body to the ground.
and i know i must taste alright,
cause we do this every night
Bleak,
loneliness, im fucken incomplete.
Others warmth cant reach me,
but there insults can delleate me.
And from somewhere deep inside,
is the soul reasons why,
im now this way,
and feel like this today.
Take deep breaths and breathe,
try to get positive energy.
In, out thats how the air goes,
take deep breaths in the lungs,
and out the nose.
But it doesnt help,
doesnt fucken change the way that ive felt.
Is there reasons for me,
to live a life no longer important to me,
or even to the world for that matter.
Maby dieing could make the world better.
One stupid lonely incomplete life,
a stupid fat-assed bitch died,
and the world would all say,
everythings better without her in my way.
So should i die, i try to think,
but its so hard when i fucken bleak.
you call me fat and stupid,
then say its only a joke.
ive been called that before,
then told it was just a joke.
You say im ugly and you trip me,
so you can point and laugh at me,
just like those before you did,
and they all said it was only a joke.
ive realized now just what youve done,
you with all your jokes.
you took my pride away,
with just a joke,
and im crying here,
all because of your joke,
and i cant think how someone would be amused,
at hurting, and insulting someone untill they hated themselves
not unless all your jokes were true.
laying lies losely low,
eyes laying sight to the floor
making sayings changing
as you spoke,
your lying eyes making
changing sayings ever so.
Pills
round, little
go down easy
mess you up fast
Oh!
heaven
beautiful, peaceful
fulfilling, enjoying, relaxing
God, angels, Satin, demons
torching, perishing, loathing
eternal, sinful
As she weeped her heart away,
Her spirit and heart slowly dies;
now her day starts turnning
forever into night;
and all because she had loved.
A love so sweet it carried her on
wings of golden dreams, faith, and hope;
and he took it away,
how will she carry on
after such a very long fall?
there once was a girl who screamed,
"is there anybody who will believe,
me, for i have not lied."
then she sat down and cried,
tears flooded the world it seemed.
How many times must i scream
before you finally hear me?
How long must i stand around
before you hear me now?
How much more do you think i'll take
before i start to hate?