An Abortion Victim Comes Forward

Twenty Three years ago I made the worst mistake any woman could make I was engaged to who I thought was a real nice man but I was very wrong I told him I was pregnant He said I need to have a abortion and it wasn't a baby anyway I remember for a month how worried I was even though I was in my late twenties I didn't want my parents to know. I waited several weeks to decide and I choose abortion. The day I went to ST Lukes in Boise it was a very cold day in Jan.,1979 My doctor was there had me lay down on the cold sheets and put my feet in the stirrups and tied me in I was so scared no one prepared me for the procedure, Then I heard this loud noise The doctor said talk to me trying to keep me from hearing the noise it was awful. I seemed to be in shock after the doctor talked to me saying well you are finished and no more baby. I was in shock didn't say anything walked in the hall way there my boy friend was walking towards me . He could see I was in shock and took me to his place took care of me for 3 days then came home to my daughter tried to pretend every thing was all right but would never would be. Each year I remember each month of August I destroyed a baby The nurse and doctor never prepared me for what I have done to my baby and the guilt and pain that followed I have asked God to forgive me and he has but I still don't forgive myself I have told my story to several woman and they decided to choose life for there baby I still wish I could go back and change my decision I still wonder what my child would be like had I not made this bad decision but if I could change one woman's life then it is worth writing this tragic story.