"Tell me lies, slap me in the face,
Improvise, do something really clever,
That'll make me hate your name forever."
-Shakira "Fool"

Suffice to say, I haven't had the best couple
of days, but I'll try to sum up the good
happenings of the past couple of weeks.
I got an "okay" monthly review from my job
at Arby's two weeks ago. Fortunately, I think
I've worked a little bit harder since then, and
my boss has noticed. I'm up for a raise - Yay!
Unfortunately, working quite a bit,
maintaining my house's cleaning, and getting
ready for school isn't leaving me much time for
myself. Isn't it gross when you realize you
need a shower, but you're too tired/depressed
to get up and take one? I'm not growing fungi
or anything, but my mood is upsetting just the
same.
I've been reading Catcher in the Rye,
given to me by my brother for Christmas. I do
admit, I have never read Catcher, for two
reasons - I was never forced to, and, I like
poetry and novels. However, I have to say,
JD Salinger is growing on me with his funky
stories of people who don't care but really do,
and ditties of human life which would be lost
in the swirl of our minds if he didnt write it.
So, why the title and the antagonistic
quote? Well, a person in my life has made it
clear that they're a fool. I'm not naming names
, because it's not worth it. They've decided to
temporarily decrease my trust in
companionship and telling the truth. Yes, yes, I
know you're supposed to tell the truth.

But don't you think it's sort of annoying that
everytime you tell the truth, it bites you in the
a$$? Is the reward supposed to be a Band
Aid and your self dignity? Or should you keep
the first aid in back and keep social face?

Am I being the fool in even second guessing
my judgement? Probably. But at 12:47 AM, it
feels sort of good to second guess yourself.
Disrespect yourself. Despise yourself.

And despise the person who made you feel
this way.