All I Wanted by MJ Layao

"ALL I WANTED (A LONG-TIME HIDDEN MESSAGE)" by MJ Layao

(Read downward starting at "I want to be like this...")
I want to be like this
I want to be like that
These visions of myself
How far I will look back

Joyous, I always know
I will put to my soul
Rainbow, not only rain?
Yes, memoir put in lane

If something made alter
To the things I adhere
So will it be like this?
I want you, nothing else

I want you to possess
Possess our bodies and
Depart your frequent guests
I can't bethink the bliss

For when you're in your den
You always feel morbid
Isolated, away
Have you desired to stay?

I need consistency
Please, leave all the aliens
I see for them you forge
Here, none but indolence

It makes me wanna dream
Flashes of busy times
Moments when grass was green
We roamed aiming close ties

Have the time to recall
The words you have installed
Respect is slowly lost
Sorry, I had no choice

I want to be like this
I want to be like that
But if something bothered
Making me weep all night

I dread the joy will sap
The rainbow will soon fade
Will it all be itchy
When in your company

Now that I'm a grown tree
From the top, I can see
Unbiased, I just know
Where comes all this fury

So proud of your own coup
Self-centeredly happy
Passion is what you chase
And we're just fans displayed

Why do I feel this guilt?
All the wrath that's been built
Before "want" gets "wanted"
I just wish you could change

My spirit has withered
Waiting for your embrace
Don't wait until the time
Mirrors can't be replaced

My latest poetic original that was done in April 7, 2019. As you might see that the poem is quite long with 4 lines each and has 14 stanzas. And it's also a major achievement for me because I was able to finish the poem with a strict 6 syllable per line, with deep words and has some rhyming words too. But it doesn't really matter that much because the message is what's more important.

"All I Wanted (A long-time hidden message)" is indeed given and does not need to be comprehended at all. In the first two stanzas, I was actually expressing myself that I have so many dreams, and that I should be happy and live my life colorfully. The third stanza says that if there was something that could change what I believe in, would that be the person I'm addressing? The next stanza simply defines 'possess' as an equivalent to the phrase 'be with us.' Why? It is because I feel that the person is always away from us and I can't even think any happy times together. While the 5th stanza explains further what the subject does when he/she is near, weak, quiet, and it's like there's a barrier in between us. The aliens in the 6th stanza refer to other people that the subject always hardworkingly work for. I just ask for the subject to do the same as I only see his indolence (laziness). But jumping to 9th and 10th stanza where they were referring to the first 2 stanzas about the changes that might occur just because of this need I am secretly asking, hoping that it would be seen by the addressed. The last 4 stanzas are left, explaining my maturity which implies the objectivity that I have right now from getting this anger. As another complaint is given, guilt comes because of the madness I feel inside. Lastly, I said that I can't wait forever for the subject to change, so please make a move for maybe all I want is you.


This poem is written with all my heart. I can't really say who's the person addressed in the poem, I'll keep it a hidden person. But even though that's the case, I know there are also relatable ideas given in the poem. That's it for this poem. I hope you loved it!

Check out the other poem entitled

"Morph"



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