could i just talk
cause right now i really
need someone who can just listen .
And you my friend are the lucky one .
I dont think i ask for too much or do I?
my whole life i have been living off very little.
I like the fact the fact that i am starving sometimes.
But i have a family now ,
so it makes me feel so irreesponsible.
all the pain that comes you asked for
everything thats numb you wanted anyway.
i understand some things even though they make no sense
but i do.
I have eseen people smiling
I have seen them listen
like its all so vital
when i talk
i throw rubber balls
at a brick wall
and what i was saying was stupid and pointless but so vital to me
covered with thick layers of depression
of failure
feels so me
so awfully truly me
nobody wants to touch me
I dont want it anymore anyway
theres nothing more that i want