and i wonder what is it there
i can feel the heat on my face
coming from the constant glare
did i cause this, twas it me that brought it on?
i ask myself over and over, with only a echo for answer
i turn and i look around, constantly searching
never to be found
overlooked? missguided?
pondering , with no answers in sight
wondering when will it be my night
sigh's unheard, tears unshed, the night is already half dead
snuggle up good and tight, waiting and wanting
soon it has to be, there is no other way
the torture the pain, the agony will end
one can not continue in such a fashion
for tis not meant to be, as all things have a reason
one day will be my season
when my season comes, i respond to the changes within
holding them close, lavishing them with love
cradling them as i would a babe
only with the hopes of nourishing
with the always there worry of smothering
for tis to easy to kill that lil bloom of life
that inspires one and all
to easy to push it back
never to share and bask in its beauty from within
strength i call upon you from deep with in
and from high above
guide me and teach me so that i may
achieve that place my eyes long for
the place craved by my soul
hungered from within
be my light, shine so bright
lead me on the path straight
so that my changes are true
not misguided with simple I love you's
closer... closer...
come to me
help me with this silent plea
as one i am strong, but tis it strong enough
the doubt the insecurity
dealt with as best i may
no garrentees not today
just simple emotions leading the way
when i am at my lowest
i know not to give up
i know i will make it
how i am watch over and cared for
by a power greater than i could imagine
i know my pains and my tripulations are just a test of time
one that will eventually bring me to my fate
the Spirit pulls me through always in time
never to abandon me
for tis not the purpose
a learning ,and a strengthening
of the body, mind , and soul
the pull i feel deep with in
the burning need to learn and share
knowing not what it is that pulls me
in the directions that i chose to go
only that i must, for one day i will know
fear yes i have it running through me constantly
but the need is so strong, it makes my fear
non existant
guidance i call for ...strong and true
hear my cries
lead me lead me
whether from the earth below
the skies above
the brotheran beside me
i am willing to listen
willing to learn
take my hand hold me close
share my warmth
as you see the smile in my face
feel it, see it reach my soul
for at last i am home
