Title: I DREAMED OF YOU
Writer: JAYME
WHEN I WAS A SCHOOL GIRL I DREAMED I WOULD BE,
A DOCTOR WHO CURED EVERY PET BROUGHT TO ME!
MY PASSION WAS FOR CRITTERS, NO MATTER WHAT KIND.
I LOVED THEM AND SOMEHOW I READ THEIR MIND.
BACK THEN I WAS CERTAIN WHO I�D GROW TO BE
HEARTS BROKEN, THE DARKNESS I JUST DIDN�T SEE!
MY FRIENDS WOULD BE DOCTORS AND FIREMEN AND SUCH,
BUT I�D HEAL GODS CREATURES, BECAUSE I HAD THE TOUCH.
A FAVORITE MEMORY STILL IS SO CLEAR;
OF 5TH GRADE, THE NEW BOY, IT STILL BRINGS A TEAR
ONE DAY A NEW BOY WALKED INTO MY CLASS
WITH THE BLUEST BLUE EYES AND THEY SPARKLED LIKE GLASS
I DREAMED FROM THEN ON WHEN I HAD MY FIRST KID
I�D NAME HIM JUSTIN, LIKE THAT BOYS MOM DID!
I VISIONED JUST EXACTLY HOW MY JUSTIN LOOKED
AND THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU, YOU HAD ME HOOKED!
I DREAMED OF HIS FATHER, HOW HE�D BE THE MAN,
TO GIVE US A WORLD THAT WAS SAFE WAS MY PLAN
I WAS SO YOUNG, BUT I DREAMED HE WOULD BE
JUST LIKE MY DAD, AND A HERO TO ME
MY DREAMS NEVER SHOWED ME THE FORKS IN THE ROAD;
OR HOW ONE WRONG TURN; MY PLANS WOULD EXPLODE!!
I GREW UP QUICK AND WATCHED ALL MY DREAMS SHATTER,
ALL THE PLANS THAT I MADE SUDDENLY DIDN�T MATTER
WITHOUT A WORD,IN THE NIGHT MY DAD WALKED OUT THE DOOR
AND ALL I BELIEVED IN WAS CRUSHED ON THE FLOOR
THE MAN I THOUGHT THE WORLD OF NEVER REALLY EXISTED,
AND THE WORLD AS I�D KNOWN IT WAS EVIL AND WAS TWISTED.
I CLOSED MY HEART, I CLINCHED MY FIST
AND DRINKING WAS NOW ON THE TOP OF MY LIFES LIST.
WHERE WAS I GOING?
WHAT WOULD I DO?
------------- A FORK IN THE ROAD -----------
AND THEN ONE DREAM CAME TRUE!
AND AS I LOOKED IN YOUR EYES FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME.
I REALIZED JUST HOW LIFE TURNS ON A DIME!
I HAD MY JUSTIN AND NOW THINGS ARE CLEAR,
MY VISION WAS NOTHING LIKE HAVING YOU HERE!
THEN ONCE AGAIN�.
------------- A FORK IN THE ROAD -------------
NOW WHO WOULD HELP ME TO CARRY THE LOAD?
NOW FACED ONCE AGAIN, DECISIONS TO MAKE,
ANOTHER LIFE IN MY HANDS I MUST TAKE.
THEN I HAD JORDAN AND I LOVED HIM TOO,
MY HEART WAS JUST BIG ENOUGH FOR BOTH OF YOU
I PRAYED I WAS WORTHY, I FEARED FOR MY BOYS;
I HAD NO INSTRUCTIONS, I KNEW YOU WERENT TOYS!
BUT I NEVER HAD DREAMS OF JORDAN LIKE I DID YOU,
HIS FACE IN MY MIND WASN�T ONE THAT I KNEW.
THEN CAME THE DAY HE WAS PLACED IN MY ARMS
SOMETHING WAS WRONG, I FELT THE ALARMS
AND AFTER THE DRAMA ON THE DAY OF IS BIRTH
I WONDERED IF YOU NEEDED A MOM MORE OF WORTH!!
THEN A DEAD END
----------- OR A FORK IN THE ROAD-------
NEVER A HINT ON THE RIGHT WAY TO GO
SO MANY TWISTS AND TURNS IN MY PATH,
SOMETIMES IT WAS HARD AND THERES BAD AFTERMATH!
I�M SORRY I�M NOT THE BEST MOM ON THIS EARTH
BUT I KNEW LONG AGO THAT I WASN�T OF WORTH!
NOW I TAKE THE BLAME AND I LIVE FULL OF GUILT
FOR THE UNSTABLE LIFE OF CONFUSION I BUILT.
I�LL NEVER BE ABLE TO CHANGE WHAT I�VE DONE
I�M SORRY I MADE YOUR LIFE SO HARD MY SON,
I ONLY WISH YOU WOULD JUST OPEN YOUR EYES;
PLAN FOR YOUR FUTURE AND REACH FOR THE SKYS!
LOOK BACK ON THE HARDSHIP I PLACED IN YOUR LIFE,
AND PROMISE SOMEDAY YOU�LL BE GOOD TO YOUR WIFE
BE A PROVIDER, MAKE YOUR KIDS STRONG
MAKE SURE THEY KNOW GOD AND THEY KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG!
AND JUSTIN, PLEASE PROMISE YOU�LL LEAVE A CLEAR PATH
DON�T LEAVE BEHIND ROADS FULL OF BAD AFTERMATH!
SON, KNOW IN YOU�RE HEART THAT DREAMS DO COME TRUE;
MINE DID WHEN I HAD A VISION OF YOU!
LOVE ALWAYS;
MOM
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