turn14

Turn Around

Summary: Sebastian once again tries to convince Kathryn of his love for her and gets help from an unlikely source.

Chapter 14: Second Chance

"Ms. Kathryn is not at home" the young maid told me the following morning.

I wasn't sure if she was lying or not so I asked "are you sure?"

"Yes she left this morning early. You can wait if you like Mr. Valmont."

I took that to mean that she was indeed telling me the truth so I nodded and headed inside. I had awoken that morning even more eager than the night before to get Kathryn back. As soon as I got up I headed across the street to go visit her even though I was sure she would just find a reason to turn me away however it would seem I lucked out. I could hopefully talk to her for a minute before she threw me out.

Soon after letting me inside the maid disappeared and I wandered down to Kathryn's bedroom. It was empty and the bed was already made so I couldn't tell if she did indeed go through with screwing Parker the previous night. The room was as neat as a pin with no condom wrappers or anything else that might give me any clues.

I knew I probably shouldn't but I also started looking through some of her things. I wasn't sure exactly what I was looking for maybe just something that would give me a hint about her true feelings. My conscience wasn't too heavily weighed down by this. After all Kathryn would most likely do the same thing in my position. Recalling how she had no problem reading my journal on our first meeting I felt even more at ease.

I opened some drawers and looked though her desk but found nothing. Giving up I turned around and noticed a shiny object resting on her vanity table. On closer examination I realized it was the ruby and diamond bracelet I bought for her. I wasn't sure what to make of her not wearing it so I picked it up as I waited for her on the bed we had made love in so many times.

A half an hour after my arrival Kathryn came into her bedroom carrying several shopping bags. She looked lovelier than ever in a simple silk white dress. However at the sight of me her face twisted in anger and she hissed "you know stalking is illegal in this state."

I smiled bemused "is that what I'm doing?"

"Get out I'm not in the mood for your shit" she said storming over to the door and opening it.

Holding up the bracelet I told her "I found this lying around. Would you like me to take it with me?"

She closed the door, charged up to me and tried to grab her bracelet away but I held it out of reach. "Give it back it's mine."

Losing the smile I asked "will you hear me out if I do?"

Kathryn stared me down and then replied coldly "on second thought keep it. I have no use for it anymore."

For some reason her words stung. I don't know why I gave a damn about her not wanting some stupid thing I bought her but I did. "I thought you liked it?"

She shrugged nonchalantly "it's just a bracelet. I'm sure Parker can buy me one just like it."

At the sound of his name I cringed. "Ah yes Parker. I noticed he didn't stay the night."

"Spying on me through your telescope again? You know I could have you arrested for that."

I smiled smugly "actually no I just guessed. Glad to see I was right though. So he didn't do it for you huh?"

Shaking her head she smiled "your pathetic you know that? No wonder Annette got rid of you."

Her words should of hurt but they didn't. I realized she was dogging my question so he was either horrible or she didn't sleep with him at all. Either way it was a good sign. Slowly I stood up and she backed away from me like she thought I might try to kiss her or something. I knew there was a possibility she would sleep with me but for once sex was the last thing I wanted. I needed her to listen to me. "You know you can be as big a bitch as you want to me but I'm not leaving. I'm in love with you Kathryn."

"Oh god this again!" She moaned collapsing on the bed.

I turned around to face her "what you don't believe me is that it? I love you Kathryn how many times do I have to say it? All of you the good and the bad. Even when you mess with my head and act like a bitch I still love you. I've tried not to and I've tired to ignore it but I can't." I noticed that look from the other night pass through her eyes so I pressed on "when Annette wanted me back and I was thinking of all these reasons not to be with her the biggest reason of all was you. Annette is beautiful and sweet and smart but she's missing one thing. She's not you. I love you Kathryn I don't know what else to say."

Kathryn looked up at me and nodded "are you done?"

"Yeah"

"Good now get out" she smiled sweetly.

I returned the smile "not a chance."

She let out a frustrated sigh "what is this? Do you want to get laid is that it?"

Rolling my eyes I told her "it's not about that."

"Right well tell you what if I let you fuck me will you leave?" She leaned back on her elbows and spread her legs slightly "you can put it in whenever you like but if you don't mind make it quick I have things to do."

As I glared at the mocking twinkle in her eyes I was angrier then I had ever been. I was so close to telling her to go fuck herself and that I had made a mistake when I realized what she was doing. Kathryn was purposely pushing me away not to be a bitch but because she was scared. She was terrified to admit she had feelings for me that went beyond lust.

Slowly I approached her and she looked genuinely surprised that I appeared to be taking her up on her offer. However as I got to her I grabbed her by the legs and pulled her forcefully to me. "First off if I wanted to get laid I could get just about any girl in this city at my beck and call and you know it."

"I don't-"

I cut her off by pressing my finger to her lips "Second you can put on as much of an act as you want but I'm not buying it. I know you have feelings and I know I hurt you last night but I'm sorry. I'd like to say I'll never do it again but I know us and we live to do this kind of shit to one another. The thing is Kathryn you and I are made for one another and even though you won't admit it you do trust me or you wouldn't have let me find out about what you father did to you. I love you Kathryn and you can push me away all you want but it won't stop me."

She didn't say anything she just stared at me intensely. Slowly I leaned in to kiss her but she refused saying simply "leave." I ignored her and once again tried to kiss her. However this time I pulled away when I realized that Kathryn was practically shaking. "Please just go" she said sadly.

Deciding to back down for now I moved away and told her "ok but I'm not giving up." I cast one more glance at her before I headed out the door. On my way out I took the bracelet from my pocket and dropped it on her night side table.

As I was walking down the hall I stopped when I heard footsteps coming in the opposite direction. Turning around I was shocked to see Annette walk up to Kathryn's door and knock. She didn't see me so I hid and waited until she went inside.

What the fuck was she doing here? I wondered as I slowly crept back to Kathryn's door. Since Annette found out about Kathryn's true motives the two girls haven't had anything to do with each other. Curious as hell I let my ear lean against the door to eavesdrop. I wasn't a bit surprised to hear Kathryn practically yell "what the hell do you want?"

"I need to talk to you about Sebastian and what happened last night" I heard Annette mutter. Pulling back from the door a second I had to admit I was more than a little surprised by this. I mean I knew Annette felt bad when she realized the extent of my feelings for Kathryn but never in a million years did I expect her to show up in my defense.

Kathryn responded in typical fashion "I don't care. I'm done with him. I was under the impression you were also."

"Look" Annette said forcefully holding her ground "I do care about Sebastian and a part of me still very much holds a torch for him."

"Goody for you" Kathryn spat.

"But it will never happen"

"Oh?"

"Because he's in love with you." There was silence in the room for a moment before Annette continued. "Here's the thing Kathryn I don't really like you any more than you like me but for whatever reason Sebastian is in love with you. I think I saw it in him before but I wanted to believe that it wasn't there. Until last night."

"Would that be before or after you fucked him?" Kathryn quipped.

I heard Annette sigh "nothing happened between us and even if you hadn't walked in when you did nothing probably would of happened. Sebastian told me himself that he's in love with you. Now I don't really owe Sebastian any thing but I don't want to see him hurt again. I realize the pain I caused him last time and I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't the cause of any more."

There was again a lapse of silence before Kathryn asked softly "are you done?"

"Almost. A word of advice Kathryn your act isn't fooling anyone."

"Come again?"

"I saw it in you face when you thought Sebastian and I were together it killed you. You can act as cold hearted as you want but I know there's a part of you that cares about him."

"And you know this how?"

A could almost see the smile on Annette's face "because you would have thrown me out my now. Well I've said what I came here to tell you. Good bye Kathryn."

Kathryn didn't reply or if she did I didn't hear her. When I heard Annette come towards the door I hid out of sight as she walked back down the hall. I knew I should probably follow her tell her thanks for saying what she did but that could wait. I had to try once more with Kathryn.

Annette had left the door open so I peaked my head in and saw Kathryn sitting on the bed looking at the bracelet in her hand. She had this sad, far away look on her face that I had never seen before. Quietly I walked into the room and approached her. She looked up startled at me. Her eyes were large and for a minute I thought she was going to cry. She didn't say anything just looked back down at the gift I had bought her.

Taking a seat next to her I said "I overheard you and Annette. I didn't mean to, well actually-"

"Sebastian" she sighed in a weak and defeated voice "I can't do this anymore."

"Do what?"

"Fight with you" she said still not looking up at me.

"Then don't" I told her softly as I raised her face to look at me.

"Don't you get it" she said harshly "we can't be together like that. Our parents are getting married and even if they weren't my mother would never let it happen. She would probably disown me."

"So what? There just obstacles Kathryn and you and I are great at destroying obstacles. If you want me half as much as I want you then there should be no problem."

She almost smiled "says you."

"Yes says me" I told her stroking her cheek. Slowly I leaned over and kissed her softly on the mouth. This time though I was met with no resistance as her hand slid around my neck and pulled me closer. We eventually fell back onto the bed and Kathryn climbed on top of me.

Pulling gently away she sighed "I'm sorry."

"For?"

"Saying what I said to you and pushing you away and generally just being a bitch."

I smirked "it's ok I'm use to it."

"Ha ha" she muttered as she kissed me again.

My fingers were playing in her hair when she once again pulled away. I was about to complain but I was too floored by what she said. "I'm leaving" she said in one breath.

"What? Were are you going?"

"It's only for a couple weeks. Headmaster Hardgrove set up this thing in Europe-"

"Oh god not again!" I exclaimed with a wired feeling on deja vu. "What exactly does this guy have against me?"

"Well nailing his daughter comes to mind" she reminded me playfully. "Relax Sebastian it's only for a few weeks."

"Right that's what Annette said before she came back and dumped me for that ivy league, S&M, freak show."

Her fingers ran down my cheek and she smiled "first off don't ever compare me to her again and second when exactly did I agree to be you girlfriend?"

Looking at her suddenly confused I stammered "but you said-"

"However I might" she smirked "if you can put a stop to this wedding."

I smiled as my fingers wrapped around hers "when exactly is this disaster suppose to take place?"

"The day I get back" she smiled coyly.

"Well that's convenient but it should give me ample time to plan something."

"Really?" She asked a hint of excitement in her voice.

I only nodded "I love you."

Kathryn didn't say it back but she didn't pull away or freak out like she did before. Instead her smile only broadened as she leaned down and gave me a deep kiss. As she did so my mind whirled with one question, how the hell was I going to pull this off?

- to be continued