turn13

Turn Around

Summary: Sebastian has a realization about his feelings for Kathryn but is it too late?

Chapter 13: More To the Story

It seemed like forever before anyone said anything. Kathryn was just gapping at us in shock as if she didn't know what to say. I desperately wanted to tell her this wasn't what it looked like but I found I couldn't speak. Finally Kathryn pulled her eyes away from us and in a shaky voice said "I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to interrupt."

"Kathryn this isn't" before I could get the sentence out Kathryn was out the door. "What you think" I finished weakly.

Annette sighed "well that was-"

"I have to get out of here" I told her as I pushed her away and climbed off the bed. Seeing Kathryn seemed to sober me up at light speed. Straightening up I fixed my clothes "I have to talk to her. I have to explain."

"Explain what?" Annette asked putting her shirt back on.

"This...this was a mistake."

A look of hurt flashed over her face "wow...thanks."

"Annette" I didn't have time to go into this with her now. Kathryn could be gone by now. "Later ok"

Before I could hear her answer I ran out of the room and into the party. It was still packed so I couldn't find her. However I did spot Blaine. Rushing up to him I asked "have you scene Kathryn?"

"Valmont! Yeah I just saw her leave a second-"

"Thanks Blaine" I yelled back as I headed for the door. She wasn't in the hallway so I rushed down stairs and out into the cool New York night. I immediately spotted her waiting for the chauffeur to open the car door. I ran up behind them and shut it before she could get in.

Kathryn turned around and glared at me "what do you want Sebastian?"

"We have to talk" I looked over at the chauffeur who was standing there expectedly "fuck off."

The driver barely flinched but when Kathryn turned around and nodded he walked back into the car. "Can we make this quick? I have things to do" she said in her typically cool manor.

I sighed and composed myself "it wasn't what you think."

"Oh and what's that?"

"Stop it" I ordered "stop acting like you don't care. I saw your face I know that I hurt you and I'm-"

"Shut up" she said suddenly losing her icy demeanor. "You don't know the first thing about what I feel so just save it. I knew it, I knew you were never over her. It was just an act."

"That's not true I am over Annette. I have been for sometime and it's all because of you." I reached out to touch her but she quickly pulled away.

"Don't touch me" she said practically shaking "especially after you were with her."

"We didn't..."

"It doesn't matter! God to think I was actually trying to find you to apologize."

This shocked me, she was going to apologize? God I really was an idiot. Smiling faintly I asked "you were really going to apologize?"

She shook her head at me "yes and now I see what a mistake that would have been. If you had been with anyone else...but I should of known it would of been her."

"Kathryn I was hurt so I went with the first warm body that came my way. It could of been anyone."

"But it wasn't" she said quietly.

Looking down at her so sad and almost vulnerable I had a sudden realization. It was something that had building up for some time, a feeling I had been trying desperately to ignore. After Annette I didn't want to think that it could be possible but the more time I spent with her the more I knew it was true. I loved Kathryn.

"Kathryn" I said suddenly "I think...I mean I know...that I-"

"I don't want to hear it Sebastian. Whatever was going on with us is done now understand? Which is probably for the better seeing as were going to be related soon anyway."

Shaking my head I said "no it can't be-"

"Yes it's over. Go back to her and leave me alone."

Before I could respond Kathryn got back in the car and slammed the door. Soon after I watched helpless as the car drove away. I wonder if she knew what I was going to say? I knew she didn't hate me, I knew it the moment she saw me with Annette. However I had no idea how to make her admit it. The girl was so god damn stubborn.

Somehow I managed to stumble back to the party. I would have just gone home but there was something I had to take care of or should I say someone. As I expected Annette was still in the bedroom that I left only fifteen minutes ago. She was laying on the bed as I walked in and closed the door. Smiling she said "you came back."

"Yes that's very observant of you Annette."

She scowled "I take it things didn't go well with Kathryn?"

Taking a seat on the bed I sighed "what do you think? She hates me and at this point I really don't blame her."

She touched my arm gently "why? Sebastian you didn't do anything wrong. You told me you were just sleeping together nothing else."

"Not exactly"

"Well then maybe that's all it was to her"

At that I threw her hand off of me "you don't know the first thing about what was going on between us."

"Oh I don't think it's that hard to figure out" Annette said coldly. "Your both using each other to get what you want. She wanted to win the election and you wanted to get me back. Isn't that true?"

I laughed for a second when I realized she was right. As sad and pathetic as it was it was true. "You know what your right we were just using one another and we both knew it. Only the joke is on me because I let myself fall for her."

Annette flinched at this "you...you love her?"

"Desperately" I said as the realization hit me. "After you dumped me I was positive that no girl would ever measure up. I was so sure that I would never meet anyone who could make me feel like you did and then one day I walked into my living room and there she was. This beautiful, sexy, intelligent, demonic creature. This girl who was my equal in every way. I knew it the instant she opened her mouth but I denied it...I ignored it. Instead I made up reasons to be around her" glancing over at Annette I said "and you were the biggest reason of all."

In a hurt voice she asked "so what...you never loved me at all?"

"No...I mean I did...just not like Kathryn. It's different with her. I can't explain it...it just is."

Annette nodded "then I'm sorry."

"What for?"

"Sebastian I just thought you were sleeping with her. I didn't think you actually loved her. If I had known I never would of taken advantage of you."

I smiled faintly at the irony of Annette 'taking advantage' of me. "It's all right Annette. I didn't object."

"Look it's not like I like Kathryn or even think she's good for you but if she's the one you want...I think you should go after her."

"Well that's easier said then done. I don't know what I'm going to do."

Annette stood up and put her jacket on "make her listen to you. Tell her what you just told me. I have to go find Megan good luck Sebastian."

I nodded at her as I watched her leave. She was right I just had to make her listen to me the question was how. Soon after Annette left I got up and headed out. As I was waiting for the elevator Blaine called out "Valmont your leaving so soon?"

Turning to my friend I sighed "yeah sorry Blaine but I'm not really in the partying mood anymore."

"This wouldn't have to do with Kathryn would it?"

"How did you know?"

He shrugged "everything with you lately has to do with her. So is it love?"

"I think so only the girl isn't exactly speaking to me at the moment" I said as I got in the elevator.

"Well that would explain the other guy" Blaine said as the elevator doors began to close.

Immediately I put my hand in-between the closing doors and looked at him "what other guy?"

"Parker came buy earlier looking for her. I think he was heading to her place."

I pulled away letting the doors close. "Oh fuck" I groaned. If Parker got there before me she would most definitely go to bed with him if only to get back at me. As I got a cab to the Merteuil house I prayed that I wouldn't be too late.

When I arrived ten minutes later I ran to the door but stopped at the sight of Parkers BMW in the street. "Shit" I muttered but I wasn't about to let that stop me. I didn't care if she was fucking him I would just pull her skinny ass off of him and make her listen to me.

There was no door man and I knew the security code to get in the house so I stormed in not caring if Tiffani was at home or not. As I approached Kathryn's room I could hear murmured talking that I was sure was them. Without knocking I threw open the door to find Kathryn in bed with Parker. It hurt but I was relieved to see that she was still dressed in her nightie and they weren't having sex...yet.

At the sight of me both of them looked up in alarm. "Valmont what the hell are you doing here?" The arrogant son of bitch asked me.

I ignored him and looked at Kathryn "we have to talk now."

She looked back and forth between us and finally said "umm Parker I'll take care of Sebastian. It will only take a minute."

I was more than a little annoyed with how she was referring to me as just another nuisance. However if it got her away from him she could call me whatever she wished. Kathryn got out of bed and I could tell Parker was anything but happy about the situation based on the daggers he was throwing my way. Like I gave a shit.

As soon as the door was closed behind her Kathryn turned to me and hissed "what the hell do you want?"

"What are you doing with him?" I asked ignoring her question.

She shook her head "what the fuck does it look like were doing?"

"I can't believe your going to waste your time with that loser."

"I don't really care what you believe. Now get the fuck out."

I shook my head at her "no not until you here me out."

Her eyes flickered with rage as she stepped closer to me menacingly "we already settled things remember? It's over so just go back-"

"We didn't settle things you did! I never agreed to anything!"

Kathryn pushed me away from the door "keep you voice down. He'll here you."

"Good! I hope he does!"

"God what is it going to take to shut you up?"

I smiled slyly "you know what it's going to take."

She laughed coldly "oh dream on." Shaking her head she turned back around but this time I pulled her back to me and kissed her hard on the mouth. Kathryn struggled in my embrace and refused to kiss me back. However I didn't let that stop me as I continued my assault on her. Suddenly though I felt a sharp pain course through my lip and I realized she bit me.

I pulled away from her mouth and she pushed me away laughing "hurts doesn't it."

"You think this is funny?"

"Hysterical" she hissed as she pushed me roughly against the opposite wall. I was shocked when she started to attack my mouth with kisses. Kathryn kissed me hard and almost violently as if she was purposely trying to hurt me. It was very passionate in a twisted fucked up sort of way.

Taking hold of her I pushed her back against the wall and kissed her mouth, neck, breasts or anywhere else I could get my mouth. As I did so she grinded her small body into me and groaned. In the midst of all of this I realized I had to tell her why I came here. While kissing her neck I murmured "Kathryn I love you."

Suddenly as if getting shocked she stopped moving all together. Pulling away I looked up at her surprised face. She was silent and before I could speak she pushed me away gruffly and headed back to her room. I grabbed her arm "did you hear what I said?"

"Yes I heard you" she replied angrily as she yanked her arm free "and it's not funny."

"It wasn't meant to be. I love you Kathryn."

"Stop saying that!" She screamed

I didn't understand her attitude. I could see her telling me she didn't feel the same way but I didn't understand why she was so angry about it. "It's true" I told her softly.

Arms crossed firmly she told me coldly "so what?"

"So what? I tell you I love you and you say so what?"

"What do you want from me?"

For you to drop the ice bitch routine for five minutes would be nice I think. However I know that isn't the way to get what I want. "The truth...I know I mean more to you than that."

She laughed cruelly for a second "can you get over yourself. You were nothing more than a good fuck and a way to win the election nothing more. Don't delude yourself into thinking it was anything other than that."

"Bullshit. Do you really expect me to believe that? I know you better than that Kathryn." I stepped closer to her and she tried to step back but she was blocked by the door. In a voice nearing a whisper I told her "I love you and I know deep down you care about me maybe even love me. You can deny it all you want and push me away but I'm not letting it go. I'm going to prove it to you I don't care what I have to do."

This look flickered in her eyes that told me she did indeed care about me. However as quickly as it appeared it disappeared and her icy exterior returned. "Do whatever you want Sebastian but it won't work. Now if you'll excuse me I have a guest to attend to."

As she slipped back in the room I leaned against the closed door tired but not defeated. Not by a long shot. She could deny it all she wanted but I knew she cared about me I saw it in her eyes.

Stepping away from the door I headed back home with a new resolve. I put the thought of her and Parker out of my head. I couldn't think about that now. The only thing I needed to think about was winning her back and I would. As I headed across the street I looked up at Kathryn's balcony. I wasn't the least surprised to see her standing on it looking down at me. For a moment our eyes locked and I smiled up at her. She only frowned and walked back in to her awaiting boy toy.

However I didn't get upset by this because for once in my life I knew what I wanted and this time nothing would stop me from getting it.

- to be continued